The constant beeping made Kim's scowl deeper. The arm rest started to creek from the grip she had on them. Come on already and wake the hell. She thought as she tried to will herself to relax. Betty burst through the door sparing her a glance before rushing to the bed side. She sighed a in relief sagging against the bed as another woman rushed to the other side of the bed. She saw Shego turn her head and smile as the woman gently stroked her cheek.
"What the fuck! I've been siting her waiting for you to wake up and you've been awake the whole time!" Kim seethed barely resisting to launch at the bed.
"Yeah and you've been making me fill real safe." Shego deadpanned as she sat up. "Mom I'm ok."
Before Kim or Shego's mom could answer Ron came in holding Drakken's hand. "Ron are you sure we can see Shelia right now. I can be good and wait." Drakken said looking down at his shoes. "But I don't want to be gone for long. Every time I have to leave bad things happen to her and I don't want her to be in pain anymore."
"Well you don't have to worry about that anymore." Betty said smiling at him. "I won't sit by and let this happen to my best friend anymore."
"What the fuck is going on here?!" Kim shouted as she watched Drakken run to the bedside.
"Kim I think you should go." Betty said looking at her for a minute before looking away again.
"And why should I? It's obvious that Shego and Drakken have done something to all of you." Kim said glaring at her nemesis and boss.
Betty had to visibly restrain herself from pulling her gun.
"KP you've got it all wrong?" Ron said trying to keep everyone calm.
"Oh do I?" Kim said crossing her arms. "Then someone better get to explaining it then."
Everyone looked to Shelia who was looking down at her hand that was holding Drakken's. She nodded and Betty pinched her nose sighing. "I shouldn't be telling you a damn thing since it will be painful to Shelia." Betty growled out.
Kim frowned. "Who car-"
"Watch your fucking mouth!" Betty screamed silencing her.
"Now I'm going to start again and so help you God you better not interrupt me or else." She said patience wearing thin. Kim nodded slightly with frown still in place. "When Shelia's mom." She pointed over to the lady crying as she held her daughters hand. "got cancer she had to be moved into the hospital. That left Shelia at the hands of her father who raped and beat her almost every day. She was nothing but a useless woman meant to serve him and any other man he saw fit. That's what he also told Hego her older brother on his 15th birthday. She brought him down to the basement and throw Shego at his feet and said do what you like. Then Shelia was getting raped by both her brother and father. Of course the other two siblings didn't know they kept it well hidden. Especially since her powers healed her wounds and marks. When it looked like her mother was getting better around her 20th birthday he got rid of her. He found Drakken at a science convection weeks earlier. Because of Drakken's disability he easily bullied and beat him into listening to him. Her father is wealthy so he gave him money and told him to be a believable supervillain or else he would kill his mother and Shelia in front of him. Drakken didn't know this at the time but he had already killed his mother. So that's how came into a life of crime. Her father or her brother or they came together still came to visit her. Drakken was so scared that they where going to kill her one day that he called Ron."
"Of course I thought it was a trick and I considered calling you but you were on a date that night." Ron said shrugging his shoulders when Kim's disbelieving eyes turned to him. "By the time I got there they were gone and he was desperately trying to stop the bleeding. When he looked at me he looked so scared and small. That I just couldn't help myself and rushed over to help. After we bandaged her up he fell into my arms crying until he fell asleep. Shelia woke up sometime later and smiled at us. And I really looked at her. I remember saying this can't be the same woman. She looked utterly broken and soulless. I barely opened my mouth before she started telling me he story. Telling me about the sick deal the bastard had pushed on her. She had no chose but to go along with it or else he would kill her mother." Said woman gasped as she looked at her daughter who still wasn't even looked up. "It was then on decided that I would fight with Drakken so he wouldn't get hurt. Before I left she gave Wade permission to look at the cameras. She even gave me the password so we wouldn't have to hack it." He shook his head as he looked Kim in the eyes. "There is nothing that anyone on this earth could have done to deserve that. No one."
"You know there was a reason I always sent you after her and no one else Kim." Betty said gaining her attention again. "Think about it your a teenage girl who knows nothing about the world. Don't get me wrong you're good at what you do but Shelia is better. I was giving her a break. You posed no real threat and she no longer had to fight for her life for a while. Now that I think about it I probably caused her more pain than anything. I should have just went and saved her myself or stepped in sooner and she wouldn't even be in here." Shelia squeezed her hand as she looked up.
