I did say there would a follow up to For the Love Of. I have to say Roman losing his crap on Triple H at TLC was a big inspiration for this. Hope you like.
"Lily, we are rebuilding, you are the only female witch. I know you love Joe. And I know you will mourn him. But think it wasn't that hard for him. They are more animal than Human."
"Shut up," Lily sat up in bed. She frantically searched the room with her eyes. It was dark and she was alone.
"Lily," a voice came from the dark. "It was a dream," Lily's heart still pounded, her body shook. She pulled the blankets and moved back, the bed sank from the weight of someone sitting on it. "Lily," she focused on the voice.
"Colby," her voice called out.
"Just a dream, we're safe," Colby's tried to reassure her. Lily blinked still trying to make out the figure on her bed.
"I'm sorry," Lily apologized.
"It's ok," Colby looked back to the door, "she's ok," Colby called out. Lily heard footsteps leaving. "You able to go back to sleep?" Lily nodded laying back into the bed slowly. Colby moved back to the floor where he laid down.
"Joe please," Lily pleaded to herself, as she listened to howls fill the air.
...
Jonathan sat on the porch looking over the yard, and the edge of the woods that surrounded them. It had been fours weeks, since Kane found them this abandoned farm house. Jonathan, Renee, Colby, Joshua, Trinity and Lily had fixed it up to make it liveable. All their threats had been eliminated. But at a huge price, Joe had not shift back since their fight with Lancer, and his cousins Jonathan's death. Renee was still terrified of Lily after watching her kill both Bo, and Bray. And Colby and Lily were just weird with each other. The sound of footsteps made him look up. "He out there," Colby held a mug of coffee looking in the same direction as Jonathan.
"Yeah, just past the trees," Jonathan gave a head nod. "He smells her, and the baby." Colby took a seat on the top step.
"What worries me is Roman smells her, where is Joe in all of it?" Colby placed the coffee mug next to him. "I don't know anyone who has come back." He looked back at the house, watching for Lily. She held on everyday hoping, wishing Joe would come home. And they all tried to hang on with her.
"I went two weeks," Jonathan rubbed his face.
"It took four to get you normal," Colby eye scanned the woods again. "You know the longer you stay the more the wolf takes over." Both sat quite, lost in their own thoughts.
"It is really easy to get lost," Jonathan's voice was quite. After he attacked Renee, Jonathan let Dean take over. He would ran till he couldn't, it was easier than facing what he did. "Joe never left," Jonathan smiled, shaking his head. "I just can't give up."
"I am not asking or suggesting we do," Colby said, "it is just Lily pregnant. And I really believe Roman knows. He is all Alfa, I just don't know what he will do."
"You would be surprised what love will do, my friend." Jonathan walked into the house.
"I hope you are right," Colby looked into his coffee mug.
...
Lily made her way down stairs to the kitchen. It was an old fashion farmhouse kitchen. Complete with a black pot belly stove and swing door leading out. Renee and Trinity stood and the island in the middle of the room. The sound of Renee's laughter made Lily smile. She missed her, she was the kindest, gentlest person Lily had met. And she had always been by Lily's side. When no one else could make her feel like she belonged, Renee did. It hurt not to have that. Renee all but run from Lily, she would cower in fear. Lily wasn't sure how to make it right. "Need help," Lily asked smiling. Both ladies looked up, Renee looking away quickly.
"No, " Trinity answered. Trinity had never liked Lily, and never hid it. Lily knew she blamed her for past and present sorrow brought to this pack.
Lily didn't need anyone to tell her what she caused. She carried it, felt it every minute of everyday. The look on both Renee and Trinity's face. The whispers of Jonathan, Josha and Colby. And most of all the absence of Joe.
Renee kept her eyes down, and stayed close to Trinity. Lily stood back watching Trinity try to light the stove. "Here," Lily finally walked over, holding her hand over the burner till she felt the heat. Lily longed for Renee to clap, jump up and down, being so proud of her. Lily couldn't take their silence anymore.
...
Lily walked out to the pouch. Colby still sat on the top step. "He out there," Lily leaned against the doorframe.
"He knows," Colby answered. Their relationship had become strained. Colby felt he had to protect Lily, keep her safe. Lily only talked to him when she had to. "Lily, I," Colby stopped, whenever he brought up Joe or the baby Lily would get upset. "I don't know what to do. I have never seen or been around."
"It will be fine," Lily had to keep telling herself that.
"Lily, you are human," Colby stood up, making Lily go stiff. She didn't like him close to her. "None of us know what will happen."
"Joe's mom was human," Lily answered.
"And she is not here to tell us," Trinity voice cause Lily to turn backing into Colby. "His dad his sisters, hell he's not even here." Colby growled at her comments.
"Trinity," Lily stepped toward her, "you have never liked me. And it really use to bother me." Colby stayed close. Gone was the quite, shy, and timid girl. Lily had gained and stayed controlling the powers she had. But they were still attached to her emotions, and got stronger with them. "So why are you here," Lily asked Trinity. "Cause I don't need you." Trinity stood silent," what you have nowhere to go?"
