Hello everyone and welcome to my first KagaKuro!
I denied myself to write this for a whole months of exams, but now here it finally is!
It turned out to be really smutty for my standards *blush*
It's the first time I use first person, let's see how it works out :) It's from Kagami's point of view by the way
Enjoy!
The spark in your eyes
I don't know when it started. I can't remember the moment I first realized it. I just know that it somehow turned out to be like this, the undeniable fact that I can't play basketball with Kuroko anymore.
We just train, it's no more, and it is all just fine. We stand beneath the basket, it's five of us, and Kuroko gets the ball. I know, he will pass to me. I know it even before he knows it himself, but even so it just doesn't work out.
My eyes are glued to the ball, like always, but the moment Kuroko catches it, they wander along his arms, up his neck to his face. His look is stern, he's highly concentrated, his light blue hair spins as he quickly turns in my direction.
He's fast, it all happens in less than a second, but to me it all appears in slow motion. I'm mesmerized and watch the sparkling sweat running down his chin.
And before I know it, my sight turns orange, I feel the hard, heavy ball burying his way through my facial features. I'm ripped off my feet, startled by the sudden pain, fall back and land on my back.
My head hits the ground with a dull sound. I hear voices, but don't understand what they're saying, my eyesight is blurred and everything turns upside down around me.
Suddenly I see Kuroko's blue eyes before me. They look down at me from above, they seem to be only inches away. If I'd raise my head, our foreheads would touch, I think. Now they come even closer and I feel a wet tongue touching my cheek. Kuroko's licking my cheek?
The thought runs through my head and simultaneously my heart beat quickens. Is this really happening? I think about lying here some more, until a voice in my head tells me that this is ridiculous. And my returning eyesight confirms it.
"AAAHHH!", I scream while I get back on my feet even quicker than I had been ripped off them, "TAKE THAT BEAST AWAY FROM ME!"
I try to jump back to get some distance between me and that dog who looks just like his owner, but I just end up falling back on my butt instead.
Number two looks at me with big eyes and barks shortly. I stare at his tongue and get conscious of the wet spot in my face.
"Uahhh!", I take the end of my shirt and try to wipe it away.
The concerned looks of my teammates brighten up and they all break into loud laughter. My eyes search for the real Kuroko, who has the amusement written all over even his face and giggles quietly to himself.
Just what is wrong with me? Why does my mind blank every time I watch him playing?
I try to stand up again, but a second hit strikes me, this time from behind on the back of my head.
"OW!", I shout and reach for the spot. The laughter has suddenly died down.
"What are you doing?!", my heart skips a beat when I hear the annoyed voice of my coach right behind me. I gulp.
"The winter cup is coming up and you can't catch a single pass from Kuroko! You have to be kidding me!", she yells at me.
Unfortunately she is right. Things like that keep happening for quite a while now.
"I'm sorry! I don't know what-", I want to explain myself, but she won't let me.
"I don't care what it is! I just want it to be fixed! Until tomorrow, did you get that?!"
"What?", I look up to her, still sitting on the floor, and stare at her disbelieving. I want that to be fixed as well, but if it was that easy, I would've done it long ago. How should I manage that until tomorrow?
"You got me! You two will train today until you're fine!", she points at me and then at Kuroko, who seems to be a little startled as well by this order.
"What..?", I repeat myself. It was already pretty late, she couldn't really be expecting that.
"Don't play dumb!", she hits me a second time with whatever she has in her hand.
"Even if it takes you the whole night! Figure something out! You two are important for us and we can't possibly win any game when you keep going on like this! You, too, Kuroko.."
She turns to Kuroko, "you passed to Kagami even though Teppei was in a far better position. You both lack concentration. I can't have that!"
We don't object, because we both know that she's right. At this rate, our team is screwed. And we have a lot of tough opponents waiting for us at the Winter Cup.
"Sorry, that I've dragged you into this..", I reluctantly apologize to Kuroko in the locker room after the training is over.
"No..", Kuroko shakes his head, "I'm at fault as well. We really should work on our teamwork."
I'm really glad he sees it like that. If I were him actually, I'd be pretty pissed about this whole thing. Just how pathetic is it, that I can't even catch his easiest passes? I know pretty well that it's not his fault at all. But I still can't tell what's wrong with me lately.
