Losing Control
A/N: My english isn't that well I really need a beta reader. So please don't be too hard. It's my second x- men story and I hope this will get better than the last. Last time I even wrote Rouge and not Rogue. Sorry about that. summary: Rogue learns to control her powers and even to turn them around. She's also able to use the powers of the mutants she touched but it weaks her everytime. Logan gets over Jeans Death and is confused by his feelings for Rogue. He teaches the kids selfdefense and other things like that. There's a new woman in the x-men team. Her name is Lea. Well, and then a few other exciting things will happen. This story is for my best friend Laura even if she doesn't likes the Logan/ Rogue thing. She's a X-men fan, too since I watched with her movie one and two. I hope you'll enjoy it. Su
Westchester, September 12th
Rogue walked through the park of the mansion. Everyone was inside, celebrating Kittys birthday. She didn't like crowded places so she escaped to there. She took out her gloves and carefully touched the flowers. They were the only living organism which she could touch without killing them. Softly she let her fingers slip trough the blue water. It felt so good.
Tears welled up in her eyes like so often since she broke up with Bobby. She felt lonlier than ever. The only one who made her smile was Logan. He made her laugh when she was sad, he comforted her when she woke up from a nightmare and he touched her without fear. And that was a rare thing for her. Sure, everyone was kind and everyone tried not to flinch away when she accidentally touched them. But it was hard and Rogue understood.
Suddenly she heard a soft warm voice in her head.
"Where are you Rogue? We're worried about you". It was the professor.
She smiled faintly. He was a great man. He talked with her a lot and he knew her problems. He was like a father sometimes and since he adopted her, he tried to give her more love than she ever get from her parents.
"Im okay. I'm in the park because I needed some fresh air", she sent back. She knew that he would understand.
"Logan is looking for you. I can tell him to go back if you need some time alone darling", he said.
Rogue smiled again.
"Don't bother. I think I could use company. But thank you"!
"Okay. I'll see you at dinner Rogue. Take care"! Then he linked himself out of her head. He knew she didn't want him to read her minds. So he didn't do it. He trusted her that she would come to him if something's really bothering her. And he trusted Logan because he knew that he would always be there for her.
Rogue sat down and closed her eyes when she smelled something awful. She looked at her side and sreamed. There lay a dead bird in the mud. She carefully reached for it when she was sure that it wasn't living anymore so she couldn't kill him. She had to touch it.
Suddenly the bird began to move. Rogue was so shocked she couldn't move a muscle. She saw the life flodding back into it and she felt the weakness coming over her. And then she blacked out.
Logan looked for her everywhere. In her room, in his, in the kitchen, in the classrooms and the pool. He couldn't finde her so he decided to go in the park. She always went there when she felt sad or when she wanted to escape.
He had seen her tired eyes and her sad face since she broke up with Bobby. Poor boy, no one knows why she did that. Not even him. Logan felt responsible because he almost forget her about his problems. He had been so deep in his selfpity that he hadn't seen the things happening around him. Lea the new woman in the team was an good doctor. She realized that Logan knew Rogue better than everyonelse beside the professor did and asked him about her. She said that the girl would look sick and weak. And he hadn't even notice. On Kittys birthday party she seemed to be okay at first but suddenly she ran out of the room without saying a word. Logan ran after her as fast as he could but she disapperead.
He walked through the field. His realationship with Rogue was kinda strange. No one knew what you should say about those two. Are they friends? Is he like a father for her? Or like a hero or brother? Does he loves her and does she loves him? Nobody knew. Not even Logan. He sighed and looked at the flowers. They were beautiful just like her. He shook his head. That happened a lot lately. That he though about her like that. It scared him in a way that seemed so right at the same time.
Suddenly he stopped. He saw a small figure laying on the ground. Rogue. She wasn't moving. He stormed to her side and softly shook her.
"Rogue! Rogue answer me! Rogue please"!
Her face was pale and breath was slow. Panic waved over him.
"Rogue! Damm it.. talk to me.. baby.. please"!
Suddenly her eyes fluttered open. She looked at his shocked face confused. "Logan"?
He sighed relieved and gently caressed her cheek.
"Are you okay? How do you feel? What happened"?
She had to smile. "These are a lot of quetsions you know"?
He grinned and help her to stand up. She looked around her.
"Where's the bird"? Logan raised his eyebrown.
"What bird? Are you sure you're okay"?
She nodded. "Yeah, I'm okay. There was a dead bird but then ..he.. he was moving and . suddenly I fainted"!
He lay his arm around her. "It's okay! I'll take you to Lea."
At first she wanted to protest and tell him about what happened to the bird. But then she just nodded. Either he wouldn't believe her or he would think she was crazy. She didn't want that. And she wasn't sure of what she saw.
He took her back to the mansion and lead her to the Med lab. Lea smiled at them.
