I Miss You

by MythReader08

Fang is a heart-broken mess. That's the bottom line. He's made a huge mistake and now he doesn't know what to do. He tried forgetting about it, but when he does, bad thinks just keep popping up. He already lost his mother, will he have to face life without another person that is so dear to him or will he try until his last breathe to get them back before he let's them go. AH

1. I Miss You

Hello readers!

This will be a Songfic of an incredible song by Blink 182: "I Miss You". I'm absolutely entranced by the true meaning of this song and I hope you get the meaning of it too!

The pain of losing someone so close, so dear to you, it hurts. Do you know that feeling? Have you ever witnessed it first hand?

Well let me tell, it's not a good feeling at all. You can't sleep at night. Head full of images; head full of words that were left unsaid, words that could've saved you from this agony. Waking up and trying to face the world with a brave face, without trembling hands. It's hard to live that kind of life.

My name is Fang, and I've made a mistake of losing the one person I care the most of. The one person who has always been there for me, who has helped me put up a brave face over the death of my mother when I was just fourteen, and who has now broken my heart. Usually we would never fight, but this was a full-out battle that ended our entire relationship.

Jumping off my bed, I grabbed my six string and headed out my door. I didn't know where I was going but my heart kept telling me to go. It was a Saturday afternoon so I didn't have any classes, and I was home alone right now because my dad was working. I kept walking until I reached the neighborhood park. Memories of me and her together filled my mind as I started to strum slowly.

Her brown with blonde streaked hair, as I held her close to my body, smelled of fresh strawberries.

Her deep brown eyes that I could've stared in all day and be entertained.

Her soft skin, as I held her hand and kissed her lips.

Her fiery spirit whenever challenged to a match.

Her undying love for Ms. Martinez's chocolate chip cookies.

Images flowed through my brain as I kept strumming to a song that I listened to constantly for the past few months. Lyrics of the song start rolling of my tongue as I sang softly to myself

Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

She's gone now and she won't come back.

I miss you

I miss you

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop the pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Please come back. The pain I feel is something new, something I have never felt before. You created this, so please cure me of my agony. Just stop this pain!

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Hearing you just talk makes me happy. I can't forget about you, you're always on my mind, every second of the day.

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

I can't bear another day without you. I want you—No, I need you by my side. Please come back to me. I've tried for months and you won't do anything. I've tried everything that I have, please I've never felt this way before. About anyone.

I miss you (miss you miss you)
(I miss you miss you)

Please come back. I've tried waiting, but that's not doing anything for me.

My strumming came to a pause as I sensed someone there. Leaning on the swing set was my father. The one who has been dealing with me for the past few months. The one who has tried and tried again and again to console my heart, but I just shooed him away. But when I saw him I felt something else. I then realized that he has gone through what I've gone through, only worse. His wife died and all I have been doing is ignoring him.

My father, Jeb, walked over and draped an arm over my shoulder and said

"Fang I know, what you've been going through. But if that is how you feel, then do something about it. I couldn't do anything for you mother, but if you feel that way about Maxine, then do what you just did sitting there, to her. If you love her as much as I love your mother then you should go there now."

I couldn't say anything at all, but my dad could

"Fang, I'm proud to call you my son. We have raised you well, Fang."

This was all shocking to me. I had never heard my dad say anything about him being proud of me or anything along that line. The leaves on the tree shook as the cool breeze ruffled them. A slow moment passed until he said

"Fang, if you really do like this girl, then get up now and go to her house, tell her how you feel. Stop living your life in a shell and live your life with her. She makes a difference in your life Fang. I can see it, when you're with her-"

"I feel like I can do anything and everything" I interrupted, "I feel like I'm alive and not in a shell. She is a very amazing person"

I got up off of the bench I was sitting on and walked towards Max's house. I took a few steps and turned around to my dad and said

"Thanks dad". He gave me a small smile and a nod. I turned around and walked to her house.

I was a block away from her house, when I noticed a car parked in her driveway, it looked familiar but I dismissed it. I was two houses away until I saw the door open and noticed Max's beautiful hair blow in the wind. I was walking faster, until I saw Dylan…with his arm around Max's waist. My mind was blank as I saw Ms. Martinez wave to Max and Dylan. My heart dropped when Dylan opened the passenger door and Max got in. They drove off but I stood there, behind a tree, as events passed through my head of Max.

I walked home aimlessly, dragging my feet on the sidewalk. Kicking at leaves as I make my way home. My heart heavy of pain that I've never felt before.

Opening the door I saw my dad. His mouth was open but once he saw my face he shut it right away and he nodded. I went upstairs to my room, locked the door and slumped to the floor with my back to the door. Sitting there, frozen, I slowly drifted to a painful sleep.

Images rushing through my mind of this evening of her and Dylan.

Pain tugging on my memory to remember how she is so perfect.

My heart pulling on me to continue pursuing her, but I just couldn't.

But I couldn't, I just wanted to curl up in a ball. Forget everything and anything. That this whole day was a dream, But my mind wouldn't let me forget her…not for a second.

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I would also like to thank my readers out there. You guys are the reason I love writing stories.

Also: I do know I'm making Fang look weak, but that's all part of the plot. If you want me to continue this story, then please I insist that you leave a comment saying so!

As always,

U and A