"So.. what shall we do? It's already dark outside and the hall will be closed soon as well."
I think about it for some time and sigh as I realize that I only have one choice.
"Wanna stay over at my place tonight?", I ask him.
His eyes widen and for only a little moment I think I have seen something in them. A spark lighting up. But maybe I'm just imagining things.
"Ok then, I guess it can't be helped..", he answers with his straight face, doing his best to sound troubled. But no matter what he says, it always sounds the same. Like he has no emotion at all.
I decide to ignore the fact that that was a rather rude way to accept an invitation – mostly because I'm not the politest guy myself – and lead him to my home.
It feels pretty awkward to walk home with him. I don't know what to talk to him. I still wonder what kind of relationship we actually have. Are we just teammates? Or are we even friends? I can't tell at all. And now that I think about it, I can't even tell what I want our relationship to be.
Is it even possible to be friends with such an apathetic weirdo?
"What are you thinking, Kagami-kun?", he asks me as if he has seen right through me. I flinch and turn my eyes away.
"I'm just wondering.. how I can handle this..", I claim.
I really have no idea what to do about my little problem. How can I if I don't know what it's caused by?
"Me, too", Kuroko says thoughtfully, "It seems like.. like your affected by Misdirection Overflow. Even though I didn't even use it once."
Misdirection Overflow? So he draws my attention on him and away from the ball? That seems to be just what is happening. But why?
"Seems like it.. Can you imagine what that's caused by? Do you do something?"
"No..", Kuroko answers and becomes hesitant. "Could it be that.. you.."
"What?", it doesn't look like Kuroko will conclude that sentence any time soon. He turns his eyes away from me.
"Nothing..", he mumbles.
I don't know what he wanted to ask me, but I have the feeling that it's better he didn't, so I let him be.
"Here we are", I say as I open the door to my apartment. The moment I step in I realize, that this is the first time I have someone coming over. "I live here alone."
Kuroko walks in, takes off his shoes and looks around. "That's a lot cleaner than I've thought. And it's huge.."
I know that this apartment isn't what you'd expect for a high school student. I don't want to know what my Dad is paying for this myself.
"You're misjudging me", I scold him and he answers me with an amused smile.
"It seems so."
It still feels awkward, having Kuroko here. And I can't help it but staring even more at him than I do in training. As if I'm afraid that he'll disappear right before of my eyes. But why should he do that? And why would I care?
"Have you already thought about something?", he asks me.
How long did I stare at him now without saying something? This has to stop!
"No.. is there something you want to do?"
For one moment, I feel like I see it again. That spark in his eyes. What is the meaning of it?
Suddenly his face gets some color and he avoids my eyes again.
"No..", he mumbles. It's so obvious that he's lying, but I can't think of any reason why he'd do something like that.
I walk towards him and notice something weird. His whole body is shivering.
"Are you.. nervous?"
He flinches and quickly shakes his head. "It's just.. I'm at Kagami-kun's house for the first time and.."
"But this is no reason to be shivering.."
To be honest, I feel pretty nervous, too. I can't really explain it, but my stomach is feeling weird. It's tickling a bit and the closer I come to him, the worse it becomes. Even though this is my house and there is no reason for me to feel uncomfortable.
"Maybe.. we don't know each other well enough", I can't believe that I'm saying this. After all, I found that guy creepy from the very start, but the words just come by themselves.
"We're supposed to be light and shadow, Seirin's trump card. Maybe we should get to know each other a little better."
I stand right before Kuroko and am more captivated by him than ever before. There it is again, now I'm sure of it. This is more than just a spark in his eyes, this is a whole fire. And it's reaching for me, pulling me closer.
I forget to breath as it feels like the fire is spreading in my body as well. But what is it? It's different than the look he has when he's determined.
Before I know it, I feel his hands grabbing my neck, pulling me down a little more and suddenly I feel his lips on mine.
My heart stops, the fire is burning my whole body now, blood is rushing up to my head. Kuroko is kissing me.
This is a dream, right? When he let's go of me again, I pant for air, in hope I can think clearly again, but it's no use.
"This is not.. how I meant it..", that's all I manage to say. I want to be utterly disturbed, yell around and throw him out, but somehow I can't.
"I'm sorry, Kagami-kun..", he says to me and really looks sorry. But I have the feeling that he's not referring to what he just did. "I've finally reached my limit.. I can't hold back any longer."
