Hi everyone! I'm back, which must be kind of a record for me but I just couldn't stop writing this first chapter of my new Addex-Story! I hope you enjoy it. If you haven't read "Feeling", I've posted the Epilogue for the newbies below, but if you want to get all the references that I'm planning to make in this story, you might want to check out some chapters of my other story too. I'd especially advise you to read the 3rd, 4th and 11th! But only if you want to of course!
Summary: Addison's pregnant. Follow her pregnancy. What's gonna happen in those 9 long months and how is Alex gonna handle it? Mostly fluff with some drama ensured!
Disclaimer: No, still don't own anything and probably never will, (sob, sob, that makes me feel all dark and twisty inside again!lol!)
But I'm sure your reviews will make me feel better about it, hopefully, pretty please!
Epilogue from „Feeling":
November 1, 2007:
"So, that's the last one" Alex said while putting another box down in the hallway of their new home. He smiled when he counted them. There were 3 boxes labelled "Alex" and 30 boxes labelled "Addison". Luckily she had made sure that their bedroom had a huge walk in closet but now Alex feared he wouldn't get any space at all in said closet.
They still hadn't be able to buy all the essential furniture but they had managed to go out and purchase a bed, a mattress, a kitchen table and some chairs which would do for just now.
Alex slowly walked into the sitting room and found his girlfriend staring towards the little backyard that also belonged to the house. He came closer and pressed his front to her back, resting his hands on her stomach.
"How did we get here Alex?" She asked melancholically
After contemplating the question for a moment he answered.
"Well, I'd say, a certain redhead wrapped me around her finger and made me fall in love with her!" He answered.
"Do you think the little one will like it here?" Alex nodded heavily.
"I'm sure the little one will love it here!" He told her, resting his head on her shoulder, pressing his hands a little tighter around her belly.
"We're gonna be a family!" She said, like she had only just realised now that in about 8 months there would be a tiny version of both of them brought into this world and she turned around to face the father of her unborn child.
"Yes, we're gonna be a family!" He repeated and kissed her with everything he had to give.
The End
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Never gonna leave your side - Chapter 1 - IKEA and morning sickness
November 15, 2007„Addison, what are you doing?" Was Alex's first question when he walked into their new purchased home after a 12 hour shift at the hospital. His girlfriend was sitting on the wooden floor in the living room, trying desperately to put up a little cabinet for their bathroom, following the IKEA – instructions, and that all by herself. This wouldn't really have surprised him at all, because Addison proved to be a maniac when it came to assemble furniture. In fact, the last couple of weeks they had practically lived at IKEA but that was just another thing that made him love her even more. She wasn't the Prada wearing brat that Meredith, Cristina and Izzie thought she was. No, she let him see the way she really was: The girl next door. However, considering that it was only just 4 o'clock in the morning this was quite an odd sight that he had walked into. Addison was wearing her red flannel pyjamas, pink slippers and her fiery red hair was pulled together in a messy ponytail, strands of it partly covering her face.
"What does it look like?" Came the cheeky retort from the redheaded woman. She looked up at him with a screwdriver in her hand and Alex eyed her suspiciously but he couldn't help himself and smirked a little.
"I can do this! I'm a surgeon for crying out loud! I should be able to follow these stupid instructions!" She rambled, clearly not satisfied with her achievement so far.
"No I meant, what are you doing up at 4 in the morning?" He questioned again, hoping she would answer honestly.
"I couldn't sleep." She simply said, breathing out loudly, because she knew there was probably a lecture waiting for her and she was definitely not in the mood for that. However Alex's face turned from amused looking to seriously worried and she just knew what was coming.
"Addison, you need to rest, you know that better than me! You've been an OB attending for how long? 10 years? Just do what you keep telling your patients, please!" He pleaded with her and hoped to god that she wouldn't freak out.
"You're not my doctor!" She snapped and turned back around, refocusing her attention to the damn instructions that kept giving her a hard time.