"You are the one who should leave," Trinity said through clenched teeth. A smirk came to Lily.
"I am having your pack leaders baby," Lily step closer now face to face. Trinity breathed heavy, their raised voices brought Jonathan, Renee and Joshua to the pouch.
"Back down, Trinity,"Jonathan snapped.
"Why do you all defend her, she has ruined us," Trinity yelled,"she not one of us."
"She is Joe's choose," Colby raised his eyebrow. "We have been through this."
"If you can't handle it," Jonathan spoke up.
"You are all fools," Trinity said with a laugh.
"Trinity, than leave," Jonathan reiterated.
"No," Lily spoke up, everyone watched and waited. "She has nowhere and no one to go to." Lily didn't want to her to be shunned. Lily knew how bad Trinity felt the loss of Jonathan. Her grief was great, Lily had heard her howls late at night. They weren't like the other, they came from a deeper place.
Trinity eye were glowing still full of rage, all of them knew what was coming. Naomi seem to spring from Trinity. Naomi teeth show her back arched, shaking her whole body. Low growls came from Colby and Jonathan," go run it off," Jonathan pointed toward the woods. They all watched as Naomi leaped to the ground running toward the woods.
Lily stayed on the pouch for Trinity to return, even though Colby asked her not to. "I won't be far," Colby let out a deep breath, walking toward the door.
"She won't hurt me," Lily said keeping her eyes in the direction she saw Naomi run. "She could have killed me ten times over. She never did."
"She knew what Joe would have done," Colby almost shattered at the thought.
"Maybe, but Joe's been gone," Lily cast her eyes toward Colby, "she is hurting,Colby."
"We all are," Colby stepped in to the door.
...
The sun was setting, Lily still waited for Trinity to return. She keep her eyes toward the woods, she wondered if Trinity had run into Roman. Each one of them would ran at night trying to reach him. Trinity slowly came up the yard to the house. Lily sat up she knew she would be tired. She had shifted so fast her clothes had shred. Most werewolves had a higher body temperature than humans. And nudity was nothing they were ashamed of. Lily had just grown use to it.
Trinity looked up at Lily, she started up the steps slowly. "Here," Lily held out a glass, "just water." Lily shook her head, "don't worry it is just water." Bray words haunted her, Lily paused, she knew not to close her eyes. Than she would see him, hearing him was bad enough. Trinity took the glass sniffing it,"You want a blanket or something?" Trinity drink the water in one gulp.
"No," was her answer, she started for the house.
"Look," Lily called out, "I get it, you hate me. And I understand why, really I do." Trinity stopped, "I didn't want this any of it. There are days when I wish I never knew. I wish Paul never found me, never told me. That Joe didn't see me outside that bookstore. That he listened to everyone and took Galina as his mate," Lily's words were coming faster, "I wish, " she stopped sucking in air. "I wish I would have listened to Joe and left Bray's not listened to anything he said. Not believed him so much. But I just wanted so much to know about me." Tears spilt out and Lily sobbed, " I never had what you had. You have a history, a family that told you, taught you. I just didn't want to be helpless, I didn't want people fighting for me." Trinity looked into the house," I am sorry about Jonathan, I know you know Joe never meant that. Maybe that why he won't come back. I don't know," Trinity turned slowly, Lily wasn't sure but she thought she saw tears. "I don't pretend to know your pain. I live with at least the hope Joe will come back. And if I could fix or ease any of the pain I have caused I would. But I can't, and honestly I need your help." Trinity gave lily a confused look," I know nothing about raising a werewolf, I have no idea what is happening to me. Look I am not asking for us to be best friends, just," Lily stood up," if I walk in a room you don't have to walk out." Trinity bit her lip, letting out a deep breath.
"I have put all my energy into hating you, blaming you," Trinity bottom lip quivered. "Funny, I think this is the first time I have ever really listened to you," Lily gave a chuckle because she was right. "I have been so lost without," Trinity looked down, her shoulders bounced.
"I am sorry," Lily slowly reached out. "I am glad you stayed," Lily had feared with all they had been through they were all go their separate ways. Or maybe what they had been through held them together.
"I really hated you because I was raised to," Trinity wiped her eyes.
"We all get held to a past we didn't create,"Lily shrugged, Trinity laughed. For the first time Lily felt at ease with her. "Oh if Joe could see us now." Lily smiled.
"You keep him here," Trinity said.
"Yeah, I know the baby."
"No," Trinity stopped her," you." Lily didn't understand, and as if Trinity knew,"we can hear each other's thought when we are in wolf form. But we hear our wolf selves. I hear Roman he knows somewhere in there he loves you. He confused, it kinda like him and Joe are fighting. Make sense," Trinity asked. Lily gave a nod.
"I just worry who is going to win that fight," Lily answered.