"WHAT THE EVER-LOVING FUCK IS IT NOW, AMPORA?" The bitter words stung my think-pan as I approached my 'friend' Karkat. He was always like that. Not that I cared…
"I just wwanted to drop in and say 'Hi'" I mumbled the words slightly, already knowing how he would react.
"ALRIGHT FUCK ASS, HI. NOW GO THE FUCK AWAY. IM BUSY" I raised my eyebrow at him. He had just been sittin' there for a long time.
"Really? Wwith wwhat?" I tried to grin. It failed.
"ERIDAN. GO THE FUCK AWAY. NOW." His look of anger stung like Sollux's bees. I shrugged it off and walked past him, punching his shoulder lightly. He growled at me and I turned around, giving him a wink. His face turned candy red, not with flush, with anger and I laughed, opening the door to our apartment in the human world and walked out the door.
I live with Karkat, Fefairy, Sollux, Gamzee, and Nepeta. Gamzee's usually out clubbing, Fef works A LOT, Sol is always in his and Kar's room. As for Nepeta, she's usually running around town, at the mall, looking for cosplayers and such. Karkat is really the only 'normal' one of them. I'm usually not home as it is. Some human named Dave Strider, I doubt you'd know him… He sometimes lets me crash on his couch if the gang is mad at me. They usually are…
As I neared the end of the street I saw Equius. I nonchalantly waved to which as a reply I got a flexed arm in the air as a response. The rest of our race lived in different apartments all over the city. Everyone had started to ignore me totally when we moved to earth. Alternia was destroyed, we didn't have much a choice.
Continuing walking, I could hear the exited squeals of different girls behind me. I didn't care for any of them, they probably just liked me because I'm a hipster. And on Earth hipsters are attractive to some women. Oh well. I don't give a fuck. I won't lie though, it is fun to mess with them. They want a bulge, I want attention.
I stopped for a moment, closing my eyes recalling the times spent with many women before… Some of them didn't care that I was a freak, and we had some fun, the others threatened to squeal to the government. Of course, I had Vriska take care of that for me.
Continuing yet again, I saw a starbucks come into view. Coffee was pretty good, and I could certainly use one right about now…
Hours past. Why the fuck wasn't he here yet? I looked in the mirror, fixing my shades, making sure my part was in place. I jumped up at the sound of keys in the door. I ran up to it, holding the door with all of my weight. Looking through the peephole, I saw it was Eridan. I smiled slightly, I mean… I can smile right now, no one can see me. After getting the door unlocked, he leaned on it to open it. To his surprise, it didn't budge. After a few tries of just leaning, he laughed and backed up. Thinking I had won, I let some weight off of the door. Then he threw himself against it, throwing me back a bit.
I hit the ground with a thud, Eridan just leaned over and picked up his coffee that he had set down before throwing himself. "I've told you many times to stop holdin' the door shut!" He said through a hidden smirk. He set his coffee on the counter and extended a hand, offering to help me up. I slapped it out of the way and ran my hand through my hair, scowling at him.
"I've told you many times that coffee isn't good for you." I mumbled, helping myself up with the edge of the countertop. Not like saying that mattered to him. He was tall, his teeth were already a funny shade of yellowish white. I sighed again and fixed my hair again too. A blonde so light it looked white… Or.. Was it white? I'd look into that later.
"Who cares, it tastes good" He picked it back up and took a sip. "When's John coming over?" He gave me a curious look through his stupid glasses that I hated so much.
"He's not coming over tonight." I groaned, my ass hurt so bad from that fall.
Eridan smirked and kissed my forehead. "So I'm assuming…?" He threw his jacket to the floor and leaned in to kiss me…
"GODDAMN IT ERIDAN!" I yelled, looking at his arms. "I told you to stop this shit! Do you know what you're doing to yourself?!" He jumped back in surprise, not expecting my yell.
"Dave.. I'm…I'm sorry but, Fef and…" He frowned, looking at me pathetically. He hugged himself, tearing up. One of them was still bleeding.
I tore his arm away from him, gripping his wrist so tightly, I wondered if even that Equius guy could have broken free. "When was this?" His face was turning purple from embarrassment and the purple tinted tears.
"A few hours ago… I figured it would have sealed by now… I-" I let go of his arm and hugged him.
"Bro, please… For me?" I cringed saying that. "nevermind… For Fefairy, or Sollux…. Or whoever the fuck, just… stop, bro!" I could feel myself tearing up as well. The last time Eridan had cut was when Sollux snapped. He had made it three whole months… Three months and then fucking Fefairy commented on his scars. She made fun of him of course and he ran to me, arms cut up, nose runny… I had to help him, and then I did something I could only do with one person…
I fell in love with a fish-faced loser. Loser? No… I loved him more than I did John…
Felling my tears roll down my cheeks, I moved away and kneelt down. I grabbed his arms and kissed all of the scars and the new cuts, everything. I didn't really mind the metallic tasting purple liquid now on my lips…
"Dave, stop…" I whispered through my teeth. I was still holding back more tears when I finally just fell to the ground. "I'll stop, okay? This is.. this is the last time, I promise!" I just hoped my empty promises would fill his heavy human heart with relief. "It's done…" I whispered, hugging him tightly. I was just slightly taller than him, which made it easier. "I'm sorry… I love you…" I put my jacket back on slowly and got up, lifting him with me. "Do you… Do you forgive me?" To reassure him more, I turned on the tears … well, more of them.
"No." Well that was flat. "I can't forgive you until I see you've really changed. One week, eridan, one week." His usual cool-guy attitude always dropped when we were alone, and he became the sweetest little human a troll could ever love.
"Alright…"
A/N
Their night went on with movies at a slight bit of lemon, but not in the first chapter can I reveal that! NONONONONONOOO!
Anyways, this is for a friend of mine, struggling with depression, and fear of people judging him for his sexuality. And bro, we love you soooo much 3 all of us! (I'm sending this to him later…)
^^not in a lovey kinda way in a… I'm here to support you kinda… I'm gonna shut up.
Sorry this chapter SUCKS ASS. It's really late and I'm crying, having a panic attack, hoping for the best with everything that's going on and oh…..
TC…
I'm here for you. I love you soooo much, call me when ever, even when I'm working
You too guy this story is for but I shall not mention your name C:
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