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Flower
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Summary: Several hundred years have passed since the Earl was defeated. Today Lavi was the only exorcist who survived and lives as a Noah together with Road and Tyki. But then he met a girl who share the same face and scar as the white haired boy that used to be his lover…
Disclaimer: If it's mine then why would I write a fanfic in the first place?? Geez. Remember that I'll only put the damn disclaimer here for once. I'm not going to repeat it in the next chapter, folks.
Rating: T but maybe it will become M later. This is just a prologue so there's nothing to worry in this chappie.
WARNING: GIRL!ALLEN. This is unbeta-ed plus English isn't my native language, so there will be loads of grammatical error, misspell, typos, etc. Bear with me. And maybe there's some shounen-ai between the past Lavi and the past Allen. You have been warned! Please press the back button now if you feel offended.
Enjoy!
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Prologue
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I know a Bookman wasn't supposed to love.
"No! Allen, stop! Don't do this, please! I..." I screamed at the top of my lungs.
I know that a sacrifice has to be made in order to win this war.
"Please, Allen!" Tears flowed freely from my eye.
But he didn't stop walking.
And I hate him for that.
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A Bookman wasn't supposed to feel emotion. They don't interfere nor care about what happened to their surrounding.
They existed merely to record history.
When my parents died in war, I gave up my name and become an apprentice of Bookman.
I started to live in lies.
Deceiving everyone.
Deceiving myself.
Fake name, fake personality, fake smile…
In the end, it's all just a tragedy that I have to play in order to complete my role as a Bookman.
A pathetic being.
But then you came to my life.
You accept me the way I am.
You make me live.
You allow 'me' to exist.
But the most important is…
You allow me to love.
A Bookman doesn't need a heart, and when I walk in the path to become a Bookman, I gave up everything I have. My heart, my emotions…
But your smile brought back everything that I tried to erase with all of my strength.
You are a reminder of my humanity. A reminder that I am a human too, who feels emotion and love.
"Lavi, please continue on living for my sake as well, would you?"
That time when he said that to me, his voice was trembling a little. His grey eyes looking directly into my green one's and then he… smiled to me. While his tears continuously pouring from his eyes.
It was too sad. So sad that I couldn't take it and ended up broken in tears as well.
It feels like my heart was being ripped into pieces.
It hurt so much that the lake inside my heart was starting to freeze again.
Just like when I become a Bookman.
…and all the hard work he have done to me… to make me a human again was… futile…
It's cruel.
It's just too cruel thing to ask.
He knows very well that I can't live without him, yet he want me to live even though he know very well that he was going to die.
It's just too cruel…
"It's okay, Lavi. I made this choice myself. You have to trust me. Please don't cry…smile for me, Lavi." he embraces me tight, his small body pressing against my broad one.
Sharing each other's warmth. Seeking comfort from each other.
"No, it's not okay at all!" I yelled at him.
Is it wrong for me to want him here, together with me forever?
I love him so much that I don't want to lose him… even if it was for God's or everyone else's sake… even if his death was essential in order to save humankind… then let humankind be doomed.
As long as he stayed here by my side…
I don't want to lose him.
He smiled at me. Tears keep flowing down to those pale cheeks.
"I know I'm cruel, Lavi… but I want you to live. Please…for me…"
He's barely sixteen and I'm only eighteen.
Yet we bear this sorrowful fate and a burden of responsibilities on our shoulders.
Why do we have to fight?
Why do we have an Innocence?
Why did God write this pitiful script of war in the first place?
And why…
Why did he have to die…?
So much questions, but in the end… it all remained unanswered.
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Prologue -End-
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