Authors note: This is my first Transfomers FanFic. Not that I'm particularly proud of it, but it seemed to work for me.
Comments are welcome, Thanks for reading!

I wish I could sleep. I'm so tired but I can't sleep. I can't, they'll get me. Especially her, she's waiting for me. Waiting for the moment I sleep and then they'll have control.

It didn't used to be like this...I know it wasn't. I don't know how I know, I just do. Just like I know a lot of things.

Snap Traps coming in from a report to Megatron. He looks at me sitting here in the corner, my gold eyes flashing. I used to be able to control that...and he shakes his head. Who is HE to pity me?

I could easily kill him, I'm so good at killing. I love it, I love the sound my victim makes as I cut off the supply of energon to their processors. I love the way the lights slowly fade from their eyes. It thrills me.

But I'm not allowed to kill anymore, not since she came. I HATE her. I loved her but now I hate her.

I don't know why I hate her, no, I do know. She won't leave me alone! Every time I try to rest she's there. Laughing at me, or smiling. I hate when she smiles, its like she knows something and won't tell me.

I tried to get it out of here once, but she only laughed and disappeared. And I was lost. Lost inside myself and I couldn't find a way out.

I don't know if I was more scared because I was lost or if it was because she was gone. In any case, I shouldn't have been scared.

I can't afford to be weak. There's no place for it in this group. Weakness isn't tolerated. We kill the weak, the scum that doesn't deserve to live.

I can hear her laughing again. GOD IT ANNOYS ME! Drives me crazy, I want her OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!

It's all her fault!!!!

She continues laughing and the others are coming. Coming towards me now, Stay away, you don't belong here, you're not real.

But they keep coming closer and I can't stop them. They're surrounding me, reaching for any part of me they can.

Her accursed laughter is getting louder. I want to tell her to shut up, but they have their fingers in my mouth, pulling at circuitry, ripping me apart.

And she continues laughing, her damned laugh is all I hear as I'm being torn apart.

It's all I hear, the last thing I hear...