I DO NOT OWN FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST
A/N: slight ooc Ed rated M for mentions of cutting and sevre post tramatic stress sydrome along with survivor's guilt. Inspired by Three Days Grace - never too late. But NOT a song fic.
The weight of what had transpired over the last few years was starting to haunt the blonde alchemist. He had gotten his arm back and Al's body too but it seemed that wasnt enough. Since so many people died to help them if only they hadnt started to kick up so much 'dirt' about the labratory than maybe Hughes would still be alive. Ed missed him and he started to convince himself that Roy blamed him for Hughes' death.
-Ed's pov-
"I didnt want other people to die just so I could get my arm and Al his body. Roy blames me I just know it." I dont know when I had started to talk to myself but it was happening alot lately. Everytime I close my eyes i see that goofy smile and glasses, that little girl with braids and the dog, that old man from Xing and countless other faces. All asking me why couldnt I just leave it be than maybe just maybe they would still be here. Before I knew it I was on the wooden floor surrounded by broken glass of the mirror.
-Roy's pov-
"Sir im worried, Fullmetal's been like this for weeks now. From what Alphonse has relayed Ed hasnt been eating much, sleeping and he would come to there apartment and see another thing broken." Roy had to admit he had started to worry too and at that his concern only strengthened. But what could he honestly do? Fullmetal doesnt exactly let people help him, thats how he's always been. And besides the raven haired General could tell that Ed is avoiding him. The other day he couldve sworn the blonde flinched when Roy raised his arm to grab a book. "That is concerning, however I dont know what I would be able to do, he doesnt exactly listen to me." Riza just sighed from a couch in Roy's office.
Anyone who cared to look could see that Edward Elric was slipping. Roy had already been visited by Havok, Breda, Fury and even Armstrong who voiced there concerns over Ed's disturbing behavior. Roy knew however that this cant be handled in the rough shot manner that Armstrong usually employs. And told him so though the blonde haired muscle man didnt look convinced he agreed which should have shown Roy sooner that the situation is more grave than he thinks. He was going on logical thinking though and logic dictated that Ed could handle this on his own. If only he knew that he couldnt be more wrong.