I just left Camp Jaha, leaving Bellamy behind. I am walking away, forcing myself not to look back. I wish I could stay, but I wouldn't be able to see all these people's faces without remembering that I executed so many «innocent people just by pulling a lever. I feel bad, and I have no idea where to go and how to survive all by myself. So I keep walking in the woods, hoping to find some place to shelter for the night. After a few hours of walking, I find a dark cave into a mountain. I'm not sure if it's safe but, it's my only choice right now. So I walk in, with my knife in one hand and my flash light in the other, hoping nothing is going to jump on me and rip my throat out. This cave is freaking me out. I wish Bellamy was with me right now. He would know what to do. I clearly don't. I don't even know how to make a fire. So I keep walking in the cave, and realizing there is nothing in it. So I decide to put down my stuff, and go hunt. Because I need to feed myself and clearly, my mom won't be bringing me eggs and bacon in the morning. But I suddenly feel so tired that I just fall asleep on the hard rock of the cave. I wake up the next morning, not realizing where I am. So I look around. Am I in the dropship? In my cell, on the ark? And then my memories start coming back. I'm in that cave. So I get up, and go outside to take a walk. I want to take a look around my new home. So I keep walking and I arrive in front of a gorgeous waterfall. It looks so pure and, I don't even have the words to explain it. It's small and it's pouring down in a little pool of water. I thinks the level of the water is around my waist. So I decide that a shower wouldn't be bad. So I take my shirt and my pants off, unclip my bra, and pull my thong down. As I get in the water, I feel chills running through my body. The water is cold and refreshing. So I go in, and I bend my knees so the water goes up to my neck. It feels so good. And for some random reason, I think of Bellamy, putting his hands on my body, and slowly kissing me. What am I doing? I have to stop thinking about him! I'll probably never see him again, and besides, he's not even that hot. So I keep telling myself that, trying to convince myself of it, but every time I say it, I don't believe myself. After washing all the dirt from my body off, I start getting out of the water. I put my clothes back on, and start going to the cave.
A few days later, after doing the same routine over and over again, I decide to go take another shower. So I get to the waterfall, get my clothes off, and get in. It feels so good. Just feeling the water pouring on my skin and not thinking about Bellamy. In fact, I'm still trying to convince myself that he's not a total hottie. Gosh I want to kiss him right now. If only I could tell him how I feel. But it's too late for that now. Suddenly, I feel somethings touching my hips, so I turn around, and I see Bellamy, standing in front of me, naked!
«Hey Princess! »
«What the hell are you doing here? » I was doing my best to cover myself up with my hands as much as possible. I was also forcing myself not to look down, but stare at his face instead, which is really hard doing that without blushing!
«Raven, Octavia and I left the camp»
«What? Why? » I decided to turn around, so that he couldn't see me entirely naked because this moment was pretty embarrassing, but he seemed totally comfortable, standing in front of me, with absolutely no clothes on!
«Because we didn't want you to be alone, and because we care about you»
«Okay, uhm, could we talk after I get dressed up? »
«Yeah sure» He got out of the water, went to take my clothes that were laying in the grass, and gave them to me.
So I got out, went behind a tree and got dressed up. When I came out, he only had his pants on, so he was shirtless in front of me. Man those abs! Wow I'm totally dreaming about him tonight. Why am I so attracted to him? Why? I mean, he is like the hottest guy on Earth… and in space! So he started to talk, but I wasn't listening, because I was mentally thanking god for creating such a wonderful creature but specifying that he could've worked a little harder on his intelligence and his manners.
«Clarke are you listening? »
«Uhm not really, sorry. What were you saying? »
«Raven Octavia and I found a cave yesterday and we gathered all our things there»
«I settled in a cave too. So can I move in with you guys? »
«That's the point»
So we started walking, a mile, two miles. Where was that cave? When we finally got there, Octavia and Raven jumped in my arms which surprised me because I wasn't really in good condition with Octavia when I left the camp and Raven's Raven so that was just another awkward moment that day.
The next few days, I tried as hard as possible to avoid talking or even looking at Bellamy. But obviously, I had to mess that up and come in the cave exactly when he was changing. Which was so weird.
