-1AN: This is my first attempt at Fan Fic. I thought of the idea and asked my friend to write at as she's fab at it, she said if you think of the idea you have to write it so here it is. I've checked over it a few times but I will more than likely have missed something. Anyway here goes.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters they aren't mine. I'm not that lucky.

Title : Don't look back in anger

Rating: K+

Pairing: Cath/Sara

Summary: Lindsey's first day at College brings a blast from the past. As she meets the head of the physics department………

Chapter 1 - Blast from the past

She couldn't believe how quickly this day had come Lindsey was about to embark on her first day of College. Her baby was a women. The child she raised the baby she loved, her baby girl was all grown up and starting college. She knew this day would come someday, well she hoped it would when Lindsey was around 13 she was scared as to what her daughters life would turn out to be, she was so proud of her only child, she was going to do her mother proud. Knowing Lindsey would be in another state so far away from her made her heart ache, how would she cope without her baby girl. However she knew as much as it hurt to let go Lindsey needed this break, she needed to shine to her full potential needed to become someone her mother dreamed of her becoming.

Catherine looked at the room where her baby would be staying, all Lindsey's things where in place and unpacked she knew she needed to get going and give Lindsey time to settle in and explore the college.

"You know Linds I'm so proud of you, Your gonna have a bright future ahead of you , your gonna do amazing"

"Thanks Mom" Lindsey smiled "And you'll still see me Mom I promise you'll see me at the holidays"

"Lindsey I'm gonna miss you baby" Catherine said taking her daughter into her arms " I want you to know you can ring me at anytime day or night I'm always here for you Linds" She placed a kiss on her daughters forehead and looked into her eyes

"I know Mom and I promise I will, we'll speak lots I'll keep you up to date" Lindsey kissed her Mom on the lips and released herself from her mothers grip

Cath and Lindsey said their goodbyes for a further 15 minutes tears leaving both their eyes.

Cath waited until she got into her taxi before she let the sob escape her throat as the tears flooded from her eyes, she smiled and took several deep breaths 'come on don't do this, your happy, your baby's making something of her life' She looked in the mirror and wiped the mascara that had run down her face from her face 'come on Cath pull yourself together'

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Lindsey woke up with a splitting headache "Oh my god I've never felt this hung over in my life" she mumbled as she got out of bed "great way to start your first day Linds" she whispered to herself.

Half an hour later Lindsey was up dressed and showered ready for her 'Intro to Physics"

She hear a knock at the door, she casually made her way over opening the door

"Hey Linds you ready for our physics intro" the overly exited brunette women said

"Hey Torri sure lets get moving"

Torri was the first person Lindsey had talked to when she arrives at Harvard from the minute they spoke to each other Lindsey knew that she had made a true friend and she was happy to have someone to go out at night with and have fun. Although with her hangover from hell she was beginning to wish she hadn't had so much fun the night before.

The 2 girls walked happily down the corridor and into the lecture room 103 for there introduction to physics.

Lindsey's eyes focused as she saw a women approach the centre of the stage.

"Hello Ladies and Gentlemen welcome to Harvard Physics I'm Doctor Sara Sidle, I'm the head of the physics department here at Harvard, I would like to take this opportunity to welcome you into the department, Your all about to embark on a new chapter of your life's. I myself studied here and found the course to be enthralling and extremely beneficial. I hope that you will all experience as much enjoyment as I did in my years studying here. Right before I bore you all the death I shall pass you on to my colleague Doctor Dana Fielding "

Lindsey looked at Torri in disbelief

"Oh my god no way, wait till I tell my mom" Lindsey whispered

"What?"

"that's Sara she's a friend of my Mom"

"You never said your Moms friend worked here?"

"That's because I didn't know, I don't think my Mom knows either, I can't wait to tell her, she'll be a bit happier now she knows she's got Sara here to spy on me" Lindsey Laughed

The 2 girls where interrupted by their chatter by the sound of someone clearing their throat, Lindsey look to see Sara looking over at the pair. Sara's face looked angry

"can you 2 stay behind after the lecture and we can go over the things you've missed while you've been gossiping away all way through Doctor Fielding introduction"

Lindsey could feel her cheeks burn and couldn't bring herself to answer luckily Torri picked up on this and replied for the duo

"Yes…….. Erm I'm sorry Doctor Sidle"

"that's ok, do you think you can manage to stay quite for the rest of the introduction?"

Lindsey spoke up " Sorry Sa…. Erm Doctor Sidle we will"

"Good now, lets carry on with the introduction"

The girls listened carefully through the rest of the introduction, trying to stay completely focused on the Lecturers on stage.

"Well Ladies and Gentlemen you are all free to leave, I hope to speak to you all more over the coming weeks and I wish each and everyone of you the best of luck"

The audience clapped as Sara stepped off the stage.

Lindsey and Torri sat fidgeting waiting for the rest of the students to vacate the room, when there was only a few people remaining Lindsey and Torri made their way to the front to face Doctor Sidle.

Sara looked at the 2 girls before her, apparently pissed off at their discussion during the intro

"Right you two does anyone of you care to explain to me what was so important that you felt the need to interrupt Dr Fielding speech???"

"I think you can take this one" Torri said looking over at Lindsey

"I was just telling Torri that I never knew you worked here" Lindsey said avoiding eye contact with the brunette Doctor.

"Excuse me?"

"You don't remember me do you?"

Sara took in the girl before her pretty girl, blonde hair, blue eyes, and then there was the smile 'watch out ladies and gentlemen I see a women who'll capture your hearts, just like Catherine Willows …….. Cat oh my god. It can't be' Sara thought to herself

"Oh my God Lindsey is that you?"

"Yes Sara it is, I didn't know you where a teacher now? Mom never said anything"

"Errrm yes well I don't think she knows, I sorta lost contact with most of the people in Vegas"

"What even uncle Grissom? You 2 where dating right? I'm sure you where at some point, I remember Mom catching you 2 kissing in his office or something right?"

Sara blushed at Lindsey's comment, her colleague was listening in and smiling at Sara as she saw the brunettes face get redder and redder.

Just then the 2 where interrupted my a tug on Lindsey's arm

"Sorry to interrupt but Linds we have to be in room 306 5 minutes ago"

"Well Sara….. Doctor Sidle I gotta go but maybe we could chat sometime catch up on life? I'm sure my Mom would love to know how your getting on. And I'm sorry about before I was so shocked to see you here"

"it's ok Lindsey and yes we'll chat soon I'm sure………… And Linds it's Sara OK?"

"What ever you say Doc" Lindsey said with a smile.

"Bye Doctor Sidle" Torri said waving to Sara as she dragged Lindsey from the room.

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And with that Lindsay left a stunned Sara lost for words in the corridor. 'Oh my god did that really just happen, what am I going to say to Lindsey, how can I explain anything to her, I can't tell her the reason I'm here. Sara's thoughts drifted from thoughts of Lindsey to thoughts of Catherine, I wonder what she's doing now, I wonder if she's in a relationship, I wonder if she remarried…' Sara stopped her trail of thoughts "I can't do this" she whispered to herself as she walked down the corridor. Tears welling behind her eyes.

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Sara sat in her office her mind flooding with thoughts of her past……

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