When she was 15, Sakura confessed one more time to Sasuke. She hoped that three years after her first confession he will start noticing her, loving her but Sasuke was still the same boy. He was still not interested in going out with girls and he was still far from in love with her. He recognized her powers and her abilities as a medic ninja but that was all he could see in her. Sakura could never be a potential lover and he was not willing to waste time with something that might never work. So, he bluntly told her again that she was annoying and the next day walked outside the village with his brother and Naruto to train in the mountains. Sakura could not believe her ears when he betrayed her again so she secluded herself in her office and cried until her tears dried and she could not shed another tear. After that, she was never the same again. She stopped going out with her friends, she stopped going home to her worried parents and she stopped working as a doctor. Nobody could reach her anymore. Even when called out she wouldn't answer. She no longer recognized her name and she no longer cared who needed or called her. Sakura took things from home and moved in her office, where she waste time pretending to study new things, refusing to treat people or help out at the hospital. Everyone knew the cause of her despair but nobody could help her so they gave her space to solve her problems in the beginning but after a while they realized she was not going to return to her old self. But, instead of solving her problems, Sakura kept on looking for other problems to solve and sometimes actually having problems with the police. She got arrested twice and only after another warning she became a "good girl" again and kept her hands away from trouble.
Sasuke came back home four months later but at that point Sakura was already a lost case. She was no longer interested in being with him and she was constantly avoiding him. But one thing was peculiar for everyone: she was constantly flirting with other Uchihas. Many tried to speak with her and tell her she should have some dignity and stop trying to hurt herself but she ignored them all and by the time she was 16 she no longer spoke with the friends from her childhood. She stopped going on missions and stopped caring about others, including herself. Probably around that year she discovered the beauty of not giving a damn anymore. She no longer got herself in trouble with the police but she kept on running after Uchihas like a maniac.
But problems always seem to follow Sakura around so one night, during one of her tries to win an Uchiha, she found the wrong one. She thought he will fall for her but instead she just got him angry. Uchiha Shisui was casually drinking whiskey with ice when a pink haired young lady sat right next to him at the bar. She told the barman that she is still thinking about what to drink before resting her left elbow on the countertop and her chin in her palm. She pretended to look at the bottles of alcohol after which she tilted her head to stare at him. Shisui looked at her from the corner of his eyes, liking what he was seeing: long slender legs, short white dress with no sleeves and pink hair brushing her arms. From his point of view, she looked like a really tasty lollipop, but he knew from experience that nothing good comes with women as beautiful as her.
Her dark green eyes investigated his black ones for quite a while. Disappointed that the man was ignoring her, Sakura looked at his nearly empty glass. "What are you drinking?" she asked on a sweet voice. Shisui looked at her for only a second before closing his eyes and deciding not to answer. Sakura pulled her chair closer to him and touching his elbow with hers. He looked again at her before retreating his arm from the countertop. His eyes glared at her as a warning before finishing his drink. "Aren't you cold," she said trying to stare into his eyes.
Shisui closed his eyes and sighed. He took out of his pocket a pair of handcuffs which he dropped between them. "Are you going to arrest me?" she joked amused by his reaction.
The man giggled as well. "A minor should not be in here," he stated tired from her pathetic tries to flirt with him. "Haruno Sakura, 16 years old, Sasuke's teammate and Tsunade-sama's pupil."
Sakura's eyes narrowed, unpleased to see that the man was actually aware of who she was. Not finding a way out, she smiled and turned to face the barman. "It is not illegal to be in here," she stated. "I did not order anything with alcohol."
"That does not mean that you can go around bothering people when they try to relax."
"Arrest me for that," she snorted. Shisui glared at her as he could not find any words to contradict her. The two stared at each other, each of them suddenly bothered by the presence of the other.
"You are well known for trying to get involved with men from my clan," he told her disgusted by her. The girl is very beautiful and he would not mind having a closer look but she is a minor and on top of that she has a bad reputation. Her looks alone are not enough to fool him. "Don't you feel bad for embarrassing your parents and your teachers with this attitude?"
Sakura clenched her fists for a second, ready to throw the man a hard punch before taking a deep breath and deciding it was not worth it. Catching everyone's attention is not part of her plan. She would only give him a reason to arrest her and that is his aim. She got up from the chair, glowering at the man as she walked away. It was not her lucky night. All she wanted was to have a better look at his eyes but he was not as friendly as he looked. Sakura knows about him, he is famous after all. As one of the strongest shinobi from Konoha, Shisui proved himself to be loyal and worthy, with no fears and no flaws, a man with a kind heart but who has no objections to killing. On top of that he is a very attractive man. Sakura felt how great he was just by sitting next to him. She wanted to use him for her experiments but it seems that his kindness is not as great as his status of a shinobi.
