It was complicated and understandable, easy and hard, confusing and clear, amazing and horrible.
It was everything she loved, and everything she hated.
Suzumebachi knew full well what she was and what she was for. But that didn't mean she couldn't have feelings just like everybody else.
And for some stupid reason…she felt for her.
She felt for her own wielder.
It was not completely unheard of. But it was not completely common either.
She was complained about and her bankai was hardly ever used and that made her feel like she wasn't good enough.
But she knew Soi Fon cared. And that was why she listened and did all that she was asked of.
And when Soi needed someone to talk to and lean on…she was always there.
She was her companion till death did them part.
So she listened.
She did what she was told and put up no fight.
She also knew full well Soi Fon did not feel how she did. She could never love another besides that damn woman.
It made her want to scream sometimes.
It was complicated and understandable, easy and hard, confusing and clear, amazing and horrible.
It was everything.
…But still nothing.