Unchanging love

A/N: This story is based on what I think after I watched the final act. I don't really like Kikyou-bashers and I'm trying to use this fic to change some Kikyou-hater's minds. If some people don't agree with me, then that's too bad.

Disclaimer: I don't own anyone except my cat.

Chapter one: Tsubaki's curse

Some people dislike me for trying to take Inuyasha to hell with me, now, I want you all you know the reasons behind my actions. Imagine being betrayed by the one that you love more than anyone else. You die after sealing him to a tree, unable to kill him even then; you put him under a spell of eternal sleep. You want to stop all the misery caused by the shikon no tama, so you take it with you to the world beyond.

Then, after fifty years, you find yourself in an imitation of your body. You learn that the shikon no tama is back in this world once again and your love has somehow freed himself from your spell. If all that happened to you, wouldn't you question the fairness of your death? Wouldn't you try to make something out of it so you didn't die in vain?

I want you all to see my life from my point of view, see if your hatred towards me is justified.

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Ever since the day I was apprenticed, people have called me a heartless monster, an emotionless miko. Girls my age, jealous and resentful of my powers, made me an out-cast in my own village. Only my little imoto (Trans: younger sister), Kaede, ever truly cared for me, but even she can't understand my true feelings.

My parents had died long ago in a youkai attack, that's the reason I chose to become a miko. Oh, I'm not out for revenge, no, I don't even resent them for it, after all, they're only doing what they all do, they don't know any better. I just don't want anyone else to lose their family.

So, I poured my heart into study and strived to become the best that I can be. I was often called to help other villages, for that, I began to gain a place in the world.

One day, as I was traveling home from an exorcism job, a fellow miko, Tsubaki, warned me of something.

"A miko must abandon her human heart to remain pure. Love is a tainted emotion, if you want to keep your holy powers, you must remain virgin in body, mind and soul," the young miko said, obviously enjoying the fact that she knows something that I didn't.

At that time, the thought of me in love was indeed laughable. Cool and level-headed Kikyou, head over heels in love? Bah!

"This 'love', do I seem like that type of person to you?" I asked Tsubaki, questioning her sanity.

"Either way, take my heed and be careful. You must never let a man enter your heart, should that day ever come, you shall suffer an early death," Tsubaki cautioned.

"Hmph, I'll remember that," I replied coolly, slightly amused that she would warn me of the impossible. Hah! Who knew how wrong I was?

Just as I turned to leave, I saw Tsubaki's eyes flash crimson. So her parting words were actually a curse, I knew the proud young miko would fall into the ways of the dark one day. So much for warning me to stay pure, she has sold her soul to the devil.

Looking back, I truly was foolish to so carelessly brush of the curse that would someday end my life…

That day was also the day I committed myself to a cycle of death, the day that I first came to the possession of the shikon no tama, the day that started it all…

A/N: Do ya like it? Well some of you might not; I'll have to admit it is a bit boring, but don't worry! It will get better.

I'm trying to make it seem as if Kikyou's remembering what happened before she died and where she went wrong. I hope I'll start attracting more reader's soon…

Anyways, please review! Corrections and criticisms are welcome (so is encouragement).

SuskiIF