My heart pounds at my throat.

I feel like my brains passing too much blood at once.

I feel my whole body shaking.

Words don't come out right.

I freeze up.

I stumble.

I act like a total clutz.

My heart races.

My vision blurs.

I cant look him in the eyes.

Why does this happen every time I'm around him?

He drops clues on me that he likes me.

But then totally act the opposite.

Why?

Maybe I'm confused…..maybe he is.

I don't know how much longer I can stay like this.

I would give it all up…..just to hear him say he loves me.

I know this isn't a fairytale.

that's why im scared.

Im afraid if I tell him I like him…..he might freak and might never talk to me the same way again.

Hes a total flirt.

But that's not why I like him.

I really don't care if He flirts with everything that walks.

I really don't.

I don't care that every one hates him.

Or that every one will put him down.

I know how he feels too.

I saw him almost cry once….in class…….

I felt horrible…….

They were laughing at a question or answer he said…….does it matter?……..

I didn't laugh.

The professor scolded the class.

I felt bad……should I have?

I don't know.

He's the athletic type.

Almost no one liked him back then.

Last year.

But this year….I don't know….people like him better I guess.

He flirts with every one.

Every one.

Even me.

Even in front of me.

But….

It…..really doesn't bother me…..

….your probably thinking, oh you just like him cause he flirts with you…..

that's not true.

I……I…..I just know deep down…he really cares…..and he's really affected by what every one around him says and thinks of him……I might be dreaming…….but I don't ever wanna wake up….it might sound cheesy….but I really don't care……..maybe that's what make us different…..him and me…..I could care less of what people think of me…..screw them………

I haven't known him that long.

I met him this year……

I like him a lot……

The problem is… he already has a girlfriend.

And I'm a boy.

How am I supposed to deal with that?

….but……call me crazy………I really don't care that he has a girlfriend…..im not jealous…..well…..pissed off……..but……not really jelous of her………I might be…of what she has……but not her………

What am I supposed to do?

Am I even supposed to do anything?

Riku……..I even wonder if he really is…into me……or if its just flirt practice……

Am….should I?

Do anything?

Shes new to the school……so she probably didn't know of his bad rep…….

What really bites me in the ass……..is that……. She's a grade lower than him…….and….I'm in the same grade as him……..

I'm going crazy……. What should I do?

Anyone?

Its just…….I would tell him…..I mean we do only have one life……but……I don't know…..

Please….what should I do?

Authors note-

What should little ...well...what should our little boy do?

any ideas?

Review please!...i might not continue this particular story if no one likes it. and depending on whatideas come to me...i'll put it at teen or every one...but for now...e for everyone.