Alex had gotten used to this already and he knew that patience usually worked, so he stepped out of the doctor mode that he had without a doubt brought home with him from the hospital and walked around his girlfriend, sitting down next to her on the floor.
"Hey, you know what? I delivered a healthy baby girl tonight, all by myself!" He told her and wrapped an arm around her shoulders, pulling her closer to his chest.
"You did?" She asked curiously, looking up at him through her emerald eyes.
"Yes, I did! And during the whole delivery I was thinking about you and that in about 8 months we're gonna be in that delivery room, welcoming our child to the world!"
"Really?" She smiled at him and crooked her head to the side, so she could rest it on his shoulder. A single tear made its way down her already flushed cheek. Alex noticed that immediately and grew worried again.
"Sweety what is it?" He asked compassionately, stroking her head with one hand as she silently sobbed into his shirt.
"I'm…..I'm…. just so tired and I know it's not good for the baby, I know I should sleep but I just can't. I can't go to sleep Alex, I keep having those nightmares every time I do sleep…"
"Nightmares? Why haven't I noticed this? You never woke me up at night!" He asked curiously while continuing to comfort her. "What are they about Addison? Do you remember?"
"I……." She paused for a moment to take in a deep breath. "I….I keep reliving the night of the accident. It's replaying over and over again and it always feels so real. Alex, I can't lose you. I can't raise our child by myself. I can't do this without you! I'm so scared that something like that is gonna happen to you again." She carefully put her hand on his chest where she knew there was the constant reminder of what had happened not too long ago, hidden under his shirt. The scar that she saw every time they made love to each other. The relict that brought back hurtful memories of those incredibly painful hours she spent worrying about loosing him, before she even had him, before she really knew him, before she knew about his sister and the baby she was carrying inside of her and everything that followed. Every time she thought about it, the pain would slice through her own chest, leaving a mark inside of her that was invisible to anyone but her.
"Shhh, It's okay now. I'm here and I'm never gonna leave you. I'm so sorry Addison, I didn't realise that this was still haunting you!" He tried to sooth her.
"It only happens on the nights when you're working, the nightmares I mean." She told him. "Please don't leave me alone again, please!" She begged.
"I'm gonna talk to the Chief as soon as I can, promise, see whether I can change all my shifts so I won't have to work at night. I'm sure he'll understand once we tell him why, okay?"
"Okay!" Addison repeated and smiled a little.
"That's a girl! Now let's see if we can still catch some sleep before dawn." He suggested and stood up. He held a hand out to help Addison up. She placed the screwdriver on the floor and Alex pulled her up, immediately putting an arm around her waist to support her on their walk up the stairs to their bedroom.
When Alex felt that Addison's mood had lightened up a bit and they were lying in bed together he joked
"So you can't build something we bought at IKEA?" He teased "That's really embarrassing for one of the foremost neonatal surgeons, isn't it?" He smirked and pulled her closer to him so that her back was pressed against his chest.
"Shut up!" She said, smiling and reaching behind Alex to slap him on the head but she missed it and hit his neck instead. "Have you ever done that before Mr. Know-it-all? It's not as easy as it looks! There are so many screws and nails and whatever the other stuff is called! I'm telling you, it's almost more difficult than an appendectomy!"
"Well…" He started but she turned around in his embrace and gave him a challenging look.
"I swear to god Karev if you spill that to anyone, I'm gonna tell the Chief to put you back on Sloan's service!" She smirked confidently.
"Oh, are we back to last names now Dr. Montgomery?" He joked, smirking right back at her.
"Will you hold me until I have fallen asleep Alex?" She asked him and smiled weakly because her own tiredness slowly took over and her body started to feel limp in his embrace.
"Of course Addison, I'd do anything to help you sleep better!" He answered and hugged her even tighter with both arms wrapped around her waist and whispered into her ear.
"I love you Addison" and he kissed the top of her head
"I love you too Alex!" She answered faintly, already on the verge of falling asleep.
Alex waited for a few minutes until he heard her breathing finally even out. When he was sure that she was fast asleep, he let himself close his own shattered eyes and joined her.