"Hey guys! How are you doing"?
Logan dragged Rogue to a chair. Then he turned to Lea.
"I found her unconscious in the park. I though mabye you should check her out. Look if she's sick or something", he said and she felt his concern for the little girl who sat there looking helpless.
Lea nodded and smiled at her. "No problem. You are Rogue, right"? "Yeah! You don't need to check me out . I'm okay, really!"
Logan shook his head. "You're not going anywhere till I'm sure that you're okay. Do you copy that"?
Rogue looked up and Lea knew that he had done something wrong. She was upset, everyone could see that.
"Don't treat me like a kid", she said and her voice sounded warning.
Logan didn't notice. "I'm not! Besides, you are still a kid, don't forget that"!
Rogue jumped up, her face was red and flushed. "Really? How come that everyone besides you can see that I've grown up? Nobody tells me what to do! Not the professor and you neither. Open you goddamm eyes Logan. I'm not a little girl anymore. Why can't you see that? Oh .. I think I know. Because you're to busy with yourself ? I'm just poor little Rogue who can't touch anyone. Is it that what you see when you look at me?"
Lea was shocked. Logan just stared at her. He wanted to say something, to answer but she cut him off.
"Don't bother to answer Logan. I think I already know ". With that she turned around and left the room. But Logan saw her tears nevertheless.
Rogue ran to her room, slammed the door shut and threw herself onto her bed. She cried. She hadn't mean to say things like that. She hadn't known that she felt this way. It was just coming up. Her losing control about her powers and the nightmares and everything. She felt so alone, so helpless and worthless. It knocked and she knew it was Logan before he said anything. But she didn't want to speak to him.
"Go away Logan! I don't want to talk! Leave me alone"!
"Rogue! Open the door. Please, baby.. we need to talk. Rogue .. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was so an ass. Please open the door"!
She threw a book at the wood. "Leave me the hell alone. Don't you get it? I don't want to talk. To nobody. You can tell that the professor. And now go"!
Logan sighed and leaned his head against the cold door. "I'm sorry", he wispered one more time then he left.
Roue was furious, sad, angry and frustrated all at the same time. She heard a bird singing through the open window. She closed her eyes in frustration and waved to the animal.
"Go to hell"! And suddenly a ball of fire came out of her hand and smashed the glass. The bird stopped singing and she stopped cyring. Shocked she looked at her hands.
"Oh my god", she wispered.
A/N: My english isn't that well I really need a beta reader. So please don't be too hard. It's my second x- men story and I hope this will get better than the last. Last time I even wrote Rouge and not Rogue. Sorry about that. summary: Rogue learns to control her powers and even to turn them around. She's also able to use the powers of the mutants she touched but it weaks her everytime. Logan gets over Jeans Death and is confused by his feelings for Rogue. He teaches the kids selfdefense and other things like that. There's a new woman in the x-men team. Her name is Lea. Well, and then a few other exciting things will happen. This story is for my best friend Laura even if she doesn't likes the Logan/ Rogue thing. She's a X-men fan, too since I watched with her movie one and two. I hope you'll enjoy it. Su
Westchester, September 12th
Rogue walked through the park of the mansion. Everyone was inside, celebrating Kittys birthday. She didn't like crowded places so she escaped to there. She took out her gloves and carefully touched the flowers. They were the only living organism which she could touch without killing them. Softly she let her fingers slip trough the blue water. It felt so good.
Tears welled up in her eyes like so often since she broke up with Bobby. She felt lonlier than ever. The only one who made her smile was Logan. He made her laugh when she was sad, he comforted her when she woke up from a nightmare and he touched her without fear. And that was a rare thing for her. Sure, everyone was kind and everyone tried not to flinch away when she accidentally touched them. But it was hard and Rogue understood.
Suddenly she heard a soft warm voice in her head.
"Where are you Rogue? We're worried about you". It was the professor.
She smiled faintly. He was a great man. He talked with her a lot and he knew her problems. He was like a father sometimes and since he adopted her, he tried to give her more love than she ever get from her parents.
"Im okay. I'm in the park because I needed some fresh air", she sent back. She knew that he would understand.
"Logan is looking for you. I can tell him to go back if you need some time alone darling", he said.
Rogue smiled again.
"Don't bother. I think I could use company. But thank you"!
"Okay. I'll see you at dinner Rogue. Take care"! Then he linked himself out of her head. He knew she didn't want him to read her minds. So he didn't do it. He trusted her that she would come to him if something's really bothering her. And he trusted Logan because he knew that he would always be there for her.
Rogue sat down and closed her eyes when she smelled something awful. She looked at her side and sreamed. There lay a dead bird in the mud. She carefully reached for it when she was sure that it wasn't living anymore so she couldn't kill him. She had to touch it.
