I never think about Kristen. I never think about "Bella." I never think about the eternal love we would have for each other as our roles in the Twilight saga. I never think of the times we had laughing and being pervy. I never think of out inside jokes. Or the way we fix our hair. I never think of the way we mesh together like the lion and the lamb. She really is a lamb, and I, a sick masochistic lion. Thats just the way it is. I never think of the choice she will make between me and him. Some how my role in Twilight has be come reality. I never think of the fact that right now I feel as if I am Edward in New Moon. And Michael is Jacob. I never think of the times we had together and with friends. I never think of the fact that if feels like 14 year old girls want me more that her. I never think of it. Nope, Never. Oh, SHIT!