Day1
Dear diary
Today I met a guy named Axel, he is with Organization XIII, I don't think he likes me much, I think he thinks I'm strange, but then again that probably because the first thing I said to him was "YOU LOOK PRETTY!!!!" But he did! He had all these flames dancing around him and stuff it was so cool!
But anyway I haven't spoken to him since, I hope I get to meet him again I wanna get to know him better...who knows I might even give him some of my gummy bears...maybe!!!
Day 2
Dear diary
Axel is amazing! I spoke to him again today, he said he gets called pretty a lot (I don't think so but I didn't say anything hehehe) But the guy is great! We ended up going for a walk because it was really nice weather...I was really hot so I poured water on myself then threw a water ball at Axel...I thought it was a good idea because he controls fire and thought maybe he could use some cooling down..But he didn't really seem to appreciate it...he was kinda err...Literally smoking...Hmm note to self Axel doesn't like water...OH WELL!!! Tomorrow I am going to give him some gummy bears!
Day 3
Dear diary
He rejected my gummy bears!!! We were at the table having breakfast and I offered him some and he...He said he doesn't eat gummy bears!!!! Then he really hurt my feelings...I said just try some you might like them...and then he said...NO! Then I got upset and yelled at him telling him he hurt my feelings, and do you know what he said!?! He said you're a nobody you don't have feelings to hurt. I ran out of the room because I didn't want him to see I was crying then I turned around and yelled at him "WELL...You didn't have to be so...MEAN!" Then threw a water ball at him and left before he could burn me to death...
Day 4
Dear Diary
Hahaha hehehe I made Axel feel guilty!!!! When I woke up this morning then was a GIANT bag of gummy bears on my bedside table, I swear it was big as my head!!! There was a cute little card on it that said 'sorry mate', and do you know what it did after I read it and closed again? It burst into flames!! But the flames didn't hurt or burn me and they were SPARKELY!!!!! Then still in my PJ's I ran out into the sun room where Axel was sitting gave him a big hug and said it was ok, he hugged me back for a second then for some reason pushed me away and said he doesn't swing that way..I wonder what that means!!!! Ooooh I hope its something good!!
Day 5
Dear diary
Something really weird happened last night...I woke up in the middle of the night because I was cold, I sat up and was going to get up and light the fireplace in my room, but Axel was there...He was sitting by my bed watching me sleep...He saw I was shaking so he got up clicked his fingers to light the fire, he walked out of my room but didn't say a word. I went back to sleep and had a real wacked up dream, it was about me and Axel...But we were...I dunno how to put it...We were...together...And when I woke up the bed was wet and errs...I hadn't peed in it... I can't like him can I...? I mean...He's a guy, and I'm a guy...this cant be right!
Day 6
Dear diary
Today we went for a swim, well I did Axel just watched...I wanted to impress him so I made the water pick me up right into the air...but then he smiled and I lost my concentration and the water dropped me. He has the most awesome smile ever!! From now on I'm going to try and make him smile every day. Is it normal for a guy to like a guy...? Is it normal for a nobody to like anybody..? Because I mean Axel was right when he said we can't have feelings...but if that's so why do I feel like this? I feel like I wanna spend the rest of my life making Axel happy...am I really...Ooh what if he's not! This is bad a guy shouldn't have a crush on another guy! Tonight I'm going to go into him room and watch him like he did with me and see what happens.
Day 7
Dear diary
Axel looks so cute when he sleeps, but he woke up when I was watching him, then he said "Dem come to bed..."I didn't know if he meant my bed or his bed so I just sat there staring. But then he gestured me into his bed. I said "err...Um...Oooh...k" then climbed in with him. I feel asleep in his arms and didn't wake until 10 this morning when he climbed out of bed; I couldn't remember getting into his bed and had to think a bit until I remembered that night he had invited me in. I just smiled watching him get changed; he has really cool boxers that have flames all over them. I wonder if Axel has a diary if he does I wanna read it…
Day 8
Dear diary
We all went to the beach today, Axel me went and found a private spot under the trees. We started talking and he brought up last night, I could feel myself going red...Axel said it was nothing to be ashamed of then kissed me on the cheek, then in my surprise I started talking gibberish..I think I said something like..."wah but aaah uhh huh?" Then I got my sense back and kinda shouted at him "BUT WHERE BOTH GUYS!!!!!!!!!!" Then made a portal and joined the others, I spent the rest of the after-noon with all the guys and tried to avoid making eye contact with Axel, I hope I haven't upset him…that's the last thing I want…I really like him!!
Day 9
Dear diary
Today Axel and I pretty much avoided each other because of the embarrassment that happened yesterday. I tried to make eye contact with him at breakfast but he was purposely avoiding it. Then, I decided I was really bored so I started a food fight with everyone by throwing scrambled at axel (ha-ha then he looked at me) He wiped the food of his face with his sleeve then threw his cereal (including the bowl) at my face it kinda hurt so I threw a water ball at him, then we spent the rest of the morning chasing one and round throwing water and fire balls at each other. Then Axel charged at me to the ground his head hit my ------- it hurt like hell!!!!!! I heard myself scream like a little girl. Axel looked extremely worried and guilty. He pulled me up and put my arm round his shoulder to support me, we started into each others eyes for about a minute before Axel asked if I was ok…"err yea I guess." Though I'm pretty sure he noticed the tears in my eyes. He took me back to the house so I could err…recover. But Axel did it again he kissed me, this time...not on the cheek, he is a great kisser…Ooh what am I saying?!? Axel is a guy! And so am I! Why the hell did I kiss him back, and this time I didn't I really like him…? NO!!! He's a guy!!!!
Day 10
Okay I give in, he's a guy…I'm a guy...Where gay...I finally understand what he meant when he said he doesn't swing that way…But, I think he may have changed his mind…But then there's other girls after him as well…I could never compete with that…I mean sure he kissed me but it still doesn't mean anything..Ooh I'm so confused I don't know what to do...I should talk to him but I'm to shy...Should I leave it? I mean he is bound to pick a girl rather than me…But it's not that simple he kissed me…but could it mean something else…No I don't have do to this I've had enough Axel isn't a piece of meat he is a person. I'm talking to him tomorrow…But then again what if I loose my friendship with him? I don't think I could handle that…I don't really think he is like that, so I've got nothing to loose. OK I'm talking to him tomorrow.