Little Moments Of Happiness

#1- The Hardest Goodbye Of Them All

Life finally felt light and free. There was no more A. There was no more dodging when her phone went off. Life was finally back to living it to its fullest.

Spencer Hastings woke on Labour Day with a sick feeling in her stomach. It was the day she would be moving to college and began a whole different and new chapter in her life. The only problem was she would be separated from her best friends and her boyfriend, Toby Cavanaugh. She had dreamt about this day for so long, now it was here, she was almost not ready.

She jumped from the bed that had been hers since she was 12. She remembered begging her parents for a double bed, saying she was nearly a teenager and she should switch from a single to a double. Her room was all packed up and it brought a tear to her eye.

She did not think she would be the one to almost back out of college because she was not ready but she had suffered so many sleepless night stressing about leaving. There was a time she thought she would never leave Rosewood but now she had the chance to.

She headed downstairs and found her mother making her French toast and coffee. She smiled as she sat on the counter, grabbing coffee and began to drink it.

'Have you got everything packed?' Veronica asked her, passing her her food.

'Yes, Mom, for the thousandth time, everything is packed' Spencer replied, smiling a little.

'I'm sorry, sweetheart. Just my youngest daughter is going off to college…'

'And I am only a four hour drive away or an half an hour flight. I'm going to be fine' Spencer told her Mother but it was Spencer who needed more persuading.

'Let's not pretend that was for our benefit' Veronica was referring to Toby.

'Hey, I am just lucky that Washington is so near that's all' but Spencer knew her Mom was right. She had not openly admitted her final college choice came down to the distance from her boyfriend because her family had always taught her that always put your career first but she did not see the point of going to a college in the middle of nowhere because she didn't get into her first choice when there was a perfectly good school close to home.

'You have clearly learnt from mine and your father's mistakes' Veronica sighed, as she cleared away the pots.

'Mom, can we not talk about this on the day I'm leaving please?' Spencer sighed, raising an eyebrow.

'Sorry. What time are you going? Do you want me to make you some lunch?' Veronica asked, turning to her daughter.

'It's okay. Toby is making me it. He is on night shifts at the moment so once I've packed my car, I am going over then me and the girls are meeting at Alison's and then I'll set off. I am not allowed to drive in the dark. Officer Cavanaugh's order's' Spencer replied, with a smile.

'He is just worried about you. After everything you have been through, it's understandable' her mother told her, with a disproving look.

'I know, Mom' Spencer smiled as she drank her coffee.

A few hours later, her car was fully packed. She exhaled deeply once it was done.

'Call me when you get into Washington please. Are you going to be okay?' Veronica asked, walking over to her to give her a hug.

'Of course I will' Spencer replied, returning the hug.

'I just wish your father could have been here' Peter had been in the next state for business but his flight had been delayed. Spencer nodded before moving away her mom and got into her car. With a wave, she began to drive to Toby's.

She pulled up outside the Grill with the sickening feeling in her stomach from earlier returning. She already felt like crying. She took a deep breath and got out of her car. Her legs were like jelly. She did not think she would be the girl who found it hard to say goodbye to someone. She locked her car and headed upstairs to his flat.

She knocked on his door before entering. The flat appeared to be empty. She narrowed her eyes in confusion as she walked in when she could sense someone behind her.

'You are standing right behind me aren't you?' she asked, rolling her eyes.

'Yep' she turned and saw him who hugged her tightly before kissing her. She was amazed he could still act like this was a normal visit.

'What's that smell? It smells amazing' she said, their arms still around each other.

'Your favourite' he smiled down at her.

'Really? Thank you' she replied, kissing him again.

'Anything for my girl'

'That was amazing thank you' Spencer said, sometime later, pushing her plate away.

'What time do you have to meet the others?' Toby asked, raising an eyebrow.

'We have time' the space between them was closed, they were kissing and clothes began to make their way onto the floor.

'Do you think if I locked that door and not let you leave, Georgetown would miss you?' he questioned after, as they laid on his bed, a naked mess.

'Don't tempt me to find out' she replied, a little breathless as she laid across him.

'Don't tempt me to do it then' he kissed her forehead, pulling her closer to him.

'Thirteen days. We have done it before. We will be…' her voice trailed off, knowing she was lying to herself. She sighed and looked up at him to see him looking down at her intensely. She leaned up to kiss him. As she pulled away, she noted the time. It was 1:33. She groaned. She was meeting her friends at 2pm.

'It's time isn't it?' he asked. She nodded. He had offered to drive her to college but she knew that would make it harder and she didn't want him driving back by his self. She sighed again, sitting up and began to get dressed.

'Spence… I…'

'I know, Toby, I know' she replied. Tears were began to form. She sniffed as she grabbed her dungarees from the floor. Nothing could be said to prevent what they were feeling. Once they were both changed, they looked at each other and practically ran to each other, hugging each other tightly.

'Make sure you don't fall for some rich and posh boy with a higher IQ then Einstein' he told her. She felt like her blood circulation was about to be cut off because he was hugging her so tightly but she didn't care.

'That will never happen' she replied, sighing and hugged him tighter.

'I had to say it. Just in case' he said, pulling away so he could look at her.

'Well it's not going to happen. Just in case' she moved forward to kiss him and instead of saying goodbye because it was too hard she said 'See you soon. I love you'

'I love you too. Call me once you are there please' she nodded and pulled away. She squeezed his hand and began to walk out when he grabbed her hand, pulling her into him and kissed her again.

'You should go before I do actually lock that door and not let you go' he said, resting his forehead against hers. She saw his tears matched hers. She kissed his cheek, tasting the salt from his tears and left before they came an emotional mess together.