disclaimer/ I do not own these characters Stephanie Meyer dose but this is the way I think the story should have been. The events of my story take place after Eclipse.

Chapter One:

I don't know who I am, or even who I'm supposed to be. Without her, my life has little to no meaning anymore. Bella Swan was my life, but now she seeks a fate worse than death. She chose Edward. Even after everything he put her through, I couldn't see how. I couldn't even imagine how she could still love him.

She will marry my enemy, and become a bloodsucker just like him. I don't want to be human any more than I want to be a wolf right now. I don't even want to exist without Bella. I had no idea where I was, just that it wasn't far enough. I could still feel the sting of her words.

I just wanted her to realize I would rather die than watch her marry Cullen. For the past couple years he has done nothing but put her in danger. His own damn brother tried to kill her at her eighteenth birthday party. After that he left her. That alone nearly killed her.

Then she started spending her days with me. I know now that she was only using me, and our friendship in the beginning, to be able to hear his voice in her head. I would do it all over, just to be that close to her again.

The only thing Edward and I had in common were that we both loved Bella, and neither of us wanted to see her become a bloodsucker. The only problem with that was, he gave in as soon as she agreed to marry him. I could give her so much more in life than he could ever dream of. He couldn't even keep her warm like I could. It's like Hell has frozen over, and the sun in my world has become black like my heart. I wish it would just stop beating.

I once ran to protect her, now I just ran to get away from what I would have to do to her. I would have no problem killing Edward, which would make Bella hate me. All I knew was I wasn't going to be a part of it anymore, so it was best for both of us that I had ran away.

I thought about hunting, but the thought of food made me sick to my stomach. I walked around and found a small rabbit, and regrettably ate it. Hunting had lost its spark. Was there nothing that didn't, in some way remind me of her?

Bella and I were like oil and water. They never mix well. She was like oil, soft and smooth to the touch. I was like ocean water, rough around the edges, never settled and violent when angry. I knew I loved her from the moment I first saw her, in La Push. When he left her, I thought I had chance to be the one she would love, so much for wishful thinking. I closed my eyes, and let my mind wander. Thinking of her, as I lay there trying to sleep.

I started running again. As I ran, I tried not to think of her, the way my skin would tingle from the slightest touch of her fingers. The way our hands, fit together perfectly. My heart ached for her, the way she smiled when I said something funny. The way her eyes danced, the first time she told me she loved me. I wanted nothing more than I wanted her to love me, the way I loved her.

I came to a stop, my muscles ached from running, I didn't want to hear anything from the pack, so I phased into the man I had grown to hate. I opened my eyes to see where I stopped, that's when I realized where I was, this was the place we shared our first real kiss. Where she told me she loved me too, even though I knew it wouldn't be enough for her to leave him. As I sat there in the darkness of the early morning, I replayed the memory of that kiss in my mind, tears started blinding me. I hated this place. My mind was in a frenzy. I had to get out of here.

I'd had enough, I needed to go back, so I started to run. It was like the memory of her was pulling me to run faster. I pushed my muscles to their limit. I made Forks in under an hour. I didn't know where she'd be, but I had a really good idea where to start looking.

I really didn't want to be here alone, but it was my best plan to find her. I walked up the steps of the Cullen house and knocked on the door. Thank God Edward answered.

"I know why you are here Jacob, and all I can tell you is that you won't find Bella here, you should try La Push."

"What?"

"Jacob, trust me. Just try the beach, if she's not there, try Sam and Emily's place." He said, and shut the door in my face.

I ran all the way to the beach without stopping. I drove myself harder than ever, I felt like I was flying. I phased, just before the trees opened to the sand. Then I saw her. My blood ran even hotter, almost at a boil. She was there, sitting on our tree, staring out at the open ocean.

"Bella?" I said, questioning my own sanity.

"Jake is that you?" I heard her say.

"Yeah Bella, it's me."

"Jake, are you okay, you look like you've seen a ghost or something. I thought you were going wolf and never coming back?"

"I think I have Bella, what are you doing here?"

"Well to be honest it's a corny reason, but I was on my way back home from Sam's and my truck died. So I had to call Charlie to help me get it back to Sam's. Charlie asked me if I wanted him to get it fixed. I actually yelled at him, that the only person aloud to work on that truck was gone. Then I broke down in his arms." She said starting to tear up all over again.

"Oh, I get it, you want me to fix your truck."

"No Jake, I want you to fix us. I'm broken without you."

"What exactly do you mean, fix us Bella. You are going to marry Edward. There is nothing to fix. I can't be your friend and just watch you do that to yourself." I told her.

"Jake, I left Edward about a month ago."

"Wait, did you just say you left Edward, what about the Volturi?"

"Carlisle is working on it."

"So, you never told me why you are out here staring at the water." I said.

"I started to come out here when I wanted to be closer to you. That turned into me missing you so much that I realized that I could not live without you in my life, and admitting that you are the one I really love. That turned into me coming here every day just hoping you would show up, and now you are here." She said, looking down at her feet.

I shook my head. It made no sense to me.

"You said you come here every day, and wait for me, how does Charlie feel about that?"

"He doesn't really approve but he knows he can't stop me." She said, and kissed me.

I grabbed her and kissed her with everything I had, for a minute she was stunned then she twined her arms around my neck and kissed me back. When our lips parted, she looked dazed.