Chapter 1

"It will be as if I never existed." Those words kept going through my mind and I couldn't get rid of them. Three days had passed since I saw him, since I haven't left the house. It felt like a lifetime.

I made my way to the bathroom and started the water. A long hot bath should get my mind off of it. No one understood it. I truly loved Edward and with the rumors going around town I want to kill him. Rumor is that after he left Forks he got engaged to a girl named Lavender Brown. He talked about her and said he wasn't interested. "As if I never existed…" My world became a disaster after that. I closed my eyes and went under the water to think. What would I do without him?

"Bella!" Shit!

"Jake! Knock much!" I quickly grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me.

"I have great news! I'm sorry about Cullen." He grasped me in a long hug. He was so warm. Jacob the teddy bear! I giggled.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing. OUT! Talk to me through the door so I can get dressed."

He left like a gentlemen. "So what were we talking about?" I asked.

"I'm sorry about Cullen." He said.

"What?" I said.

"Charlie told me." he said. Duh! Charlie and Billy are like old women with their gossip.

"No Einstein, I know that, I meant what's the great news."

"Hermione's coming back to introduce us to her new boyfriend." He said with a huge smile on his face. Boyfriend? Great another reminder.

Hermione was Jacob's adopted sister. The Black's adopted her when she was three, but she kept her last name. She wasn't around much because she was going to some rich, fancy boarding school in England. Nothing or no one was good enough for Jacob's little sister or Billy's little girl. At fifteen she was very intelligent and sophisticated that I forgot her age and thought she was twenty.

"That's great!" I tried to act happy.

I was glad I had Jacob and Edward. They stuck by me when a lot of people didn't. They knew why I moved here and what I went through.

*Flashback*

"If you don't like the rain, why did you move to Forks?" he asked.

"It's complicated."

"I can keep up."

"Well everyone thinks it is because my mom got remarried." The real story would be too painful.

"Then what's the real story, if you don't mind me asking."

"Well it has to do with everyone calling me a slut. I moved here to get away from my ex-boyfriend, Todd and my uncle." Why did I feel like I could trust him?

"Bad break-up?"

"Kind of, it was the same thing my uncle did to me."

"Explain please."

"I had a funny Uncle Bob. He started doing things to me when I was two. My parents didn't believe me, until my mom caught him in the act. He r-r-r-r-." I couldn't speak but he caught on. "He raped me. Then last year my ex- boyfriend, Todd raped me too. And I guess I am the school slut." I said almost crying.

"Don't think like that. It's not your fault." *End of flashback*

Edward and Jacob knew the secrets that I couldn't tell Charlie. I wondered if my secrets would get out.

"Who's coming?" I asked.

"Hermione, the boyfriend, her friends Harry and Ron."

"Great." I said.

"Bella, it's gonna be okay." He held me in a hug for ten minutes. "I never understood why you and Cullen were so close."

"Ummm….." I couldn't tell him the secrets we shared. Wait I remember something I discovered.

"When my mom was in labor with me, Charlie wasn't home so she took matters into her own hands. She hitch hiked to the hospital but Carlisle stopped her and delivered me in the back of his car. It seemed like fate."

"I see. Come over though, Billy wants to see you." He said.

"I'll think about it. I have to make dinner for Charlie."

"He can come over too. Hermione needs a girl like you since Rachel and Rebecca are gone."

"Fine I'll go, but for her sake."

"You've been through this so you can help her." I turned away. "Just come."

"Okay."

"Bye!" Man I forgot how annoying he was.