„What happened?" – This was the first question in my head when I woke up of all sudden. I noticed that I was sitting right up in my bed, not lying. This was not the only thing that wasn't alright. The bandages around my belly were soaked with blood. My blood. I suddenly felt all the pain in the right side of my body. What was it? Was it an injury? A bullet hole? A piece of my flesh missing? A worm piercing through my intestines? Well, whatever it was, I don't want to know it. This thick blanket was so heavy and I felt like I would be suffocated. The moment I noticed this, was the moment I threw it off, and stood up. "Where am I?" I got the urge to look around, so the venous catheter firmly fixed to my left hand was not a big matter, since when I noticed my bag on the white desk I ran to it and the catheter was torn off. I hurried to my bag and rummaged around - but what for? It felt like I was searching my memories.. But not deep down in my subconsiousness how I actually had to do, but in my bag. Don't ask me, I have NO idea at all what I was doing. It was the sign of me searching information WHY I was here. And what am I supposed to do now? To stay here and wait - or to run away? The choice wasn't very hard to do. After I saw the surgery instruments on the board, shining coldly into my soul, I decided to run away. Run away from all this madness - and loneliness. This sterility in the room highlighted the awkwardness I was feeling. Not mentioning the blood dripping from my fingers. Blood... On my hands. I had a deja vu. A deja vu in which I saw how I hurt a person. Not only hurt... But killed.. Murdered beastly. Chunks of memories in my head began to appear.. And the last thing I remember... Seemed to be the face of Ryouiki. Why do memories like these come into my mind when I see blood covering my hands.. Suddenly the pain in my belly disappeared and it felt like it roamed my whole body. My knees were so weak in that moment, so I slipped on the ground. Tears were rolling down my cheecks. That was the moment I noticed the wounds on my face. The salty tears accentuated the pain.. It felt like little sabres pierced my face. It was an awkward feeling.. But I was happy about, since it took away the pain in my head. I just couldn't stand up... And I never meant to. I looked around saw a tissue box on the little table beneath the other side of my bed. I started crawling, but I couldn't see anything because of the wall of tears covering my eyes. I crawled and crawled, until something stopped me. It was something warm.. And greasy.. I slipped away and landed with my head on something hard. I wiped my tears away and ran over the thing I stumbled because of. I had no vague idea what I was touching until the curtain of tears faded away.. My breath stopped and I fell backwards. I didn't want to believe what I saw there. A lifeless body.. Covered in blood and without skin, only the hair and the face were there.. I looked very closely and my jaw dropped. What I was touching all the time and looking at.. Was the corpse of Ryouiki. The curtain of tears, which had faded away some moments ago.. Came back now. My sobbing was so loud, I heard it echoing through the room. What did I do? Why? Only.. Why? I am a murderer. I killed Ryouiki. I AM A MONSTER! But who brought me here? And even if, who brought Ryouiki here, knowing I am this beast inside me? All those questions rummaged through my head. But there was one thing I had to do. I am surely being watched and every move of mine is written down. I'm sorry Ryouiki.. But I have to do it. With my vectors I picked his body up.. And I let it splatter. I closed my eyes during this process, but after I opened them again, everything was red.. Blood red. The cameras had to be covered with Ryouiki's blood. "They cannot see me." I broke the door using my invisible hands. When I came out the door, I immediately heard pistols.. My vectors hindered the bullets to touch my body, functioning as a repel. Those sad persons... Shooting a little girl. How pathetic! I let their heads fly and suddenly all their bodies exploded. A drip of blood touched my face. The grin on my face transformed into a infernal laughter. What a slaughter! I walked slowly.. Suddenly I started running.. All the doors I faced.. I passed through them after my vectors did the job.. All the time I thought this center was heavily protected.. But it's not even a little. Not for our species. I ran away, hearing shooting behind me.. None of the bullets injured me.. Not even touched me. I didn't know where I was running to.. But somehow it pulled me there. I ran through all the little forests I had to pass.. And I got rid of the guardians shooting me. It was night, so nobody saw me. I finally stopped at a viewing platform. Why here? Why?.. Maybe because it was the place Ryouiki and I met for the first time. What am I supposed to do now? I was squatting and sobbing at the same time.. The pain began to grow bigger.. And suddenly two persons, a man and a woman, came across. They were standing there and observing the landscape. "I brought you here.. To say something special." He took a knee and pulled a small chest out of his trouser pockets. He opened it. "Do you wanna marry me?" The woman started crying and sobbed "Yes!" They hugged and during that, the man noticed me. He brought me to his woman's attention. The woman came closer and said: "Hey, everything's alright? Do you need some help? We can get you to a hosp-..." I didn't look up. The only thing I saw was how those persons exploded into a bloody mess. The grin came back. I stood up and laughed maniacally. "I KILLED EVERYONE!" I licked my fingers.. The blood tasted so good! "I AM FREE!" I yelled and Ryouiki's face came to my mind. My laugh became even louder. "I KILLED THIS IDIOT!"
"Suddenly, my imagination fades. The sun's light warmed my back, and daylight took me out my mind. What was it? A fantasy? An imagination? A forecast? Whatever it was, I don't want to know it. I would never kill Ryouiki.. I love him than anything else on this world. Now I remember. This viewing point was the place we wanted to meet today. I look on my watch and it was half past two. We wanted to meet now. I am waiting for him. And suddenly the pain surpasses my body. What is this pain? I can't meet him. I can't live with him. I love him, but I can't. I am a monster and I will kill him. I can't do this. I can't be together with him when I am in this life. I don't want to hurt him. Eventhough the life which I was living was the free one I wanted to live.. Not being an experiment and living in the center. I climb over the barrier and look down into the abyss. If I will die now, I won't hurt him. "Ryouiki, I do this for you.. " I was holding the barrier with one hand. I took a deep breath and let go. In a split second I felt freedom and happiness.. Ryouiki's gonna live. Goodbye lovely world.. Good bye... Ryouiki. I closed the eyes. I will die now. Suddenly I stopp falling. I open my eyes and saw a hand holding me. "Miyaki, what are you doing?!" I heard a known voice and looked up. It is Ryouiki! He wants to save me.. I love him. But I can't live with him. But I noticed a thing. I can't live without him either. He is trying to pull me up but I pull him down. "MIYAKI WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I hug him during the fall. "I want to be together with you all my life.. But not in this one." I press my lips on his and kiss him passionately. "I love you Ryouiki" I whispered in his ear and I closed my eyes./span/p