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Bella's Hell

Cold and empty they were the only emotions I could feel at the moment. You would think that after what he did that I'd be furious, screaming, and confused. Don't get me wrong I'm mad as hell. I'll get my revenge one day. An when I do….all hell will break lose. But right now at this moment of shock and emptiness. I'm content to just sit there and be oblivious to what's around me.

Just listening to the rain and thunder it describes my mood perfectly. I remember when a few days ago how I wish I could hear everything like the rain falling around me. But now I realize I'll have no one to spend eternity with. No One.

As I stand here in shock I don't hear the ruffle of leaves or the stick that breaks. I'm pinned to the ground before I can even blink. It takes me a few moments to realize what's happening but once I see the curtain of red covering my face it all clicks … Victoria. She's just inches away from my face and I can see the venom dripping down her chin. When my eyes lock with hers I can see the pure hatred and rage and all that is directed solely on me. That's when I come to finality of it I'm going to die today. In this dark and cold forest and I think, will they even find my body out here or will I just rot away.

I speak suddenly "It doesn't matter, he dosent love me, I was just a little toy a distraction." She snarls at me and pushes me harder into the ground I wince. "What do you mean you pathetic girl?" she demands. "That's why I'm out here alone he said he doesn't love I was just a distraction entertainment for him and his family." She laughs and says" Your still the reason my beloved James is dead. I'll have great pleasure in kill…" she stops and gets this strange look on her face then a huge smile appears on that face." I have a better idea why not change you and let you live eternity alone with no mate and no family." My heart skips a beat anything but that I think I'd rather die than that. She can see it too the way I tense up and by the speed of my heart.

As her face comes closer I think about the people that might miss me the most. Charlie should be ok he has the Blacks, and Renee and Phil have each other. Sure everyone will mourn and cry but they'll survive. Jake has the pack and eventually he'll imprint. Then I think of THEM they left me for dead I hate them all of them maybe accept jasper and rose. Jasper shouldn't blame himself and rose never liked me anyway. Everyone should be ok it's not like I had a lot of friends anyway.

Then I realize where was I going to go if I obviously can't go back. Maybe I'll go to different countries explore a bit. Maybe Italy I stop and think for a moment The Volturi. HE told me about them maybe they can kill me as a vampire. I abruptly stop thinking as her fangs sink deep into my life blood and I scream begging for her to stop but eventually my throat goes hoarse. She bites my wrists and ankles. I feel it coursing through my entire body like I'm burning from the inside out. They said it feels like you're on fire guess that was an understatement. This is supposed to last for three days ohh god.

My eyes are slowly closing but I see Victoria lean down next my ear" Enjoy eternity alone." Then she's gone just like that. There's no way to escape this, this is final I'm going to be vampire no matter what. I always wanted to be one, but without him what is there. As my vision gets fuzzy I slip into darkness and the burning. My last thought" I hope he burns in hell."

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