"Wow." Kim said drawing there attention. "That's complete bullshit. I can't believe you went there just so you could try yo get out of jail." Kim said clapping as she walked over to Betty. She put her hand on her shoulder. "Come on let's go get you chec-"
A fist connected with her jaw sending her to the floor as a bang ringed out. She touched her jaw in complete shock not even flinching when she looked up to see a gun in her face. She looked down at the bullet hole between her legs. Then she looked up to the cold glare that Betty had as she pointed her gun at her.
"I think you should go." Betty bit out through clenched teeth.
Instead of doing what she was told her eyes tracked Drakken who went to get Shelia's clothes. Shelia pulled a picture out and that's when Kim saw she was crying. She crumpled the paper some as she looked over at her.
"Kim I know you want know what this means but that's okay. I don't expect you to. By the time you'll understand it'll be to late."
Kim noticed that was the picture she took with her when they where in school together. Before she has time to think about that Shelia was talking again.
"I release you." She said before her plasma engulfed the picture. The ashes fell onto the sheet along with her flowing tears.
"Go." Betty said just as cold.
That got her moving as she stood up. She left out the door not looking back.
That day repeated itself in Kim's mind more than she would like. Her days were spent laying around in her apartment now. She stopped doing mission's and talking to her friends. There was just no way that Shelia and Drakken were telling the truth. And there was no way for her to tell if she was telling the truth because Betty had people watching her. So she packed her bags and went to spend the rest of her summer with her grandparents.
She was kind of happy when school started again. It would give her something to do because she was close to pulling gout her hair. College was pretty easy. Even the she already knew the material she still had to show up to the classes. She spotted her friends at a table and made her way over. As she got closer a snarl slipped past her lips.
"What is he doing here?!" She yelled slamming her hands on the table making everyone job.
Her scowl was trained only on Drakken. Who looked like he was close to running away.
"How about you fuck off!" Ron yelled back copying her pose.
"I see your still fucking brainwashed over whatever." She said rolling her eyes. She pulled back and crossed her arms.
"Brainwashed?! Do you even hear how fucking ridiculous and childish you sound? You're the only one who refuses to see the truth for some unknown reason! You're also the one who shut everyone out when you turned your back on us! God! I can't even see what she see's in someone as pathetic as you!" Ron yelled back face red with anger.
Everyone seat there shocked never have seeing the boy react to anything with so much fire in his eyes before. Just when Kim was about to ask who he was talking about Drakken pulled on his shirt.
Ron looked down smiling at him. "Yeah?"
"You can't say things like that. Shelia said she didn't want her to know." Drakken said pushing his car truck around.
Kim's scowl returned to her face. "Know what?" Kim said holding his gaze. "Know that your a evil psychotic who plans on taking over the world and that needs to be locked up in jail. I swear to God I'll-"
"Kim! Would you give it a fucking rest already!" Monique said breaking her silence no longer able to sit there quietly. "You need to get over this childish bullshit. She tricked you into thinking your crush asked you to the dance so you think it's ok to kick her into a electric tower?! I don't know what your problem is but you need to fix it. Imagine if you were in her shoes." She took Drakken's hand and pulled him to his feet and then walked away.
Ron gathered their stuff then looked at her for a while before he spoke. "When you're done being a bitch give us a call."
Kim tsked as she watched the go. "I should have just went with my first thought and stayed at home."
She threw her bag against the wall as she dropped on the small couch. She put her head in her hands with a long sigh. If she was right then she had nothing to worry about and she could work on getting everyone help. She pulled up her laptop and connected it to her TV. She opened the files that Wade sent her and hit play. Deep down in her mind she knew the real reason she didn't want to see the videos. She didn't want them to be true. She didn't want Shego to be anything other than the bad guy she fought off in her nightmares.
As she sat there watching video after video after video. Tears ran down her cheeks from the pure self hate she had flowing around her. She had become worse than the monsters that hurt Shelia. Worse than the darkness that had started to overcome her. She had denied it. Refused it. In a way she had made it so that that part of Shelia didn't even exist. And since God wanted to cut her open even more and make sure her wounds were there forever to see. Shelia somehow had that picture that she destroyed in every video. And in every video she called for Kim. Begged for her, ached for her. Wished she would rescue her from all this pain.
In those videos Kim meet the real Shelia. Not the one who through plasma at her and moved around in green in black. No she saw her in black and white. She saw a destroyed woman. Who breathed on sheer will power. A woman who death wouldn't grant her with it's grace. Someone angels flock to but not save. A woman on display with nothing else to hide. The love for the people close tested daily but reassured by the second. The her world was mad but she was no longer scared. This woman's hope wasn't given up, her spirit wasn't even broken. They just died and she didn't try to bring them back to life to just do it again. When her screen turned black only did Kim allow herself to fill. To finally understand that what was which never spoken. Shelia loved her. In the process of trying not to love her. That made something in her snap and she felt the full force of being released without every being had. And there was nothing she could do or want to do.
