I awoke to the pitter patter of the rain hitting my window sill. I instantly had a smile on my face. Today was the day. Today was the day I told him how I felt. I smiled and got out of the bed. I walked over to my closet and grabbed a pair of jeans. I was floating on air. I wondered how he would react. Would he pick me up and spin me around the room and tell me he loves me too or would he be so repulsed he never wanted to see me again. I sighed I hoped it was the first one. I walked into the bathroom and brushed through my long reddish brown hair. My eyes were practically glowing today. I still had on his shirt I stole from him yesterday. I actually looked pretty today in my opinion. I looked like my mom today rather than my dad. My lips looked poutier today too. I wanted to squeal. I can't believe I finally worked up the nerve to tell him.
He's been my best friend since I moved here when I was younger. My mom and dad were having problems and finally she grabbed my brother and me and left. I sighed. My brother Sean was quite a hot commodity around La Push. He had girls flocking over him left and right. I thought it was funny because he wanted a girlfriend yet he didn't have one. Sean is easily six foot and he's only sixteen. He has long dark ebony hair and a very tanned skin tone. He has a six pack I believe. I don't look at him half naked ew.
I walked downstairs and my mother was sitting at the table and reading the paper. She looked up and smiled at me when she heard me enter the room. Her eyes were worn with age and stress. Her once shiny ebony hair now had a dull tone to it. Her dark eyes were almost black. That's the one thing from my Indian heritage I owned was the eyes. My skin was pale due to my hair color which sucked. I walked over and hugged my mom and she smiled a bit.
"How was movie night with the boys?" I smiled. Every Saturday Jake, Embry, Quil and I have a movie night. It's been tradition since we were ten years old. It hasn't stopped even though some of us are close to turning sixteen. I unfortunately am not one of them. I just turned 15 a couple months ago. I went and popped some toast into the toaster. My mother laughed at me.
"Honey why are you eating toast its two in the afternoon?" I shrugged.
"It's technically breakfast for me."
The toast popped out and I buttered it up and ate it. I walked upstairs to see if my brother was home. He's been hanging out with some of the older boys lately. I missed chilling with my brother. I opened his door and of course his bed was empty. The jerk what if I needed him? I guess Sam Uley's needs were more important than mine. I sighed and shut my brother's door and went back down stairs to the kitchen.
"Mom I'm going to Jake's I'll be home later." She nodded in response. I was always at Jake's so it didn't matter to her anyway. Billy had become like my father in the sense since mine was absent. I jumped around in the rain for a little bit then walked into Jake's house. I sucked in my breath. Was I sure I had the nerve to deal with this? I wasn't ever going to be sure. I knew that my feelings for Jake were no longer those of just a friend. I wanted to be his girl. The girl he cuddled with, the one he called all the time and most importantly the one he loved. I knew I could do it if he gave me a chance. That was all I needed was one chance. I walked into the kitchen and Billy was sitting there smiling at me.
"Hello Lillie how are you this morning?" I smiled and sat down across from him at the table.
"I'm doing okay Billy. Has Jake woke up yet?" He smiled again.
"He's been up for awhile. He's in his room." I nodded and got up from the table. "Hey Lillie," I turned back to face him, "I'm going to start charging you for stealing my son's clothes," he said with a laugh. I rolled my eyes and laughed.
"Billy you know your son gives me his shirts when I sleep over all the time." I laughed and took off in the direction of Jake's room. I rarely ever knocked so I just opened the door. I wish I had knocked. Jake and some girl sat on his bed playing video games and his hand brushed hers. He got close to her face as if he was going to kiss her. It was like a train wreck; it was disaster yet I couldn't look away. I lost it. The tears ran down my face and I took off running out of Billy's house. I ran all the way to Sam's house in the pouring rain. Sam answered the door and gave me a questioning look. I was drenched.
"Hey Sam um is my brother here?" He smiled down at me.
"Who's your brother?" Of course he didn't recognize me like this. I tried to shake off much like a dog.
"Sean Jackman," he nodded and called for Sean. He came from the kitchen and his eyes widened when he seen me. He walked out onto the porch and shut the door.
"What happened to you Lillie?" I started crying again.
"I need to leave La Push for awhile. Will you take me?" He shook his head.
"What's so bad that you're running from little one?" I shook my head.
"I don't want to talk about it I just want to leave." He nodded.
"Mom doesn't know does she?" I shook my head.
"I kept her out of this." He nodded.
"Okay let me talk to Sam a minute." I heard him walk in and shut the door. A minute later a woman opened the door. She was breath takingly beautiful. When she moved her hair I saw the scars on the side of her face. She smiled at me.
"I am so sorry I didn't know Sean was like this to you. You are more than welcomed to come in." I shook my head and smiled through all my tears.
"That's okay miss I don't want to track water all over your carpet." She smiled again.
"Don't worry about that just come on in out of the rain baby." I nodded and followed her in. I stayed by the door. Despite what she said I didn't want to track water all over her carpet. Sean showed up a minute later.
"Sam has some friends in Virginia. That gets you away from La Push. Are you sure you still want to do this?" I nodded. My brother grabbed the keys to his truck and we walked outside. Getting inside of that truck I couldn't have been more than happy to get away from La Push.