So This is s fanfic that I started writing and am hoping to continue to write. However I cannot be sure of how often I will update.
disclaimer: I own nothing it all belongs to Richelle Mead only the story line is mine and any additional characters that may appear in the story.
Knocking echoed around my dorm room disturbing the silence, I tried to think of who it could be.
I checked the bond but Lissa was in the clinic healing others still with Adrian while Christian and Eddie were helping clean the campus up.
"Come in" I said, my voice raspy from the countless sobs making their way up, the door opened slowly, I heard a sharp intake of breath as she looked at me curled up in a messy, bloody heap on my bed.
"What do you want Mother" I asked tiredly
"I wanted to make sure that you were okay and wanted to let you know that I was leaving tomorrow morning…" she trailed off, her eyes widening as I looked up at her for the first time. I guess I looked like crap, my eyes were bloodshot and my cheeks had tear tracks cutting through the dirt, my hair knotted and mussed up while my clothes were the same clothes from 2 days ago. The day we stormed the caves and saved the Moroi and Dampier while killing all the Strigoi, it was also the day that I lost him. That I would never hold him close to me, hear him whisper words to me in Russian. The day my heart was torn in two and the day I stopped truly living…
"I'm fine" she gave me a look saying she doesn't believe me, she took a hesitant step forward from the doorway
"I know I haven't been the best mother in the world…" she started, I scoffed and rolled my eyes "…I'm sorry. I thought that it was best for you to be here to learn and live so you can become a great guardian and woman once you had grown up" she stopped talking and looked at the ground, her voice sounded different.
Silence filled the room as Janine stood there looking at the ground with her arms wrapped around her body, and me sitting on my bed with my knees up under my chin, my arms around them. I decided that I had to break the uncomfortable silence
"Alberta would tell me that was why I stayed here" I whispered, her head rose slowly to look at me, a tear rolling down her cheek shocked me. THE Janine Hathaway crying was not something that happened every day. I kept going…
"I understood that, I don't hate you for doing what you thought was the best thing for me" her shoulders sagged in relief
"All I wanted was a visit at least once per year so that I could remember your face or what it felt like to be hugged by my mom. A reply to my Christmas cards, my letters anything so that I knew that even if I couldn't see you that you were still loved me and hadn't forgotten me." My voice cracked at the end as tears rolled down my cheeks one following the next in a steady stream, her cheeks were covered in tears too
"Until I was 10, every birthday and Christmas I would sit in my dorm or in the reception waiting for you to walk through the door, or a present hell even a letter to arrive but nothing came. But Alberta was always there to dry my tears and hold me, doing the things you should have done." I was getting angrier with every word I spoke and could feel spirits darkness filling my mind increasing my anger
"She was my mum and she is more of a mother to me than you will ever be. You left me here as soon as you could. I only knew your face from pictures and from what people told me about you. Lissa's family became my family, they were my sanctuary, and because of them I realized that you were nothing to me, just a name and a barely there face." I stood up ignoring my bodies protest at the change from 2 days in the same position, I stood right in her face our noses barely touching as I looked down at her slightly
"You are nothing to me, just the woman who birthed me and left me to be raised by others" I stormed out of my room as she called for me. I ran down the hallway and out into the courtyard, I paused momentarily blinded by the light from the sun as it was technically night time for us, before I kept running. I could hear her behind me calling out my name, I ran faster away from the school. Soon her calls were getting faint and then stopped all together. Glancing over my shoulder I realized I had run out of the wards and into the forest past where Lissa had been tortured by the mana.
Pausing to check my surroundings and make sure everything was fine I fell to my knees and wept for everything, and everyone I loved. Black tears rolled down my cheeks and dripped off my chin and onto the softy grasses under me, with every drip the grass faded from green into a dull brown and drooped until turning black and rotting into the earth.
"Rose" a voice whispered so faintly breaking me out of my thoughts, looking around me a lone translucent figure floated close to me nearly touching me,
"Mason" I whispered, he looked so sad as his eyes rested on me before lifting his arm to point, his eyes following his arm.
Looking at the direction he was pointing I realised he was pointing at the caves
"Why do you want me there Mase? I have nothing there but bad memories…" my voice cracked as I saw Dimitri being pulled back by the blonde Strigoi, his hand reached out for me his eyes leading with me while his lips yelled for me to run. Shaking my head I cleared the images away when a question popped into my mind. Glancing up at Mason who was still pointing but looking at me with sad frustrated eyes
"Mase… Is he… is he a… a… a Strigoi?" I asked and held my breath, his head shook and his arm began to point frantically towards the caves
"He's dead then" I whispered to myself and my head dropped suddenly too heavy for my shoulders, Mason began to wave his arms to gain my attention. I looked back at him he shook his head and walked towards the caves direction and signalled for me to follow, confused I stood up slowly and followed him. Every step took its toll on me, my heart felt heavy and my head was confused as of why Mason wanted me to return to the caves.
I don't know how long we walked for, well I walked and he floated in front of me, but the sun was starting to fade.
I opened my mouth to tell Mason that I was sick of walking when I heard a sound, we stopped
"What was that?" I asked, Mason just looked at me and his mouth twitched as if trying to smile before pointing to my left and waving then disappearing. I stood in silence looking to my left, waiting for something to come crashing through. I heard the sound again it sounded like a groan of pain, the sound of twigs being broken under foot followed it.
I took my fighting stance and pulled out the silver stake that Alberta had given me for the fight and never asked for it back, I took a few hesitant steps forward so as not to be taken by surprise. The groan came again louder this time, I squinted through the big bush from behind which the sound came.
A dark figure came into view, I lunged through the bush and tackled the dark figure that groaned loudly and hissing in pain. Straddling the figure I pulled up the stake ready to strike when I finally saw who I was straddling.