He says this in such a serious tone, with the fire in his eyes, and I don't understand. I can't think at all any more.
My body is frozen as he puts his hands on my neck again and kisses me a second time. His eyes are closed and I shut mine as well. I'm split. One half of me wants to remain like this, feel his lips, breath in his smell and wrap my arms around him. The other one tries to awaken me, telling me I should back off immediately.
The latter one had almost won, when Kuroko made his next move and licked across my lips. His tongue was so soft, something twitched in my lower regions, and it was impossible to stop him from forcing his way through my lips.
The tips of our tongues touch and I can't deny any longer, that this fire consuming my body and slowly concentrating in my lower regions is desire. And this desire is nipping the 'I'm kissing a guy'-truth in the bud.
Kuroko draws back a second time and opens his eyes again. The fire isn't gone, no, it's only growing stronger. And now I understand what it is. It's the same desire I feel. Paired with a slight touch of insecurity.
"You're not stopping me?", he asks carefully.
This is my chance. I just have to stop him. Now. But why do I hesitate? Why can't I stop? I feel like I won't be able to turn back after this moment, that I have to decide now or never.
But for Kuroko my hesitation is enough to take the insecurity from his gaze.
"If not, then where is your bedroom?"
I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm thinking. I'm not thinking at all. I must have lost my mind. This can't be happening right?
I look down to reassure myself that it is, even though there was no need at all. I'm sitting on my bed and Kuroko is kneeing before me, licking and sucking my stone hard dick.
It feels so good, I can barely take it. My mind is that clouded by the pleasure, I can't even wonder why he's so good at such a thing. And even less why he's doing it in the first place.
"Kagami-kun.. so big.. as I thought..", his words sound like moans and they arouse me even more. Although it's so embarrassing I feel like dying.
"What are you.. thinking..?", I pant for air. It's kinda hard to speak.
I watch Kuroko and he looks intensely at my lower half with – to my taste – far too big and hungry eyes. Then he looks up to me and my heart skips a beat when I see his gaze. A gaze I've never seen before.
He stands up and crawls to me in the bed, moving closer as if he wants to kiss me, but stops. Our eyes lock and I don't dare to breath. This side of Kuroko is confusing me and freaking me out, I don't know how I can control him anymore. But it only gets worse.
"Do you want to do it?", he asks me straight forward, with the usual calmness in his voice.
My heart is racing, the blood rushes to my face as the question resounds in my ears.
"You ask me this.. now..?", I stutter insecure. Isn't it quite late to ask something like that?
Kuroko looks at me like you look at a kid that is too dumb to grasp what you're indicating, so he precises his words.
"I'm asking you whether you want to stick it in."
"S-s-stick it in?!", I must have heard wrong. Is he really willing to go that far? He can't be serious.
"You know.. your dick in my-"
"I KNOW!", I interrupt him before he says it.
I don't need him to say it, and what's more: I don't want him to say it.
"Then.. do you want to?", he asks again.
He puts his hand on mine without taking his eyes off me. There's this fire in his eyes again, pulling me in and making me unable to speak.
Of course I don't want to. He's a guy, and he's Kuroko. But my little friend down there seems to be of a different opinion. It seems to turn harder with every moment, it almost hurts. I can't deny that my whole body is craving for him. But still..
"If you don't say anything, I'll take it as a yes, you know?", he says patient and kisses me.
His tongue is touching mine and I don't care anymore. Then take it as a yes. I return his kiss for the first time. I may actually come to like this.
But Kuroko already draws back, smiles at me shortly and undresses his shirt. For one moment I actually think that he's quite hot. What's going on with me?
"But first..", he puts his hands on my shoulders and pushes me down. I easily give in because my whole body feels like jelly. Except for this one part at least. "You'll have to prepare me first."
"Pre-prepare?", I stutter again. What now? I try my best to get used to this situation bit by bit, but it's still going too fast for me. With me lying helplessly on my back and Kuroko lying above me with this mischievous grin, I try to prepare myself for the worst.
"I wonder if you can do it.. maybe I should do it myself after all..", Kuroko looks a bit worried and disappointed.
Something inside me can't take it to see him like that, and even less to be doubted. There's nothing I can't do.