«Hey Princess! You've been avoiding me! »
«No I haven't. I was just really busy»
«Is it the fact that I saw you naked that bothers you? »
«Well you're only the second guy who actually saw me naked so yes it's kind of shocking! »
«I'm sorry, it wasn't my intention to make you mad»
«I'm not mad I just feel weird around you now. Every time I see you I just remember the stupid smile on your face when we were at the waterfall! »
«Ouch that hurts. So you don't like my smile? »
«Of course I love your smile you're like the hottest guy on earth and all I want to do right now is kiss you and your smile is just wow, and, did I just say that out loud? »
«Yeah you just did. So I'm the hottest guy on earth and you want to kiss me. Sounds pretty good to me. »
«Oh my god. I just made it even more awkward. Didn't I? »
«Totally. But if you want to kiss me, why didn't you before?»
I look at him, not knowing what to say. Without even realizing it, I got close to him and he put his hands on me, one just on top of my butt and the other one to the same level of my bra. He pulled me close and kissed me. It tasted like fresh mint, although I don't know where he got his mint from. I put my arms around his neck and prayed that this moment would last forever. But at the same moment, Octavia came in and was staring at us.
«It's not what you think, Octavia» I said, feeling guilty.
«I bet your ass it is! Finally! You two were flirting since we landed on Earth and now is your first physical contact! Oh my god I have to go tell Raven! »
«No! You can't just run around screaming that Bell and I kissed! »
«Of course I can! »
«But you won't! »
«Watch me! » So Octavia got out actually screaming «Bell and Clarke kissed». Which made me pretty mad so I got out and jumped on her, putting my hand on her mouth, trying to shut her up.
At the same moment, Raven walks in, with my mom. Crap. I wasn't expecting her. What the hell is she doing here?
«Mom? What the hell? »
«She was stalking us» Replied Raven.
«Why? Why were you stalking us? »
«I was following you Clarke. You're my daughter and I can't lose you»
«You can't lose me but you didn't hesitated when you turned dad in! »
«Clarke I told you I didn't have a choice.
«Yes you did! But you didn't want to take the chance! Now don't expect me to forgive you because I can't! I just can't! You're the one who killed my father! And how can I know that you loved him? I can't! Because he's not here anymore! It's all your fault! »
So I ran away from the cave, crying my eyes out, hoping she would be gone when I go back. Or even better, wake up from this possible nightmare, which is lasting way to long. So I suddenly feel something hitting my head and everything becomes blurry. When I open my eyes, I'm tied up, upside down and I'm bleeding. So I start screaming for help and I see a shadow, which looks like the person has a knife, which totally freaks me out. I scream again and the shadow shows himself. The guys must be at least 6 feet 2. He looks big and scary. I don't think it's a grounder or a reaper. He's wearing a mask and is coming towards me. He suddenly says something.
«Yu gonplei ste odon»
Oh my god! He's going to kill me! So as I taught, he comes near me and he stabs me in the stomach with that knife. It hurts so much! So he leaves, leaving me there, with a knife in my stomach, to die. I hear some voices, but they don't seem real. I hear Bellamy's voice saying «Hold on princess. We're going to get you out of here». And then I realize that they are real! Bellamy, Raven and Octavia are here untying me up! So Bell takes me in his arms and the only thing I care about is touching him. When I wake up again, I'm in the cave, next to a fire, and Bell's next to me.
«Welcome back princess! How are you feeling? »
«Ouch! My stomach hurts»
«Well, you did have a knife inside you for at least 4 hours»
«Did you get it out? »
«Yeah, Raven did. What happened to you? We heard you screaming for help and we came»
«There's a guy who hit me unconscious and wanted to kill me»
«Well you should get some rest. Do you want anything to eat? Water? A blanket? »
«A blanket and some water would be great»
«Sure I'll be right back»
So Bellamy came back with a bottle of water that he gave me and helped my drink, and a blanket, that he wrapped around me. And He sat next to my head, playing with my hair, so that's how I fell asleep, thinking of him.