A man named Michael W

A man named Michael W. Smith wrote and sings this song.  I'm very grateful that he did because I love it so much!  Disney owns So Weird, I'm not grateful over that.

I really wanna see you
I really wanna touch you
If only I could hold you in my arms again
I really wanna reach you
Forever to be with you
If only I could hold you in my arms again

            They tell me to move on.  Finding someone new and create a new life.  With new memories.  No!  No one will be the same!  That touch you never failed to deliver, which send shivers down my spine, making me melt every time won't be there.  You can't have anyone else, why should I?  I made a vow I'd forever love you.  I'd never go away.  Why did you have to break it!?

It was written in the stars
On the pages of my heart
Oh, that someday I would find
The love I feel for you tonight

            Do you remember the day we meet?  Everything I thought I knew about love was quickly replaced.  You changed my life.  Made me whole and complete.  I never told you thank you for that.  So thank you very saving my soul and allowing me to see life is full of wonder.  Or it was for a time.  Then you were gone I relearned that valuable lesson life is a bitch.  Just for a little while I'm not asking forever I just want to be with you feel the love once more.

On the ocean of our dreams
Like a prayer you came to me
And the longing that had been
Found its ending in your eyes
And I am missing you tonight

            It surrounds me wherever I go.  You went away, but yet you're still here.  The reminder of your face in countless photos and videos.  On the news at rare moments.  Your name escapes our daughter's lips.  How can I move on when you won't allow me?  How can I forget the way you were able to read my heart?  Can you still see and feel what it says?

I really wanna see you
I really wanna touch you
If only I could hold you in my arms again
I really wanna reach you
Forever to be with you
If only I could hold you in my arms again

            Nothing is the same without you here.  Life has lost it's meaning.  It takes loosing something to make you realize how much you needed it.  They tell me you're always in my heart.  That's not good enough for me!  I want you here right now, in my loving embrace, cuddled under a blanket.  I want something that I can touch and feel warmth escaping off.  When I die you'll be their waiting for me on the other side.  When will the wait be over?

Across the waves, across the sea
Separating you from me
Here's a promise and it's mine
I will love you for all time
I'm wishing you were here tonight

            Jack has your smile, Fiona your love for life.  But their not you.  And now has Jack grows and becomes a man I find myself having trouble looking at him.  He looks so much like you!  Why did he have to inherit more of your genes than mine?  Fiona is you in the personality department, the things she has and believes are a complete mirage of all the stuff you held dear.  I hate it.  At night I find myself crying without any tears, sobbing without making a sound.  I will always love you just I fear it's not enough.

I really wanna see you
I really wanna touch you
If only I could hold you in my arms again
I really wanna reach you
Forever to be with you
If only I could hold you in my arms again

            Get ready Rick because I'm coming.  I can't take the waiting, the reminders or just life in general.  We both know I was  the happiest with you near.  I want that happy feel again.  As I slide the twelfth or thirteenth pill in my mouth I'm happy with my decision.  The happiest I have been since you left.  The room is getting darker, I can't seem to catch my breath as easily.  Yes Rick I'm almost there.