"I'll do it! Just tell me.. what..", I regret my words the moment I say them, but it's too late now. I can't possibly take them back.
"You have to stretch me out.. with your fingers", he tells me and I gulp.
"You mean..", I put my hand on his lower back and let my fingers glide deeper beneath his pants.
I feel his sweet, little ass and caress it quickly while my fingers reach deeper. I feel like I'm getting carried away by all this. Still I hesitate one moment before I really put a finger inside him.
"..like this?", I do it after all.
My finger gets sucked inside him and I look at his face.
"Nh.."
There it is. I can't believe it. In this moment I got the first glimpse of an actual facial expression of Kuroko. His cheeks even blushed a bit. So this is how he looks when he feels pleasure..
It's over for me, there's no turning back now. I want to see more of it, I want to make him moan, I want to make him scream, I want to kiss his shivering lips.
I thrust my finger in and draw it out a bit again. He pants for air and tries to get hold to my back.
I can't tell how much I enjoy it, to hear his heavy breath beside my ear, his sweet moans, and to know that I'm the one who causes it.
I put in a second finger and quicken my movements.
"Ahhhh!", Kuroko sounds pained, but the pleasure is stronger.
I pull down his pants with my free hand and stretch him a little more. I wonder about putting another finger in, but Kuroko rises and stops me.
"It's okay now..", he pants and I remove my fingers, "just leave it to me."
He kisses me shortly and sits up, carefully raising his hips above me. I don't know whether I'm prepared for that, but I don't seem to be able to move anymore. All I can do is lie there and watch Kuroko's face as his body lowers upon me.
My dick has patiently waited for this moment and now it feels like it's about to burst. This feels just too good, I don't know if I can take it.
"It's all in..", Kuroko's voice sounds weird. So soft and calm, but still like it's about to break in pleasure.
It really is all in. I can't believe it. I wouldn't have thought that this is even possible. But it seems to be.
Kuroko's hips start moving. It feels like he's sucking me in even more, I can't breath. I pant and try my best to hold my moans down, but still I can't remember that I've ever felt that good before in my life. It's almost unbearable.
Kuroko's face is high red and the pleasure is clearly written in his eyes. How can that be? Isn't this supposed to hurt like hell?
Suddenly a thought strikes me like a slap in the face. And I wonder how I could have been so stupid.
"You're.. not doing this for the first time, right?", I press the words out with my last breath.
Kuroko seems to be a little startled, he stops his movements and looks at me, the bangs fall in his face. Beneath his hair, I see the look in his eyes change, he grins a little like he's amused by my girlish naivety.
"No..", he admits and bows down to me.
His face comes closer to me, his whole body moving forward and I'm slowly slipping out a bit. When he's only inches away from me and about to kiss me, I feel like a flash strikes my body.
I grab his shoulders, press my lips on his and throw him on his back. Almost at the same time I thrust back in.
He tries to moan, but my kiss won't let him. I catch my breath and quicken my movements. All Kuroko can do now is screaming and trying to desperately holding on to my back.
It seems like we're melting together and I try my best to drown the questions popping up in my head in the pleasure. When? With whom? How often?
No, I don't want to think about it. I don't want to care about it. I just move on until I hear actual words coming from Kuroko's lips.
"Kagami-kun.. my limit..", he doesn't manage to say more, but I know what he means.
"Me, too..", I gasp and we come almost simultaneously.
We both shiver and scream and in the next moment the delight has taken all my strength away. I'm terribly exhausted and breath heavily, I feel like I'm about to collapse any moment.
Kuroko looks even worse, he's snow white in the face.
"Are you alright?", I ask him carefully.
I seem to have overdone in. I start to regret it and that I didn't manage to draw out in time. But he just smiles at me and nods slightly, raising his hand with his last strength to touch my cheek.
"Kagami... kun.."
Having said my name, his eyes fell shut and his hand drops again. He's asleep. What was that now? I really don't understand that guy at all.
I look at his sleeping face and even more questions come up. What was that? How did this happen? What kind of relationship do we have now?
I can't think of any answers anymore, my body gives in and I drop right next to Kuroko. Right now, I don't care. I don't want any answers. I just want him to be mine for now.
So I put my arms around him and draw him closer and before I know it, I'm already asleep.
Thank you for reading!
The combination of first person and smut is really tough..
I hope you enjoyed it anyways^^
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