Suddenly the bird began to move. Rogue was so shocked she couldn't move a muscle. She saw the life flodding back into it and she felt the weakness coming over her. And then she blacked out.
Logan looked for her everywhere. In her room, in his, in the kitchen, in the classrooms and the pool. He couldn't finde her so he decided to go in the park. She always went there when she felt sad or when she wanted to escape.
He had seen her tired eyes and her sad face since she broke up with Bobby. Poor boy, no one knows why she did that. Not even him. Logan felt responsible because he almost forget her about his problems. He had been so deep in his selfpity that he hadn't seen the things happening around him. Lea the new woman in the team was an good doctor. She realized that Logan knew Rogue better than everyonelse beside the professor did and asked him about her. She said that the girl would look sick and weak. And he hadn't even notice. On Kittys birthday party she seemed to be okay at first but suddenly she ran out of the room without saying a word. Logan ran after her as fast as he could but she disapperead.
He walked through the field. His realationship with Rogue was kinda strange. No one knew what you should say about those two. Are they friends? Is he like a father for her? Or like a hero or brother? Does he loves her and does she loves him? Nobody knew. Not even Logan. He sighed and looked at the flowers. They were beautiful just like her. He shook his head. That happened a lot lately. That he though about her like that. It scared him in a way that seemed so right at the same time.
Suddenly he stopped. He saw a small figure laying on the ground. Rogue. She wasn't moving. He stormed to her side and softly shook her.
"Rogue! Rogue answer me! Rogue please"!
Her face was pale and breath was slow. Panic waved over him.
"Rogue! Damm it.. talk to me.. baby.. please"!
Suddenly her eyes fluttered open. She looked at his shocked face confused. "Logan"?
He sighed relieved and gently caressed her cheek.
"Are you okay? How do you feel? What happened"?
She had to smile. "These are a lot of quetsions you know"?
He grinned and help her to stand up. She looked around her.
"Where's the bird"? Logan raised his eyebrown.
"What bird? Are you sure you're okay"?
She nodded. "Yeah, I'm okay. There was a dead bird but then ..he.. he was moving and . suddenly I fainted"!
He lay his arm around her. "It's okay! I'll take you to Lea."
At first she wanted to protest and tell him about what happened to the bird. But then she just nodded. Either he wouldn't believe her or he would think she was crazy. She didn't want that. And she wasn't sure of what she saw.
He took her back to the mansion and lead her to the Med lab. Lea smiled at them.
"Hey guys! How are you doing"?
Logan dragged Rogue to a chair. Then he turned to Lea.
"I found her unconscious in the park. I though mabye you should check her out. Look if she's sick or something", he said and she felt his concern for the little girl who sat there looking helpless.
Lea nodded and smiled at her. "No problem. You are Rogue, right"? "Yeah! You don't need to check me out . I'm okay, really!"
Logan shook his head. "You're not going anywhere till I'm sure that you're okay. Do you copy that"?
Rogue looked up and Lea knew that he had done something wrong. She was upset, everyone could see that.
"Don't treat me like a kid", she said and her voice sounded warning.
Logan didn't notice. "I'm not! Besides, you are still a kid, don't forget that"!
Rogue jumped up, her face was red and flushed. "Really? How come that everyone besides you can see that I've grown up? Nobody tells me what to do! Not the professor and you neither. Open you goddamm eyes Logan. I'm not a little girl anymore. Why can't you see that? Oh .. I think I know. Because you're to busy with yourself ? I'm just poor little Rogue who can't touch anyone. Is it that what you see when you look at me?"
Lea was shocked. Logan just stared at her. He wanted to say something, to answer but she cut him off.
"Don't bother to answer Logan. I think I already know ". With that she turned around and left the room. But Logan saw her tears nevertheless.
Rogue ran to her room, slammed the door shut and threw herself onto her bed. She cried. She hadn't mean to say things like that. She hadn't known that she felt this way. It was just coming up. Her losing control about her powers and the nightmares and everything. She felt so alone, so helpless and worthless. It knocked and she knew it was Logan before he said anything. But she didn't want to speak to him.
"Go away Logan! I don't want to talk! Leave me alone"!
"Rogue! Open the door. Please, baby.. we need to talk. Rogue .. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was so an ass. Please open the door"!
She threw a book at the wood. "Leave me the hell alone. Don't you get it? I don't want to talk. To nobody. You can tell that the professor. And now go"!
Logan sighed and leaned his head against the cold door. "I'm sorry", he wispered one more time then he left.
Roue was furious, sad, angry and frustrated all at the same time. She heard a bird singing through the open window. She closed her eyes in frustration and waved to the animal.
"Go to hell"! And suddenly a ball of fire came out of her hand and smashed the glass. The bird stopped singing and she stopped cyring. Shocked she looked at her hands.
"Oh my god", she wispered.