"So, everything that makes me whole, I will dedicate them all to you now. I'm yours." - supercell, My Dearest

Disclaimer: I do not own Big Hero 6 or anything Disney or Marvel related. I do not own the lyrics to the song.

The afternoon sun shone brightly and people were bustling about since the weather was extremely nice. Unfortunately, the weather did nothing to lighten up the heavy, dark clouds in her heart. Despite how she felt on the inside, she still worked efficiently, making all sorts of coffee drinks and cleaning the tables when the crowds died down in Lucky Cat Café. Somehow, she had managed to smile at all the customers even though that wasn't how she really felt inside.

"Your shift was over fifteen minutes ago, sweetie." Her boss, Cass, said softly and gently took the table cleaning cloth from her.

Eyes shifted from the table to the cat clock hanging on the wall. It was just as her boss said, her shift had already ended and yet, she was still here working. Honestly, she didn't mind one bit.

"Sorry, boss. I just got…distracted."

Cass' eyes softened even more because she knew what the girl had meant by being distracted. Reaching out, Cass took the younger girl's hand and gave it a squeeze. "I know, Hana. I'll take it from here so you go on ahead."

Hana was grateful to work for such a wonderful and kind boss. Cass was more than just a boss to her though, she was someone Hana could look up to and talk to, almost like that cool aunt in the family.

"Thank you." It took no more than a minute before Hana was ready to leave. She hefted her tote bag onto one shoulder and offered Cass a smile that did reach her eyes. "I'll see you later?"

"Of course, honey. I'll swing by later. Be safe."

Be safe.

Ever since Tadashi and the fire, Cass had said those words more often to her and Hiro. There was something about it that wrenched Hana's heart at the underlying message of those two words, and it always made her want to give Cass a hug.

Hana smiled at Cass and gave Mochi a gentle scratch behind the ear before waving goodbye.

Now that she was outside, she felt the full force of the afternoon sun and people walking down the sidewalk. Nice days like this used to make her happy, but now there was a sad lump lodged into her heart. There wasn't much a skip in her steps these days, not since the fire.

With a sigh, she shouldered her tote bag again so it wouldn't slip down further before walking towards the bus stop. And while she stood waiting at the bus stop, a couple, hand in hand, stood there too. Hana's stomach churned uncomfortably and her chest clenched with longing.

There had been a time when that had been her and Tadashi. Smiling, laughing, joking around, holding hands, and doing other couple things.

But now? They couldn't do any of that and it hurt her.

She missed him more than anything in the world. Who was going to taste test the drinks she created? Who was going to come to all of her piano concerts? Who was going to give her warm hugs? Who was going to wipe away the tears after an emotional movie?

Not Tadashi. Not anymore.

Why did it have to be this way, Tadashi?

The back of her eyes stung, a warning that the tears would be coming soon. She closed her eyes and willed the tears to stop before they came. She wouldn't cry. She wasn't going to crying anymore. Tadashi wouldn't have wanted her to cry.

"Oh, Miss Hana! You're here already." One of the on-duty nurses she had become well acquainted with greeted her with a smile when Hana stepped into the spacious room.

"Hi Karen. How are you?"

"I'm doing well, thank you. I just finished with the check up."

Hana slipped her bag off her shoulder and rested it by the nightstand that had a vase with a new arrangement of fresh flowers. Beside the vase, there was a small red lollipop. A soft smile touched her lips, already knowing who had come to visit before her.

"The young brother left ten minutes ago. He seems much happier these days."

Hana smiled and picked the lollipop up, tucking it into her cardigan pocket. "Yeah, Hiro's doing really well these days. He's acing all his classes at school." And, he and his friends saved San Fransokyo from destruction, successfully putting Callaghan in jail.

Thankfully, the nurse left after that, leaving her alone with the person she had wanted to see the most.

"Hey, Tadashi." Hana whispered softly, sitting on the chair by his hospital bed. The steady sounds from the heart monitor was the only reply she received, which was better than nothing because it meant he was alive. In a coma, but still alive.

Gently, she took his hand in hers and smoothed the back of it with her thumb. So warm … Smiling softly, she lifted his hand up to her lips and kissed his knuckles.

The young man before her lay still, not reacting to her affectionate gestures. Everything stayed the same as she continuously stroked the back of his hand with her thumb. With her other hand, she reached over and smoothed his soft black hair, glad that it was growing back after they cut it short to get rid of the burnt ends.

Ever since the fire, Tadashi had been in the hospital under a coma. He had gone into save Callaghan, but had been caught in an explosion instead. Luckily, he had only entered the building when the explosion happened and the firefighters had managed to find his body before something even more terrible happened. It had been rough, the doctors had lost him a few times during the surgery, but Tadashi had fought hard. In the end, he had fallen into a coma and at first, the doctors hadn't been sure if he would make it. But he did. Two months later and still going strong.

It was better than him being gone, Hana always told herself. Hearing his heart beat normally and seeing his steady breaths always relieved her. It gave her hope that he would open those beautiful eyes of his again and smile that sweet smile that always had her melting.

"I got a nice tip today. I was helping out this old couple with picking their coffee and baked goods. They left a twenty in the jar after." She always told him about her day and just anything that came to her mind. It helped her cope and a silly part of her hoped that he was somehow listening to every word, every story.

"Oh! I tried making this drink I saw on the internet. It's a blueberry chai latte. I had Hiro try it out and he didn't make any grossed out faces so that's a plus, right?"

Oh what she wouldn't give to see his smile again, to hear that laugh that made her tingle all over, to relish in those warm hugs that soothed her, to melt against him when he kissed her.

The lump in her heart grew and her eyes started welling up with tears.

Tadashi…

"I miss you." She whispered, holding back a sob as she brought his hand to her cheek.

Please come back …

Hello and welcome!

The summary sort of sucks because I suck at writing them. I've had this idea playing in my mind for a while, but out of the blue, I had the urge to write this and here we are. This is an AU where Tadashi is alive. I know it's been done before, but I couldn't help it. This is my take on the 'what if Tadashi lived' idea. Also, the title, lyrics, and summary inspiration are from the song My Dearest by supercell.

Hope you liked it!

~Mari