Reincarnation

(A Naoi Ayato Drabble)

I stared into Naoi's now crimson red eyes. He told me he could give me back my memories of the tragic day I died. I was scared for after I remembered and accepted it, I would disappear from this world. I didn't want to. I made a very close friendship with everyone here and fell in love with Naoi-kun, but I want to, no need to know what happened to me before I died. I felt myself slowly drift into my conscious. An image started to appear in my head and slowly played itself like a movie. I lived alone with younger siblings in a small apartment. I noticed a picture of a couple sitting on the table. I figured it was our parents who have passed away. We were happy and lively, but on that same night, an intruder invaded our home. I didn't know, until I heard two cries out of agony. I jumped out of my bed and rushed to my sibling's room to see that were slaughtered in their beds. I was face to face with the culprit who carried a blood stained knife. I blindly charged at the guy, putting up a great fight, but to be stabbed numerously in the stomach. My body couldn't hold me up anymore, so fell onto the floor. I clutched my bloody stomach and stared at the corpses of my brother and sister. I felt tears swell up my eyes and trickled down my cheek. I felt a huge amount of agony, but the pain and anguish I felt for my siblings overwhelmed that agony. I could have saved them. I blamed myself for their deaths. It was my fault. I couldn't forgive myself. As I fell deeper into my conscious, I was confronted by the spirits of my brother and sister. They smiled widely at me.

"We love and forgive you big sister! We don't blame you for what happened to us. It was an unfortunate accident that could've happened to anyone, but we were misfortunate ones it happened to. Stop blaming yourself. It couldn't have been helped. It was our fate, but you have a chance to start over and live anew. So, forget us and start your life over, exactly the way it should be. We will always be watching over you from above and will be with you in your heart. Goodbye big sis and we will always love you."

After that, they disappeared. I felt myself come back to reality. I stared at Naoi-kun as I felt tears fill up my eyes. I tightly embraced him as I cried on his shoulder.

"I know what happened now. It wasn't my fault and they forgave me." I said as I parted from Naoi-kun.

I gave him a weak smile. I saw him widen his eyes as I was engulfed by a beautiful, bright white light.

"They forgave me, Naoi-kun and I forgive myself now that I find I wasn't at fault."

I watched as Naoi started crying and everyone else smiled weakly at me.

"You guys have been wonderful to me. Even when I didn't know what the hell was going on and was a stranger, you guys befriended and guided me along my journey. I want to say "thank you and that I love and will miss you."

"Naoi-kun, I want you to know that I have always loved you from the start. Even though you never noticed me, I still admired from afar. Please don't ever forget me, even after you disappear. I'm sure fate will have us meet again someday in our new life and when we do, that's when we can be together. Goodbye and I love you Ayato Naoi."

I grazed both of his cheeks with my palms and pulled his face closer to mine, until our lips lightly met. I didn't part from him, until I couldn't feel his face anymore as he disappeared from my touch.