Outside was raining so Sakura rolled her eyes annoyed by her lack of luck for the night. She leaned next to the door and looked at the dark clouds covering the sky. It will take a while before the rain stops and she wanted to be back as soon as possible to write down everything she noticed about Shisui. There was not much but the information she gathered that night together with what she learned before will complete each other.
15 minutes later, Sakura was still there waiting for a miracle to happen. It was indeed not her lucky night as Shisui, who just got outside the bar, found himself bothered by the rain as well. He leaned over the wall, next to her, with his hands in his pockets and eyes closed. Sakura peeped at him from time to time, fascinated by his aura. He is a beautiful man, she thought trying to restrain herself from touching him. She learns from her mistake. Maybe in the past she was a foolish child with way too many hormones but now she is a woman with pride. She will never fall in love again. At least, not with a man. Sakura kept on staring at his eyes, noticing his long eyelashes. But she isn't there for love. She is there to examine her prey.
Unfortunately for Sakura, her pride lasted for two minutes before she grabbed a rock from the ground and threw it at the peaceful man. Shisui caught the rock before hitting his face and opened his eyes revealing his sharingan. That was what she wanted, his sharingan. He could catch the rock but he was not ready to stop her from cupping his face with her palls. Her sudden reaction caught him off guard. Green eyes stared into his red ones with fascination. In the last year she had the opportunity to see many sharingans but this one seems to be on fire. "Say, don't you want to give me these eyes of yours?" she asked stretching her fingers to his eyes. Only one if she could have…imagine that!
Shisui released the rock and violently grabbed her hands provoking pain waves through her arms. Despite this, Sakura portrayed no emotions on her face. She is not bothered by the physical pain. "Now I can arrest you without feeling bad," he growled bothered by her boldness. He can arrest her for assault and put her in a cell for a few months. There are rules in Konoha and one of them is to never attempt to steal a sharingan or byakugan. None of those matter to Sakura though. She has nothing to lose anymore.
Sakura giggled amused and leaned over his body, pressing her chest. "There is nothing you would not do for your clan," she reminded him. "I know about you just as you know about me." She always studies her prey beforehand. Uchiha Shisui is all she needs in order to complete her work. "Come with me," she released her hands, catching him off guard again, and motioned him to follow her. Shisui knows better when to stop but for some reason his feet moved without his consent. He blindly followed her through the rain, eyes not losing her sight. The two walked through the rain to the hospital. By the time they reached the hospital they were soaked to the skin.
From time to time Sakura looked over her shoulder to make sure the man was following her. Upon arriving at her office, she took out the key and unlocked the door. Shisui had the great opportunity to walk inside an office where not even Tsunade was allowed. He noticed her clothes gathered in three boxes, her toothbrush on the sink, a bra shamelessly lying on the bed which she once used to examine people. He forgot everything the moment he noticed the big drawings hanging on the wall: different types of sharingan thoroughly sketched accompanied by well-studied information. He froze in the middle of the room, not knowing what to think. He might have found a sociopath.
Sakura walked to a box and took out two towels. She covered her head with one of them and the other one she handed to him. Shisui looked from her to the towel and back to her before daring to take it. Sakura smiled as a response and walked to her desk. "Welcome to my hell," she laughed amused by his reaction.
Ever since Sasuke rejected her she could not see anything ahead of her. Everything she did was for him. His harsh words forced her to realize that she had nothing to live for anymore. She struggled and struggled, and the agony tore her apart. Being a medic suddenly disgusted her. When she moved in her office she made sure to have no mirrors there. Even to this day she cannot stand looking at her pitiful reflection. Since she hated everything she learned until that incident she had to come up with something new to know. She needed to keep her mind busy. "I will solve the blindness provoked by the sharingan," she proudly announced.
Shisui looked from the drawings to her. He noticed how her white dress became transparent, revealing her simple white bra. "You should change," he told her instead. Sakura looked at her dress and noticed what she was referring to.
"Do you mind?" she asked feeling way too lazy to change. Shisui shook his head as a reply and started using the tower to dry his hair. "What do you say? Unlimited usage of your sharingan without fearing you will go blind." She feels like a sales woman who tries to convince Shisui to buy something really cheap and of no value at a very high price.
"It is not hard to guess why we go blind."
"No, but if I find what exactly causes everything I can treat it."
