Ya know it is rather hard sometimes to gauge how to continue writing when so few of you comment. But hay at least your reading that puts you at the head of the class…..you are reading this aren't you? Well enjoy in any case. Also this will be my first athrun shin fic, I don't feel the same connection that athrun kira share but here it is anyway.
Hate, uncertainty, and a burning love
I resented the living hell out of athrun. He fought against us in the past war, disappeared with out a trace, and then like magic reappeared and was not only welcomed back but promoted and made a member of faith. Then to add insult to injury, they put him on the ship as me. And I constantly let him know I wasn't happy about it.
Yet there was something about him that made me question myself. I never questioned my ability as a combat pilot, what I questioned was on a far more personal level than I was comfortable admitting even to myself.
When we weren't arguing and screaming at each other, he was actually a nice guy. He truly did have a kind heart, soulful eyes, warm smile…..ah damn it i am doing it again. Alright yes I think he is good looking, and he makes it so damn easy to fall for him what a basturd he is sometimes. To have all of those looks and a killer body to boot, yet he seems oblvuios to them never uses them to his advantage. It is painfully obvious that people like him and want to be with him, yet he never seems to notice. That is what irrataets me the most, I think that's why I agrue to death with him all the time. If I don't argue with him I might just telll him how I truly feel about him.
I have never had problems getting a girl if I wanted her. I really never considered them anything more then a vessel to stratify a psyical need or just general freands. Nor have I ever really considered guys for anything more than frends. Then why is it now that I develop these feeling for a guy that up the very moment I met him I hated. Its not like I have never seen a picture of him before we all have, he is a living legend in the plants. It wasn't till you meet him in person that you noticed a certain aura about him. It leads me to believe that there was more than meets the eye when it comes to athrun.
I certainly have never backed down from a challenge and I don't intend to now. I will find out the secrets the guy is hiding, and if I find out he is still a traitor than I will pull the trigger my self, I am a loyal soldier despite what ever other feelings I have for him.