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Summery-Takes place during New Moon basically Bella never ran after Edward after he leaves and Edward greatly overestimates Bella's ability to let him go this is my first twilight fanfiction published and the first time I actually was able to finish a story there will be two chapters and they are already completed. Warning This fic deals with suicide
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Bella's POV
"Take care of yourself" he said and when I looked up he was gone there was nothing I could do no way I could catch him. I don't know how long I stood there it
could have been hours though it was actually only minutes but time seemed to lose all meaning. Time, Life, Everything there was no point without Edward. Finally I
turned around and walked back toward the house as I walked around to the front door I barley took notice of the fact that his car was gone. I was thinking about
what he said was this all a terrible nightmare was I going to wake up any minute from now in my bed with him right beside me. I knew better no this was real this
was my life without Edward and I did not want to live this life.
I finally walked inside the house and then something stuck me all of his actions today insisting on mailing my letter to my mom grabbing my bag to put it back in the
truck I ran up to my room as fast as I could and threw open the door running to my CD player I quickly opened it ....it was empty I looked at the photo album on the
floor I already knew what I was going to find or not find but I still looked the first page the picture of Edward was missing. I was shaking my breath was caught in
my throat "It will be like we never existed" that's what he said but I knew they existed. They were real…are real…and they are gone they left me, HE left me he did
not love me. I knew it was too good to be true I was just too plain to averagenothing special that could possibly hold down someone so amazing so perfect as him.
Thinking about him made me hurt like I was being ripped to shreds from the inside out. If thinking about him made me feel like this I knew what I had to do I knew I
could not stop thinking about him ever he was my life my everything I had no reason to exist without him even if he never loved me I loved him. I didn't have
anything to live for anymore I knew that my life was at an end.
I walked back down stairs thinking of the best way to end all the pain and then I saw it Charlie's gun belt he left it home today he never actually needed it so he
left it hanging up a lot it was perfect quick no long term waiting no chance of me still being here by the time Charlie got home. Then I thought of Charlie and my
mother was I being to cruel to them I thought of Edwards last words to me about staying safe for Charlie. But then I resolved myself no this was for the best.
Renee had Phil and Charlie was used to being alone and it would be best for me to end it now then to have them watch me suffer slowly that would be cruel to
make him watch and not be able to do nothing. But still I could not leave him unless he knew
why so I grabbed a piece a paper and a pen and wrote a goodbye letter to him
"Dear dad
I have to do this My life has no meaning without Edward I would not be able to live without him and I want to make things right instead of making you suffer by watching me wither away slowly I am ending my life to save you from the months and maybe years of watching me unable to function this is for the best I know it is
I love you dad and please tell mom I love her too
Your Daughter
Bella
Short and simple I thought as I put it down on the table where I knew he would find it.
I pulled the gun out of the holster it was heavier then I thought it would be I had seen enough movies to know how to work it "safety off point and shoot" I
thought simple enough I looked at the side with the safety and clicked it to "off" I put it to my temple closed my eyes and pulled the trigger I heard a bang and felt
a coldness completely envelope me it was nice the coldness it was familiar like Edward all those nights that seemed so long ago.
Edwards POV
"It was for the best" I kept telling myself this I knew this was the only way I left her standing there she seemed frozen to the ground this was hard all I wanted to
do was turn around and hold to tell her it was not true but I knew I could not I had to leave so that she could live a normal life. A normal safe life she would be safe
no more vampires trying to kill her ever since I walked into her life all I did was cause her to almost die time and time again but no more. Now she could be safe and
happy and I could find some comfort in that fact. The others all ready moved away Carlisle had resigned all I had to do was get back in the house get my car and
drive off. I ran for about five minutes then circled around and up to the front door Bella was still standing there in the same spot I left her in I turned away I could
not look at her it was too painful to watch I ran up to her room and grabbed the CD I gave her as well as any photo's and anything else in her room that would
remind her of me we never existed I was done in under a minute but I hesitated at the door I turned around setting all the items I took from her on the floor I then
ripped the floor board out of place and hid them all under it I couldn't take them from her so I hid them instead.
I covered them up with the floor board and ran out the door I stole one morelook at Bella still frozen she hadn't moved a inch I was worried but I could not return
to her I had to leave so I turned by back and jumped into my car I started the engine and drove off as fast as I could to meet up with the others It would take me a
couple days we were going to Ithaca Esme and Carlisle had flown ahead to set things up while the others all took there own cars Alice took Carlisle's and Jasper
drove the vanquish it was done we were all gone and Bella could move onwith her life it may take a couple of weeks or a month but I was sure she would be able
to get over me soon enough "It was for the best" I repeated again I was barely past the town limits when my phone rang I looked to see the number if it was Bella
I would ignore it until I got my number changed but I saw it was Alice if she was going to try to convince me to stay she was wasting her time it was done I flipped
it open "What do you want Alice?" "TURN AROUND you need to get to Bella's RIGHT NOW" I growled over the phone we were not having this conversation again but
something was not right her voice was different angry but also …scared? maybe "Alice I told you this is for the best I am not going to argue with you" I was about
to hang up when she started screaming more panicked then before "EDWARD YOU IDIOT listen to me I saw Bella just now she is about to KILL HERSELF do you
understand me you need to stop her NOW!!!!" I was frozen barely paying attention to the road "She promised me she would not do anything like that Alice She
PROMISED!" "Edward get back there now or Bella is DEAD!!!" I thought about it for half a second before I hung up the phone, slammed on the breaks and made a
U-turn my tires screeching and smoke coming up I smelt burning rubber but did not care I pushed my car as fast as I could make it go "she promised" I whispered
to myself I pushed the gas pedal as far down as it would go I just kept thinking two things one was that she promised she would not hurt herself I was sure of it
but the other was that this was again my fault and Bella was in danger because of me. I had made it back to Bella's in record time I skidded to a halt outside of her
house threw the car into park and jumped out leaving the engine on. I ran to the back Bella was gone she had moved from her spot I listened for her heart beat.
She was inside I ran to the door it was wide open I saw Bella her back was too me she had Charlie's gun in her hand I stood frozen I could not believe what I was
seeing. She put the gun to her head I lunged and got my hand over hers just as I heard a bang
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