An : Hey everyone this is my first fan fic that I've deemed worthy to publish on , it's unbeta'd as I am currently looking for a beta ( if you're interested please PM me), and criticism is completely welcome. Be as harsh as you like, I'd like to gauge my writing and know what needs improvement. So yeah…enjoy the prologue!

Warnings: Yaoi/ Shonen-Ai (leaning more towards Shonen-Ai because I really don't want this taken down), for those who don't know that means gay relationship/s, boyxboy. Also age difference – not too big but enough for one party to be under aged while the other is legal.

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or any of its characters.

Prologue:

Shikamaru stood in the kitchen pouring coffee for himself and his lover. He had to hold back a happy sigh as a small smile made its way onto his lips and thought of the sexy man who was waiting for him in the bedroom.

"Hey Shika, I need to talk to you." His slightly raspy voice came from behind him, jerking the younger man from his thoughts.

"I thought you were staying in the bedroom." Shikamaru says and turns around to face a fully dressed Him with a smile, two mugs of steaming coffee in his hands.

The look on his lover's face made his smile falter a bit.

"What's wrong?" He asked

The older man looked at the floor.

"Shika, I'm leaving you."

Shikamaru's smile vanished completely.

"What?" The younger man asked trying to keep his voice stable, though he was failing miserably.

"I'm going back to Her."

"Why?"

"Because I want someone I can have a real family with, I'll never have that with you." He says and looks up from the floor, meeting the young Nara's hazel eyes.

Never once, even after several very bad fights that had resulted in near break ups, had Shikamaru seen those brown eyes so cold. Looking at the floor the young man saw His suitcase on the blue carpeted floor beside him.

"I see."

Shikamaru looks up and meets His slightly shocked gaze with jaded eyes and gave a sad smile.

"I'll leave these with you. Not like I'll need them anymore." He said as he set his copy of the keys to their – now Shikamaru's - apartment on the counter.

"I love you." Shikamaru whispers unable to stop himself.

"Have a good life Shika." He says as he picks up his suitcase then leaves the apartment.

The second he heard the door close, Shika broke.

Letting out a strangled gasp he set the coffee mugs on the counter and slid down to the cold tile floor, turning so his back was against the cupboard. He gasped again, tears beginning to sting his eyes as he pulled at the collar of his T-shirt.

It felt like someone stole the air from his lungs.

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In the months after Him leaving Shikamaru thrust himself into doing things with his friends especially Ino, Choji, Shino and Neji. The change in the Nara's behavior was quiet surprising to them but welcome. But after six months of fake smiles and lots of hanging out Ino was getting very worried about Shikamaru. Finally one day after their classes were over the group of friends gone to Ino's to have coffee while gripping about their teachers.

It wasn't long before the others went home saying they had to study or in Neji's case get ready for a date, leaving Ino and Shikamaru alone. After moments of heavy silence as Ino kept her cool jade eyes on the other teen that was currently seated on her cream love seat feeling rather small under her gaze.

"Shikamaru what's wrong? And don't you dare to tell me there's nothing bothering you."

Said boy sighed, troublesome woman.

"My lover left me."

"Lover, I didn't know you have a lover Shikamaru!" The blond exclaimed in disbelief.

"Had a lover Ino, I had a lover." He grumbles

"Oh…sorry…but heck I thought you were asexual or something, you never batted an eye at the girls and wouldn't even spare a glance for the guys…" Ino said as she sets her coffee down on the glass side table and moves to sit next to her longtime friend.

"Why didn't you tell me Shika?"

"A lot of reasons Ino, it was troublesome with the amount of reasons. One of them being it wasn't exactly legal when we started dating."

"Legal? Shikamaru Nara, are you telling me you were dating someone older than you?" Ino asked shrewdly, narrowing her eyes dangerously.

"I just said that Ino, I was sixteen when we started dating, he was twenty-five. Twenty-five Ino and he was a teacher. What was I supposed to do, tell you only to have you spew the news to the entire school? Don't deny it Ino, you would have, you use to be a legendary gossip in high school. "Shikamaru defended himself, leveling a hazel glare at her.

"He? It was a guy? And he was a teacher! Dear God, Shikamaru you can really pick 'em huh? An older man and a teacher."

"You don't need to rub it in. I know I was stupid, and after two years of dating he dumped me to go back to his ex-girlfriend who had been dating someone else the entire duration of our relationship Ino. "

"Oh Shika, I'm sorry." Ino whispered and pulled the young man into a tight hug which he returned. "Who was he?"

Shikamaru sighed, he knew the question was coming and he knew that he would have to answer her. "Asuma Sarutobi."

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AN: so that's a wrap! Um hopefully I'll have the first chapter up within the week or so (give or take a few days, unless anything comes up) so if you enjoyed it you'll be able to read some more, if not then well…thanks for reading anyways. Please review so I can improve things.

Bye ! ~ Shameless