Ruka welcomes Yuki on their journey to follow Kaname but is deeply hurt when her second attempt at his heart results in yukis name being brought up. one thing is for sure, Yuki should have left the anti vampire stuff back with Zero. **AN: I feel like I'm choking... like literally... maybe I'm getting strep throat.. if anyone wants to diagnose me- REVIEW**
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**3rd**
She felt like she was choking.
In fact, she was literally choking. Ruka Souen was sitting in front of a lake. No, not a lake; a big pond. She was currently in the west wing of the manor Kaname Kuran was using as a 'summer' home. It was huge. She refrained from using that word when she saw it, as it was so human and did not actually represent a unit of measurement, but she couldn't help but think it when she got lost on her Yuki related errands and then got chided for it.
Yuki.
She was the reason Ruka was choking. No, Ruka was the reason for her own ailment. She was grasping at the grass around the pond, trying to force air in and out. It wasn't that she needed to breath, but even vampires felt extreme discomfort when their throat constricted beyond possibility. Ruka thought she might just pass out.
Her throat was now crushed. Something had crushed it, but it was no one to be seen, so how, she asked herself, had it happened?
"Ruka?" She heard, suddenly, she could breath again. the big gulp of air she took hurt as it filled up her lungs too rapidly. " Ruka Kaname-sama has summoned y-"the person stopped. Ruka noticed it was Hanabusa when his blonde hair invaded her vision and his blue eyes widened in worry. "Ru...ka?"
"I'm fine." she said. " something just attacked me, I took care of it." she finished. she knew there was her blood on her neck, and spilling out of her mouth.
"Ruka, I must get you to Kaname-sama, he will know what to do." "No!" she interjected. "I will go and tell him, I just have to clean up a bit first..." she continued, " I'm fine Hanabusa, I drank its blood, I will heal in a matter of minutes." Hanabusa looked at her suspiciously. He didn't smell anything, or any foreign blood for that matter. Before he could even voice his questions Ruka was gone.
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She was looking at herself in the mirror of her bathroom. She knew, she knew she would get caught if she didn't stop, but she would only realize after it had started.
Ruka was an illusionist after all. And after deciding that she needed punishment for what had transpired a just 5 weeks ago, she couldn't stop the attacks when they happened.
Hmmp, an illusion manipulator who cant even stop making herself sick. What a joke I am!
It had been weeks since Ruka had been making herself sick. She had only done it on purpose once, the first time, tricking her mind into replaying the most horrific things she had ever seen. But then after that, hell was unleashed. Every day since that day, when she sat down and thought, or when she felt shitty enough about what Kaname had said to her, her powers would turn on her.
The first week she didn't even realize. It was summer, she excused, it was hot, that's why she was burning up and soaking her bed in sweat, and eventually blood from burnt skin. The second week she realized something was wrong when she threw up incessantly when she thought of Kaname. Sadly enough, her illusions could not be broken by her, and her powers seemed intelligent with their timing. Always when she was alone. She could never cry for help as she was sure she would have this under control, and there would have been no reason for he embarrassment.
Still, painful day after painful day she wished she had a dumber power, like her cousin. How badly could ice hurt her. It would have to stop at some point. But her illusions were always creative and flexible. Changing just as soon as she knew she was under control of her sadistic mind.
Ruka finished wiping away the blood that had spilled onto her, of course illusions could be physical. for all she knew she could have crushed her own throat. She hurried to the main hall and into Kaname's study. She froze before stepping in, not even knowing why.
" You summoned me Kaname-sama." She said in her usual bored tone.
Kaname Kuran was appalled. He could smell the blood on Ruka. Her blood. His first thought was that she was trying to seduce him. Without thinking, he smacked her, right across the cheek. "Next time you feel the desire for me to sink my fangs in you, burn your hand. It will never happen again." Kaname said.
Ruka was beyond pissed, and even though she respected Kaname with everything she had, loved him like a lovesick puppy, no one had ever even thought of hitting her. Ever. She looked up at Kaname, with disgust in her eyes. He also stepped back and looked down at his hand with the same look.
" I-" He began, but then thought better of it. He would give her time to relax, and then apologize. He was a pureblood for goodness sake, this should be expected of him when he felt disrespected.
" I am sorry Kaname-Sama, I will dress my wounds more appropriately next time." she said, still disgusted. What Kaname didn't know was that the disgust she felt, was for herself, for never being able to do right by him. She was pathetic.
Kaname felt a pang of guilt. " Are you hurt?" he asked, not letting any of his worry seep into his question.
" Did you summon me Kaname-sama?" she asked again, ignoring the question. She was scared that he had smelled her fear, so she just wanted to do what was needed of her, then leave. " Yes, I need you to go to the nearest town and get some dresses. Yuki does not fit well in any of those that were left here. But I asked you a question."
" Of course, Kuran-sama, I will hurry now, sunrise is only two hours away." She quickly turned and left the room, ignoring his question. When Kaname realized, and stepped out into his hall, she was out of sight. He could even smell her blood, the source already almost a mile away. What the hell was happening with her?
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