Hello, all! It's been years since I've last posted, due to college and the like. But now I'm hoping to revive some of my writing skills at least and come closer to writing a novel. This was written fast and I thoroughly enjoyed it, so excuse any grammar errors. Thank you for reading this! (A.N - I do not own any of the characters involved in this)
Catharsis
They say this is supposed to make one feel better
Expose their dirty secrets to the sun
And let them release their own
Energy
Often by watching/feeling the pain
Or relief of others
Actions.
That's what Watari says.
As he holds me in those dark nights
The faces of the people
I've damned to a hell
That doesn't even come close to
Mine.
Sure I'm free and never committed a
Crime in my life
but the blood that I have spilled
in my dreams
is immense compared to the murderers
I catch.
Watari says that there is
Good and bad
Light and dark
I am light
I am good.
But why do I feel this darkness
Welling up inside me
Screaming for me run—
Escape this golden
Hell of justice
To sing and dance in the blood
Of others and to finally
Release the pain
That has been inside me?
Watari said that evil was
Bad that I was doing
Good by catching the criminals
But now I wonder
Is it reversed?
Or maybe not even that clear
Like it was just murkiness.
Grey.
Unknown factors that
Fall to either side
Depending on what facet you choose
To look through in each instance
Like a dirty diamond.
Half coal and worthless carbon,
Half diamond and priceless
There are days when
I am this diamond
Imperfect
Metamorphosing in the
Darkness and pressure
In the caves of my mind
I find it hard to know
How I will turn out those days
If I will be pressed
Hard and sharp into
An unbreakable tool
F justice and hope
Or if I will crumble
And soften into my
More human form
Of deceit and
Rage
My own catharsis
Is coming
I can feel it
I just don't know
If will be from stopping
Murders
Or from committing them