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When Alex opened his eyes again and checked the alarm clock on his bedside table it showed him that it was already past lunchtime. There was a slump of duvets where Addison had originally lain next to him and the comforting smell of coffee was surrounding him within seconds. He immediately realised what that meant and was suddenly wide away. He followed the aroma downstairs where he found Addison sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of said fluid in her hands and Alex stepped over, took the cup away from her and walked over to stand behind the kitchen island, which was as far away as he could get before the volcano erupted over him.
"Alex!" Addison screamed, clearly getting angry with him.
"You can't drink coffee, you're pregnant!" He said simply, sipping her coffee himself.
"Alex, first of, I already told you, you're not my doctor, so stop bossing me around! And second, that's decaf you're drinking, you moron!" She said and moved to take her mug back from him.
"There's still some regular coffee in the machine for you though!" She added and sat back down.
"Sorry!" Alex said and shrugged his shoulders. "I'm just worried about you and the baby!"
"Well, you shouldn't! We're perfectly fine I assure you! She said, turning a page of the paper that was spread out in front of her.
Alex placed a slice of bread in the toaster and sat down at the table next to her. "We don't have to be at work till 6 right? Do you want me to help you finish with the thing you started in the living room last night?" He placed a hand on top of hers and smiled at her.
"That would be great. Thanks." She smiled back at him.
"How did you sleep?" He asked compassionately. "No bad dreams?"
"No, I slept perfectly fine!" She answered and he put his hands around her from behind and they cuddled a little until Addison spoke again.
"So you never really finished telling me about that baby you delivered yesterday!" She asked curiously and so they went on doctor-talking to each other for a while until another question popped into Alex's head.
"What do you think our kid will look like?" He asked her.
"Well, it's probably gonna have red-brown hair and I really hope he or she is gonna have your big brown puppy-dog eyes oh, and if it's anything like you it's probably gonna be seriously stubborn and obnoxious with a huge ego and it's gonna send out mixed signals to the girls or boys it's attracted to and it's gonna be saying perfect things at times oh, oh and it's gonna be a smartass and really cocky…!"
"And bossy and hot-headed and it's gonna fall in love with inappropriate people." He broke her off.
"Alex I was just kidding! You're not inappropriate!" She answered.
"I wasn't referring to me. I was thinking about Shepherd and Sloan!" He said with a cocky grin on his face.
"You're unbelievable!" Addison explained while slapping his shoulder playfully.
"Yes I am and my hot girlfriend and my hot boss seem to like that about me!" He smirked but instead of going on he kneeled down in front of Addison, pushed her shirt up a little and placed his hands on her naked stomach.
"Alex, seriously, I'm not in the mood!" She said because she misread his gesture.
He just looked up at her quickly before he returned his attention to her stomach.
"Hello little one, it's your daddy." He started and Addison's face broke into a wide smile. She couldn't believe how sweet and attentive Alex Karev was.
"I know I won't be able to hold and see you for a while yet, but please don't give your mummy a hard time. She let's you live in her belly for the next 8 months and you're probably really gonna like it in there but I can't wait to see your face and to hold you in my arms. I promise I'm always gonna be there for you and your mum!" He said and placed a gentle kiss on Addison's stomach. When he looked back up at her he saw tears making their way down her cheeks but she was smiling through them.
"I'm so lucky to have you Alex Karev!" He said and took his head between her hands and kissed him on his lips.
"And I'm the luckiest man alive to have you!" He said back before he pulled her shirt back down and held out his hand.
"Shall we?"
"Yes, please!" And she followed his lead to the living room.
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At 4 am Alex was standing opposite Addison in OR 1. He couldn't help himself but smile behind his mask when he helped Addison to birth another child. He was so excited about Addison's pregnancy that he had a hard time keeping it a secret from his friends. But they had agreed that they didn't want anyone except the Chief to know yet, so he had to keep his mouth shut. Who would have thought of Alex Karev as the daddy type? Meanwhile, they had successfully delivered the baby, who was crying away in the incubator a few feet away from his mom but suddenly something wasn't right anymore. Addison was just suturing up the mothers abdomen when she abruptly mentioned for Alex to take over for her.
