Castiel's Disappearance
Castiel sat in the field, his head in his hands. What was he going to do? He had spent years on Earth now and he was starting to develop human emotions. And it seemed he was only developing the confusing ones. And all of them for Dean. The angel was so conflicted about what to do. Every time he was around Dean, he felt a little bit nauseous, but in a good way. If they were ever alone in a room, there just seemed to be this electricity flowing between the pair.
Castiel let out a sigh. He was starting to come to terms that these little things were a sign that he was in love with Dean. He was conflicted. Dean only seemed interested in woman and Castiel was clearly in a male vessel and he had no thoughts about changing just to make Dean love him. Castiel needed someone to talk to, but the only person he would ever feel comfortable talking about something like this was Dean and he just couldn't bring himself to tell Dean he was in love with him.
Castiel hung his head, running his fingers through his hair. He heard what sounded like the flutter of wings. He didn't look up to see which one of his siblings had joined him. He didn't want to see any of them right now really, especially if they were just seeking orders.
"What's got you down, Cas?"
Castiel looked over to his brother Balthazar. The brother he was closest too and put the most trust in. Their relationship hadn't been the same since they were both brought back to life and Cas was to blame for that. He should have never killed Balthazar. Could he trust his brother with this?
"I am developing unpleasant human emotions," he said looking off in the distance not wanting to make eye contact.
"They are rather unpleasant aren't they? Which ones exactly are plaguing you?"
"Jealousy. Confusion. Love." He hesitated slightly before saying the last word.
Balthazar gave his little brother a knowing smile. He had guessed about the younger angel's feelings long before little Cas even understood what emotions and feelings were. Any idiot with eyes could see he was in love with Dean Winchester. Well, except for Dean Winchester.
"Let me guess, a certain bowlegged moron doesn't feel the same way?"
Castiel's gaze shot to Balthazar's. He stared at his brother in shock. Was it really that obvious?
"Yes. Dean Winchester does not appear to share these feelings." Castiel frowned.
"Well, you're wrong?" Castiel tilted his head out of confusion. "He obviously feels the same way too. He's just too dumb and proud to admit it."
"I don't think so. Dean is always going to bars seeking the company of women, even when I'm around."
"Like I said: dumb and proud."
Castiel looked away contemplating his brother's words. Could Dean really share the feelings that were slowly eating Castiel away inside? Castiel felt a hand on his shoulder and he turned to lock eyes with Balthazar.
"Just tell him. And if he acts like an ass about it Gabriel and I make sure he gets what's coming to him."
Castiel's mouth curved into a slight smile. "Thank you Balthazar." This talk with his brother had really helped. Now the only thing was how did he tell Dean…