Preface
I never thought I would be so confused. Edward or Jacob. Jacob inprinted on me, and Edward is my moon and stars. Jacob is my sun. Which do I choose? The hardest part is I'm pregnant. It was an accident. I think I truly know already. Without Edward I would hurt, but without Jacob I couldn't survive. Why is it that my stubborn mind wont listen to my heart. Edward wanted me to have human experiences that's why he allowed me to sleep with Jacob. Now I'm terrified of being around him because he will never accept my baby. I'm already half in love with my little nudger. I know I can't blow the both of them off for much longer.
It's already hurting Jacob to be away from me, but I know he will hear the babies heartbeat if he was near me.
My heart is true, but my brain is conflicted. I guess it's time for me to face the truth. I have to tell someone.
It's hard to believe that my thinking didn't conflict with the movement of my feet because here I am at Renee's front door. Maybe she will listen to me. It's still new to me that she moved here with Phil to be closer to me.
Finally she's being my parent. Raising my hand to knock as the door is opened.
"Bella. What's wrong? Your really pale. Renee isn't here right now." Phil said worriedly.
"I'm pregnant." I whispered.
"Your pregnant? You have to get rid of it! It will destroy your mother and your childhood! Get in my damn car NOW!" Phil growled.
I was so scared I just did as I was told. I didn't want an abortion. Since when is my mother's mood more important than my baby's life? I just don't understand that.
"If you don't get an abortion I will make certain that you never have the ability to become pregnant again, as well as destroy that creature MYSELF!" Phil yelled.
I was terrified now. My legs shook listening to him. My heart was refusing to accept what my brain was telling it.
We parked quietly infront of an abortion clinic. I quietly went in, and filled out there forms. Tears falling from my eyes all the while.
2 hours later
My belly hurt so bad I never imagined this much pain. The worst part of it is Phil parked at the park to 'Talk',
and raped me. Leaving me to lay on the ground alone. I just cried and cried as the blood poured down my legs.
I couldn't find it in myself to try to stand, or move for that matter.
"Oh my god Bella! Whats wrong with you? I have to get Jacob. Oh my god." Sam said worriedly.
The tears just continued on there path down my face. I whimpered as Sam picked me up.
"What happened to you?" Sam asked fearfully.
"Forced me to have an abortion. Rrraped me." Was all I could utter before I completely fell apart.
I started screaming and couldn't stop. I tried to run forgeting I was in Sams arms. It was then that I realized he was a male. I fought and fought trying to get free. My body couldn't stop itself. It was in terror. Tenderly Sam set me on the ground and phased howling. Minuets later Jacob was there holding me. My eyes slammed shut and my vision swam until nothingness filled it.