"Mmhh Dr. Karev, can you finish this up for me please?" She asked and handed him the tweezers. "I've got to…" and she ran out of the OR without another word.
"Addison!" Alex screamed but she didn't turn around.
"Damn it!" He swore. As much as he wanted to follow her, he couldn't just leave their patient open on the table.
"Page someone from OB to finish this, NOW!" Alex barked at the scrub nurses hovering behind him. He couldn't focus, he had to go and check on Addison. What if something had happened? After 10 unimaginably torturous minutes of waiting another OB had scrubbed in and was able to take over for Alex. He hadn't even been able to perform one single stitch, he'd never seen his hands shake so uncontrollably before. He immediately stripped himself of the OR gown and ran down the hall.
"Karev, slow down!" Bailey shouted after him. He stopped and turned around to face the chief resident.
"Dr. Bailey, have you seen Addison?" He asked, clearly out of breath from his sprint down the hallway.
"No, what happened?" She asked concerned.
"She just ran out of surgery and I don't know where she went because I had to stay with the patient."
"Okay, I'll help you look for her." Bailey agreed when she read Alex's anxious expression. "I'll check the women's rest rooms and you the on call rooms and the locker rooms." She ordered. Alex hadn't even rounded the corner when he heard Baileys voice again.
"Alex, she's in here!" He short woman screamed and he came back immediately, finding Addison throwing up nothing in one of the stalls of the closest bathrooms
"Addison, are you okay?" Bailey asked compassionately. A wave of nausea had just passed, so she pulled away from the toilet and sat down with her back pressed up against the wall. She looked paler than ever and Alex crouched down next to her and placed a hand on her shoulder.
"Make sure you check her out Karev. The early flu season has already reached the hospital, she may have caught it." Dr. Bailey suggested.
Without speaking Alex placed his other cold hand on her forehead. He knew what this was, but he didn't dare to say anything, however Addison didn't really seem to think before she spoke up.
"Thanks Miranda, but I'm not sick, it's okay!" She said, but noticed her mistake right away.
"But then, wait you're not by any chance pregnant?" She asked while sending a death stare in Alex's direction.
"No, of course not, I think I do have a fever, Alex?." She desperately tried to pull her head out of the sling she'd made for herself.
"Yes, you do feel a little hot!" Alex lied, trying to sound as professional as possible.
"Not my intern, not my problem, not anymore. " Miranda muttered to herself while walking out of the bathroom.
When the door behind Dr. Bailey had closed, Alex returned his full attention to his girlfriend, locking eyes with her.
"God, morning sickness really sucks!" She said and rested her head on his muscular shoulder.
"I'm sure it sucks big time but Addison, you didn't have any abdominal pain, any dizziness or a headache right? You have to tell me if you're experiencing any of these symptoms, you know that, don't you?" He told her while rubbing small circles on her back with one of his hands.
"Yes, Alex, of course I'd tell you! I was just really nauseous, that's all!" She answered, smiling a little.
"Listen, why don't you go and lay down in the on-call room for a bit. I still have some charts to finish but I promise I'll wake you up when I'm ready to go home okay?" Alex suggested and Addison accepted gratefully.
"So, no more night shifts for you either, I guess!" Alex said while supporting her on their way to the on call room.
"No, and definitely no surgeries that early in the morning!" She agreed and started to feel better but when another wave of nausea hit her after only resting for a few minutes, Addison feared that these upcoming 8 months might possibly be the longest of her life.
I hope you liked the start. I'm sorry it got a bit dark&twisty there with the nightmares, but this is gonna be a happy and fluffy fic in general!
The IKEA-references that I put in are based on my own experience! Damn you IKEA! (No, just kidding, I actually love shopping there!;)!
Thanks for reading and please leave a review and let me know what you think!
Coming up next: Sonogram pictures and Callie gets involved!