"Oh, I have an inkling…"
Whiskey, glass. Clink.
Chair, hand - reach. Cold metal. Pull - scrape. Sit.
Whiskey, glass. Clink.
Whiskey, glass. Clink.
"Come back here! What are you leaving me here to die?" it yelled, shrill, hysterical. "You hate me. Want me to suffer. Well I'm suffering now are you happy? Happy. Happy, no-ones happy. All happy hehehe."
Laughter, pain wracked, bitter, sharp and cold.
He lifts the glass again, tosses his head back as it touches his lips but there's no rush of liquid into his mouth. He pulls it back and stares at the glass, only a small amber bead left circling the base.
"Carson, Carson!" the voice cries again
He sighs and rests his head against the glass. He wants more but the bottle seems so far away, no thoughts of whether he should or he shouldn't keeping his hands where they are, just the sense of pain and futility.
"Please, please, please." it wept "Just a little more."
More than a little desperation there as well.
"Just a little more," it sobs through the closed door.
Carson prays it cannot be heard by anyone in the infirmary. It's shut in the private room behind his office, still, he knows that with the amount of noise it's making they probably can. Part of him doesn't want to care, thinks that it deserves the humiliation and the pain for the things that he knows its going to say and do to get what it wants. It'll do everything it can think of, the enzyme is all it cares about.
There is another part of Carson's mind, the stronger part that knows his friend is in there somewhere. Knows that it isn't his fault, that Rodney was only trying to help. He knows how much courage it must have taken him to dope himself and attack the guards. He wants to treat it with the contempt it deserves but anything he does or says will hurt Rodney a dozen times more.
"Just a little more, just a little more. Carson I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please."
Shut up, just shut up.
"Carson!" his name isn't even a word now, it's a choked string of sobs and cries. A prayer, a plea.
"Help me."
The hand holding the glass shook.