Title: How I Live Now
Anime: Hetalia- Axis Powers
Pairing: UKxHK
Rated T...just in case.
Some thoughts the pair held after the parting of 1997.
HK's POV.
There are some things with importance you never notice until you lose them.
Like the love I had for you.
That was something I've only realized once you were gone.
Which was also brought on the train headed to the ruins of affection, along with the dumbfounded feeling of delayed realization.
And pain.
Which ironically, was the only company through the long nights without you and your warm embrace. And your smile that shines more than the sun does.
But you're gone.
Honestly, I would rather shut myself away than to keep facing the cold, emotionless world without your presence.
But I wasn't allowed.
I had the world to deal with, lies to tell, masks to put on, and memories to review- or even to forget- before I had a scarce minute for myself, to think of you.
Sure, we might meet again elsewhere. It isn't like we're living in the Stone Age, after all.
But at that time, would you be able to decipher the feelings in my gaze through the mounting crowd? Or would it just seem like another blank stare of mine, making no difference whatsoever in a world with all which is stoic surrounding us?
In the end, I'm just making a fool of myself.
Foolish enough to fall in love with an expected departure, desperate enough to attempt escape from my feelings, pathetic enough to imagine you might have felt the same towards me.
And most of all, heart-broken enough to be writing this to remind myself of you.
This is how much of a fool I am.
No vigils, just flowing of thoughts on a cold, lonely night.
And unspeakable regrets.