BLUE
A fanfiction by Random-Crazyness
CHAPTER ONE
She trembled under the shining autumn moon. He was close, so close she could count each dark fleck in his eyes. It's not that she hated him, quite the contrary. It's just that she couldn't handle the facts. He was so different from her, he was tall, dark, handsome...She was cold, aloof and unfeeling. What had he seen in her? How could he stand by her, knowing what she was? He drew closer, his eyes closing slowly. She pushed him away.
" What's the matter?" He questioned with his, calm, soothing voice. She hated that voice. It made it all the harder to push him away.
" I just..." She couldn't find an excuse. He had that effect on her. " I gotta go, they probably need me back."
She grabbed her coat and dashed off into the night, leaving him on the cold, wet sand.
" Raven?"
The Azar rushed past the puzzled faces of her comrades.It was selfish,but she coudn't confide in them. They were...naive, for lack of a better word. They were still immature in their romances. Robin and Starfire barely went out on their first date. Beast Boys' relationship with Terra was abruptly ended with her petrification. In all fairness, Cyborgs' connection with Bumblebee was just as serious, but the fact that she lived across the country put a strain on it. But then again, he lived in same tower. However, he was able to make it to Jump city almost every other night. It was strange, She never saw their T-ship. Come to think of it, he always seemed to look a little dissheveled whenever he came. Maybe he swam. He was special like that.
" Raven! Friend, is something the matter?"
Starfire really was a sweetheart, no wonder she was so popular. But Raven had no time for sugar tonight.
" Umm...sorry Star, can't talk tonight, I have cramps." Raven blurted out as she rushed past.
" Friend raven," Starfire placed her hands on her hips. "One day, you will need to explain "the cramps" to me."
Raven approached the inviting steel door of her room. She couldn't remember when she was so happy to see her room, despite how frightening it was sometimes. He didn't say it was scary. He said it was beautiful. Her own brand of beauty. Raven felt her cheeks blush as she felt around in her dresser. She was looking for her mirror. It may sound crazy, but the only person she could talk to about this was herself, or herselves, to be more precise. Running her fingertips over the smooth glass surface, she groped for the handle. The mirror had changed since she last used it. It was now adorned with ivory ravens, gamboling around the pure crystal. The transformation was unexplained, but Raven assumed that it was because she and the other Titans defeated her father months ago. Closing her eyes, Raven concentrated on the plane existing within herself.
The air was thick with salt. Aqualad sat on the damp sand, thinking over the nights activities. He and Raven shared a fantastic Italian dinner, sans seafood, of course. They strolled on the beach, skipped rocks...Maybe he was too old-fashioned. She certainly was a neo sort of girl, pacifistic and with her pagan beliefs. Perhaps she wanted something...darker, from a man. Aqualad got up, brushed the sand off his jeans and leapt into the ocean. He would have to think on it later.
Mist enveloped her, as Raven descended into Nevermore. She could see crumbling marble columns materialize below her. Indeed, Nevermore changed to match the mirror. It was now a bright warm place. The dying trees and ominous towers of rock were replaced with clear pools of water and what looked like the ruins of great Greek monuments. The twisted figures of ravens that normally resided here were again white and beautiful. Raven walked on the stone path through the ivory gates. She drew closer to The marble court of her subconscious. The facets of her personality were already congregated there, undoubtedly summoned by her appearance.
" Raven!" The pink-cloaked emotion called out happily. "Over here!"
" You don't need to point it out, Happiness, She can see us." Intelligence retorted, pushing up her glasses with her middle finger.
" You...um...you shouldn't hurry her...she might get angry..." Timidity whispered.
" She doesn't have Wrath anymore, Stupid." Bravery crossed her arms over her chest. " We got rid of her."
True, there was no red cloak among the emotions, her fathers' hatred defeated only months ago.
" Listen, " Raven adressed her emotions. " Where's Love? She's the one I need to talk to."
" Love?" Sloth picked her ear." I...don't recall ever seeing a Love..."
" I concur." Intelligence wiped her glasses on her cloak." I don't believe you had a Love."
" Oh..." Raven clenched her fists. " Then maybe it's not real..."
" Whats not real?" Happiness gave Raven a hug. " you can tell us."
" I thought I was in love..." Raven blinked back tears. " but considering that Love isn't here, perhaps it isn't true..."
" IN LOVE?" The emotions exclaimed. " HOW CAN YOU BE IN LOVE AND NOT TELL US?"
" You...You didn't know?" Raven asked.
" If we knew, we woulda' been helpin you out! " Bravery made a fist.
" But...How could we not know?" Intelligence began pacing back and forth. " This defies all the laws that govern minds..."
" Maybe ya' just forgot to tell us..." Sloth scratched her stomach.
" L...l-l-l...love?" Timidity gulped.
" Yippee!" Happiness grasped everyone in an embrace. " You're in LOVE!"
" I don't know that yet! " Raven answered, a little annoyance growing in her voice. " I dont even have a Love!"
" Umm...Maybe Happiness is your Love?" Timidity suggested.
" It is possible." Intelligence chimed in." It is said that Love is eternal bliss...It very well could be Happiness."
" ME? " Happiness pointed at herself. "Aren't I only one emotion?"
" I'm not sure..." Intelligence scratched her chin.
Raven yawned. The conversation was stimulating, yes, but the ideas were overpowering. She bid her emotion adieu, and exited Nevermore. Raven collapsed on her bed, her mind racing.