Okay! This is not my first fanfiction but my frist Black Butler one! Please excuse my poor grammer skills.. and my poor spelling skills.
Rating: T for a attempt at sucide and other stuff.. Pairings: Sebastian/Ciel, Grell/William Note: based three years after the second season. I never watched the secound season but I don't think it matters..
Disclaimer: I do not own Black Butler.. If I did, SebaCiel and Grelliam would be on the show ALL the time.

~His Butler, Heartbroken. Chapter One~

-Ciel pov-

Twilight made the sky a mixture of pink, blue and orange. The colors of the sad hours after sunset where beautiful. The smooth rocky ledge I sat on was cold. The warm current felt nice, as it blew on my face. It was almost like nature was giving me a peacefull, calm senerio in which I was going to die.
I sighed.
This was not the scene I had in mind for my death.
But this is, a rather pleasent subsitute. I sighed again as the painfull memories overwelmed me. I couldn't stop the flash back of that day play in my mind.

~A week earlier~

It was a calm sunday morning in the Phantomhive manor. I sighed, working on paperwork. Since becoming a demon, nothing has really changed.. It was peacefull, yet sad. Since a week earlier I had to fire MeyRin, Bard, and Finny. And a three months ago Tanaka died. This saddened everyone greatly. At the moment I was working on paperwork to leave the estate to the Middleford family when I heard a soft knock on the door to my study. "Sir, I need to speak with you." I heard Sebastian say.
"Come in." I responded as he walked in. "What?" I asked.
"Sir, I must inform you that I'm leaving soon." he said. "What do you mean?" I asked cautiously. "I mean, you and I need to move on. Your newborn years are almost coming to a end and I think we should live seperate lives." Sebastian responded with little emoition. My heart was pounding in my chest.
"But we have a contract. You can't leave!" I snapped, fearing his answer.
Sebastian looked at me with a blank expression. "The contract will break once you become a full demon. So I will no longer have to serve you." he said, his voice as cold as ice.
By then I was shaking, not out of anger but fear. "If you want to leave so badly. Then go!" I half-yelled at him. Sebastian looked startled. "Go! Just leave. Don't have me make it a order!" I was now screaming. Sebastian just bowed and left. I willed myself not to cry.. No I couldn't. But once I knew he was gone, I was finally able to sob.

~Flash Back ending~

It's been a week since that happened. A week since the only person I could count on. The only person I could trust. The only person I learned to love, left. I now realize that I could have prevented it, that his leaving was my fault. And now, I have nothing to live for. I wimpered and pulled out two objects.
One was a knife and one was a pistol.
I took off my jacket and pulled up my sleeves. After a moments hesitation, I let the knife slide down my arm. After that I cut my arms intil they went numb with pain. Then as the night was just begining, I knew my life had to end.
I put down the knife and picked up the pistol; pointing it at my chest.
I took a deep breath but before I could pull the trigger a familer voice stopped me.
"Ohh my, my Ciel. I must say red is not a good color on you."

Okay.. Is it good?
I know, it's OOC.. But please review!
Can you guess who said the last line?
Well, I hope everyone at least enjoyed it a little..
-Ann.Z