UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
Summary: Since Elena's transformation into becoming a vampire, all of her emotions have been hightened. A new craving for blood and an unrequited love for Damon Salvatore. Not long after her transformation, Elena has gained new feelings for the eldest Salvatore. Will her former decision about choosing Stefan change? Will her feelings for Damon grow stronger? Who will Elena choose?
Chapter 1 - Unanswered Feelings
There are nights when I lie awake in bed because I always have a feeling someone is out there just waiting. Waiting to strike and I know I'm not safe. Then there are those restless nights when I toss and turn; and I wake up in a cold sweat. My heart is racing against my chest. Beating loud as it rings in my ears. Dreams turn into nightmares. I soon imagine myself in a cold, dark hallway. The silence of my own breathing fills the air, but I am not scared. I have this new hunger; a thirst for wanting something I never imagined wanting. Blood. The warm blood running through my vains, not mine, but of innocent people. Damon's words ran through my mind. His words about teaching me the proper way to be a vampire. What was the 'proper way' exactly? To hunt and kill innocent people? I never wanted that, but my vampire nature doesn't care. This new side of me longs for the kill. Just thinking about it tortures me. I am ready to prove that I am not weak, and that I am strong. Maybe I'm not strong enough to be out in the world on my own, but hopefully with Damon as my teacher, I'll learn to be strong.
"Where are we going Damon?" I asked him as we walked out of my house. I felt bad for hurting Matt, almost killing him actually. "I am going to show you what it's like to really have fun." Damon smirked. I was unfazed at that moment since I knew Damon's way of having fun was playing around with the sorority girls up at the college. I wondered if he was going to take me there. We got into his car and he drove off down the street. "I just think a Frat party would be fun." he said, parking in front of the boarding house. "Why are we here?" I asked. "Don't ask questions, just put these on and meet me here in fifteen minutes." I watched him as he got out of the car and I reluctantly followed after him. Looking down at the bag in my hands, I wondered what was in it. I hope it's not some slutty looking outfit. I thought to myself as I entered the bathroom in Stefan's room. I locked the door behind me and pulled out the contents from the bag. "Yep, just as I suspected." I mumbled to myself. I did as I was told and put on the outfit. I felt uncomfortable and just by looking at it, I didn't feel hot. I fixed my hair, put on some make up, and walked out of the bathroom.
I went downstairs as I readjusted the dress and saw Stefan at the bottom of the staircase. "Where are you going?" he asked me. "Why are you concerned?" I asked him. "I just want you to be safe because wherever Damon's taking you-" "He's not going to hurt me Stefan." I interrupted him. I walked past him and walked out of the house. I didn't want to deal with Stefan right now. I know he's looking out for me, but is it really necessary to be worried about me when I feel perfectly fine around Damon? "Well you look stunning." Damon flashed a smile my way as I rolled my eyes. "Let's just get out of here, ok?" I watched as he gave me a slow nod and we got in his car. Throughout the whole entire ride, we were both silent. There were so many questions running through my mind, but I figured that I'd ask him later. He parked in front of a Fraternity House where there was a huge party going on. "Welcome to college Elena." He opened the door for me after he got out. I stepped out of his car as he closed it behind me and held out his hand. I took his hand as he led me up the steps and entered the house.
The first thing that came into my mind was blood, but I held back from attempting to kill them. I looked at Damon for any signs on what I should do. He simply told me to: "Enjoy the buffet." Seconds later, I was alone. At first I couldn't comprehend the words he had spoken to me. There was a lot of people; I had no idea where to begin. I felt the veins under my eyes begin to form and my teeth aching with the need to bite. My mouth watered and all I could hear were the pounding hearts of the college students surrounding me. There were people drunk enough so that I would attack without being noticed. I had to pick my first victim and fast since my hunger was now taking over. A young college boy passed by me and I was glad it was dark. In just a few quick seconds, his blood ran down my throat. I drank enough, but not enough to kill him. I compelled him and moved onto another victim. As the night continued on, I lost track of how many people I have bitten but I was having a great time. Satisfied, I saw Damon dancing with a few college girls. Just the sight of him dancing with them made my heart break. I shook the thought out of my head and decided that it was best to get some fresh air.
As I waited for Damon by his car, I couldn't stop thinking about the way he looked at me when he smiled. Sure it was the same smirk he gave me when I was human, but it was different. Just a little bit different. I had no intention of being jealous, but now that I think about it, was I jealous? Jealous of the fact that he was dancing with those girls. What was wrong with me? Once more, I shook the thought out of my head. I couldn't think about that right now. "Did you have a great time?" Damon asked as I looked at him. "Yeah, I had a blast. Can we go now?" Damon nodded as I got in his car and waited for him to start the car. He got in and he looked at me. "Is everything ok?" I could see it in his eyes that he was searching for an answer, especially on my face. I swallowed and gave him a quick nod. The whole ride back was just as silent. I got out of the car as soon as he parked it in the driveway. I headed upstairs as I took off my coat and headed into the bathroom, closing the door behind me. What was happening to me? I splashed some cold water on my face, but that only helped with the surface. Not with what was happening inside. Downstairs I could hear Stefan and Damon talking. I just wanted to shut out the outside world. I took a quick shower and changed into some comfortable clothing, then went to bed. I figured sleep would help. It didn't.