This is my first story, I'm just looking for input on if I should continue writing this story or if i should go back to just reading. Thanks guys!
Prologue
Sometimes when I'm alone or lying in bed like now I wonder if I still would have chosen this path. He's everything to me and I to him. But I would do it without this entire backlash. Would we even be together if not for that death, the tragedy that had plagued my family? I lay here thinking about how we came to be and what would happen if my baby sister hadn't died. Thinking about her sends pain right through my heart, I can't bear to think about her big blue eyes or the way her laugh made me smile even in the darkest of times. I'm so involved in my memories that I don't even realize the sudden movement of the man I love behind me. He reaches around me and pulls me into his chest.
"What's going on in the beautiful brain of yours?"
"I'm thinking about Alice…again." Picking at the edges of our blanket. "When's the last time you thought about her?"
He sighs and sits up, "I think about her everyday babe, I cherish the times we had but I also thank her for bringing us together because you're honestly the best thing I've ever had in this fucked up life."
"But, she's gone and I'll honestly regret everything that led to that one moment for the rest of my life."
He stops responding for the moment and pulls me into his chest, which is desperately needed right now. I turn over to look at him and can't resist the love I feel as soon as I look into his eyes. I study every inch of his face and continue, down to his strong chest with a littering of blonde hair and can't help the shred of desire that runs through my body. Knowing where my thought process is going, he gives me that sexy smirk with those smoldering eyes that I just can't resist.
He leaned down to kiss me and I was surprised, even after all this time he woke up tasting, like him. He reached down and took me into his hand and I knew that I was going to see stars in minutes. He knew my body by now, knew what made me tick. The expert way his fingers ran over the head, while simultaneously cupping my balls in his hand. Just before I came, he took me into his mouth, while looking into my eyes and that was what made me fall over the edge.
Trying to catch my breath I brought him up to my face and kissed him. "I love you so much Jasper."
Smiling cheekily at him going to return the favor, he says "I love you too Edward."