She deserved this because she had done this to herself. The pain however was real and constant. She leaned back on the couch and wondered. Wondered if she would have seen with eyes not clouded by hate. How different things would be. Would Shelia be here right now and the both of them fighting and rebuilding her world together. She picked up her phone dialing a number and waiting out the ring. Deciding there would be no use even thinking about it. What's done is done and the voice in her head told her it wouldn't work like that. She knew though. Now she knew it wouldn't be easy.
"Hey Wade from now I'm only taking the hardest missions. The best of the best."
It had been six months six months since Kim had found out. The only reason she even knew that was because Wade had called him after Kim called him. Then just a week ago Ron had asked her to see her. She was starting to scare him.
"She like a sister to me. A stupid sister but still." He said shrugging to her. "This is what the both of you need to finally to move on."
She smiled remembering what the boy told her when she asked what was she suppose say.
"Hey." Betty said getting her attention. She looked over at the woman who had turned into more than a friend. "I'll come in with you if you want."
"No I need to do this myself." Shelia said leaning over and kissing her cheek.
Truth be told she wasn't over Kim and Betty knew that deep down. There was a smile part of her that wished she could get over her for Betty's sake. She knocked on the apartment door and it opened for her. She walked in and was greeted with Kim in just a shirt and pair of panties drinking.
"Wow." She said leaning on the door. "How do you know that I wasn't someone that would kill you?"
Kim switched back on the TV showing different cameras. "I saw you and you could very much kill me."
"No. Not you." Shelia said as Kim cut it back off. "Well that makes one of us. She has a nice car." Kim said still not looking at her.
"Thanks it's mines. She's trying to teach me how to drive. I don't want to always rely on her for everything. You know? I got to get back on my feet at some point." Shelia said playing with her hands.
"I did that huh." Kim said more to herself than Shelia.
But Shelia knew what she meant. Heard the sorrowful you're welcome "You know it's been hard. I've been trying to get over everything that I went through and get my life back. She's been with me through it all without one compliant or remark. She let's me be a selfish, needy, whiney, horrible brat because she said I can. That I deserve to have anything I want. And yet I don't love her. I still love you very much so and she's even so understanding with that. But yet I just can't let you go. I meant what I said that day in the hospital. So I hold nothing against you. No expectations. No regrets. I don't truly know how I wanted you to respond that day but it just wasn't what I got."
"I'm sorry." Kim said dropping the empty bottle.
Shelia shook her head. "No I don't want that. I don't need anything from you." Shelia said taking a breath as she looked over to the wrecked red head. "I was surrounded by darkness and you were the light in it all. For some reason I held on to you and ran with it. I hoped. I prayed that you would come for me and Drakken. We would drop him off with Ron and runaway to some greater place."
She walked over and stood in front of Kim. Rough was a nice word to compare the super agent to. "Now that I think about it was childish. A childish foolish thought that I let grow into a mindset for a freedom that I new wouldn't come."
Kim had tears falling freely and Shelia smiled softly. "You were an obsession that helped ruin my life. And I unfortunately fell in love with a girl who doesn't exist and I don't now how to stop." She bent down and cupped Kim's face and softly stroked it through the tears.
"If you ever see her again can you tell her I love her? Tell her I'm moving on but I'll never forget her. That my life is finally becoming what it should of been along. That I'm a woman who smiles and laughs freely now. Tell her that I'm writing her a letter that is going to hold everything that I love about her, for her, because of her, with her. Tell her I'm writing it black and white. That I'm burning it and I hope the ashes reach her. Please tell Princess, my Pumpkin, Kim that I'm happy." Shelia leaned in and kissed her forehead as Kim sobbed loudly.
She placed a envelope on the table. "Drakken says goodbye. Your were his secret superhero in his evil villain mind." Shelia said as she left the apart.
Betty looked at her and smiled. "All good?" Shelia nodded through her tears.
"Yeah much better. Kim was like..." She trailed off as they drove off. "She was like lullabies."
Kim took the envelope into a shaky hand. She took out a stack of photos dropping them with her tears as she kept going. She dropped them breaking down more than she ever had. In picture was everyone that except her. Everyone that she gave up on. Everyone that never gave up on her.