Shisui sighed and walked to the chair next to Sakura. "I think Tsunade-sama is disappointed you are wasting your time with these things," he told her putting the towel on the chair. "You have a lot of potential as a medic so don't waste your time here."
She hates when people try to give her advices although they do not know her at all. Sakura tried to change the subject. "I am being nice. I asked for your help instead of trying to steal your eyes," she insisted.
Her eyes stared at his back until he closed the door and left her alone in the office. This is not the first time she gets rejected but somehow this time is different. It reminds her of the time Sasuke rejected her. She feels lonely, depressed and the agony is unbearable. He seemed different. When she approached him she felt like he was a man capable of really interesting conversations. She heard rumors about him and she thought she knew who he was but it looks like she knew too little. For some reasons, all the Uchihas reject her. Is she disgusting? Is there something wrong with her? Sakura slipped down the wall to the ground. She stretched her legs in front of her and hit the wall with her head. She is frustrated. She is so angry she could kill a man with no remorse. Why is everything happening to her? All her life she was dedicated to doing good and she never took a life to say that karma is punishing her. Where did she fuck everything up? Despite being considered smart she is very stupid. She fucked her life.
The tower fell on the ground as she hit her head again. "Stupid! Stupid!" she growled annoyed with herself and hit the wall again. "Fuck!" Maybe she should commit suicide and get it over and done with. There is really nothing to live for anymore.
As she was about to strangle herself, the door suddenly opened and Shisui walked back inside her office. She tried to hide her surprise by portraying a confident smile. "I knew you will be back," she shamelessly lied.
Shisui snorted as he sat next to her on the floor. He handed her a dose of hot coffee. He has no idea why he is back but for some reason those green eyes hunted his mind. He just had to come back and see her again. "Tell me more about this plan of yours."
She opened the dose, staring at the steam. "I have no plans…" she admitted. "Maybe some ideas…I want to see how far I can go without failing." She really does not care to save any more people. Nobody tries to save her either so why bother to do that? "I want to achieve something for my own pride." This was not the plan. She never intended to tell him that. She wanted to be confident about finding a cure, but she ended being proud of her pitiful obsession.
"It sounded better before," he admitted.
"So was my life before destroying it with a stupid past obsession." Only now she is aware of how many obsessions she has. Why didn't she give up on Sasuke before destroying herself? Was it worth it? Was destroying her his only objective? Sakura started giggling by herself. Who knows what life had planned for her? She finished her coffee and got up. "Want to waste your life with me?"
It is clear to him that she is a crazy person. What happened to this girl that she ended up like that? He is curios. Sakura threw her dose next to the trash bin and turned to hear his answer. She is crazy, he concluded one more time. Why the fuck does he even want to be part of her shitty game? "Why the hell not?" Hell, he wants to see where this will take. Maybe she will actually accomplish something. They say that geniuses are crazy people not understood by others. Maybe he just doesn't understand her yet.
Excited by his answer she kneed in front of him and cupped his cheeks to have a better look at his dark eyes. She is fascinated by their beauty. Finally, there is a reason for her to keep on living her shitty and useless life. She will accomplish something new. "Do we start tomorrow?" she asked.
"Tomorrow I am going to Sunagakure for two weeks."
"I guess I can wait," she sighed disappointed. "But don't die. I need those eyes."
Shisui stared into her dark green eyes. He can tell that she does not value lives anymore but rather she is focused on her happiness only. She is egoistic. She is cruel. But above all, her desires have no limits. He feels like he just sold his soul to the devil. There are no chances for him to ever have a peaceful end. "There are other sharingan users," he reminded her. Sakura did not reply. Not because she didn't have arguments but because she didn't want him to hate her more than he already did. Of course, he can be replaced, but she needs his eyes. If he happens to die, well, it cannot be helped. She will find someone else. But she hates the idea of having to find another person. "Like Sasuke," he told her with no ill intention. Sakura transformed before his eyes. He could not believe she could get darker and crazier than she already was.
Sakura wanted to punch him in the face but she purposely missed and hit the wall behind him, cracking it and silencing him from saying more bullshit. She wants to tell him to never say that name in front of her but she does not want him to know her weakness. She must be strong. Out of the sudden she started laughing and got up. "I told you, I need those eyes."
Shisui was left without words. He is not the type to lose an argument but this time he would much rather lose it than having the conversation with her. There is no doubt that something is not right in her head. "You should see a doctor," he told her as he got up as well. "He can help you better than I can."
The girl smiled and bit her lower lip in a playful way. "Don't be silly. I am too messed to be fixed up."
This is my new fanfiction about Shisui and Sakura! Please leave me reviews with your opinions! ^.^