Not Saiyan Enough

Chapter 1: Wedded Bliss?

Goku/Vegeta

Summary: After being married for fifteen years, Goku and Vegeta couldn't be happier… At least that's how it seems on the outside, Vegeta on the other hand is getting fed up with how un-Saiyan Goku is. Goku on the other hand hates how Vegeta won't open up about his past… sounds like a recipe for disaster…read and find out what happens… Sequel to Curse You.

Hello my lovely readers!

I've finally started the sequel to Curse you… It seems like forever since I wrote that story, but anyway, here it is… like the summary says, this takes place fifteen years after the original story, they haven't had kids or anything, but that may be to come… we shall see

Vegeta POV

It's been fifteen long years since Kakarot and I said I do… I know that doesn't mean much to me, but if it made the big idiot happy I'd do anything for him. The kids were all grown up now and living on their own. Gohan was married with a child, living not too far away from us. Goten and Trunks got degrees and are now helping Bulma at Capsule Corp. They're living in an apartment together on the other side of South City. I personally think that this was a waste of their time, but I guess that in this world there was a need for such things like an education, not that I ever needed one.

As I lay here on the couch waiting for Kakarot to get back from the store, I think back through the last fifteen years. It seems like I've been doing that a lot lately. No matter how many times I try to get this thought out of my mind… Kakarot was the most loving person in the world, he would do anything to make me happy, even if it meant destroying a planet or two… But over the last fifteen years, I've noticed that he has changed me as well as the people around him. He is such a kind hearted person that no one could ever dare not to like him, unless you're an evil rival of course. But… He's not a Saiyan, biologically he is but he is not in his actions or in anything that he does. The only thing that he's completely Saiyan at is his fighting skills. Although they are slightly sloppy compared to most techniques, the love for battle and fighting is still there.

It seems as of late that I have been dwelling a lot on the past, what my life used to be like and what my life is like now. Although I love it here on Earth, and it took me a long time to get that way, I really miss my home planet. Before it was under the rule of Frieza that is. The planet was a place that was full of fun and… Everything that I want back. I close my eyes just trying to remember the way that it was, the red sky, the mountains, the clay like soil. I sigh and shake my head trying to get the thoughts out of my head before I start to show my emotions once again. The planet was really a great place to be. We kept to ourselves and our love of fighting never really left our planet. It was only when Frieza came in to the picture was when we started fighting to conquer other planets for him.

Thinking of the things that I had to do for that cold hearted monster made my blood run cold and my heart seize up in my chest. I close my eyes to try and calm down, but it was impossible. Just thinking back to all the planets that I destroyed, all the blood that is on my hands, all because of that man. The men and women that I've killed, every single one of them I can remember the looks on their faces, the faces of agony and the children's cries and screams that were telling me not to do it. Then the children's faces as I killed their parent's right in front of them, then killed them. Their lifeless bodies were piled up right in front of me every second of the day. Most of the time I could just ignore them, but there were times, such as today where it was more difficult. I close my eyes and think about what Kakarot would tell me. I smile a little as I imagine his warm arms wrapped around me telling me that I was a better person that that now and how much better I was than who I used to be. I would just nod and tell him that I'm better most of the time, well that was because I wanted him to feel better. I was so glad that he couldn't read my mind most of the time, because most of the thoughts that run through my head would scar him and his fragile heart.

I couldn't tell him about the many people that I have killed. There was one in particular that hit me especially hard. It wasn't' even one of my first kills. It was the one after I came back from Earth for the first time. I had completely healed and I was supposed to take out a simple little planet. It wasn't even that big of a deal I should have been able to do it in a matter of hours. But… There was this one child, she had blonde pigtails and was looking up at me. She had to be no older than four years old. I had her parent's right in front of me with a ki blast in my hand ready to kill them and she came up to me, not even thinking that I could kill her. She came up to me and pulled on my armor before she said to me with tears in her eyes. "Why are you doing this to my mommy and daddy?" Before I came to earth I wouldn't have even questioned my intentions. That little girl tore my heart right open and made me think back to when I was a child. I didn't even get to say goodbye to my parents. I was purging a planet when I was told my planet was destroyed. My parents, my entire race that I was going to be king of one day had vanished into thin air. I couldn't do anything to save them… I was a helpless child… I-

Suddenly, as if on cue, I feel his energy next to me. My entire being relaxed as I look up and see that bright orange gi right in front of me. He smiles down at me and goes to put the groceries away before he comes and lays beside me, wrapping his arms tightly around me. I melt into his arms and breathe in his scent, trying so hard to forget the things that I was thinking about and to make the images go away. "Awe 'Geta… What's wrong? You're shaking." He asks me worriedly. I look up at him and bite my lip, I didn't know that I was shaking, how could he feel it? I sigh and try my hardest to calm down, to get the thoughts out of my head… But it seemed impossible. "Vegeta talk to me… Please I want to help." He says to me.

"There's nothing that can be done…" I say before I sit up and take a deep breath. I get off of the couch and go into the kitchen. "I'll get supper started…" I say to him before I turn my back once again, leaving him as clueless as he was when he got home.

Goku POV

I just lay there clueless on the couch as I look at my love cook us supper. I didn't know what I would do without him. He was my entire world and I hated to see him like this. I've noticed over the last fifteen years that we had been together, that it was always around this time of year he got worse than usual. It was always this month that he would just lay on the couch shaking in a cold sweat until I knock him out of it. But he wouldn't open up to me, which was the most frustrating part. I am his husband he should know that he can talk to me about anything that he needs to. I sigh and watch him cook, I could tell that there was something wrong. The way that he was standing was too tense for how he normally was. Not that he wasn't always alert, he just seemed to be extra on edge tonight. I sigh and get up off of the couch and go to him, wrapping my arms around him. I feel him jump in my arms before I kiss his ear. "Hey it's just me." I whisper to him before I start to stroke his sides. "Hey how about you make enough for seven… I'll have all the kids over and we can eat together like we used to… Would you like that baby?" I ask him gently. That seemed to get a small smile on his face and I was more than happy to see it there where it belonged.

"Alright… Go call them and I'll get it ready." He says to me and I smile in excitement. It may be last minute, but the boys would drop anything their doing to come and see us. That's just how they were. I hurry and call Gohan, Goten, and Trunks hoping that they aren't actually doing anything for dinner tonight. Once their all on their way I go back and check on my prince. He seemed to be doing a lot better ever since I told him that the boys were coming over, but he was still out of it.

Once all of the boys were here, he put on the happy mask that he knew how to use all too well. It made me wonder if he was ever actually happy when he was around me, or if that was just a mask as well. Dinner was nice, it was great to see all of the boys together once again like it used to be. Pan and Videl couldn't make it, they were with Mr. Satan on a trip. The perks of being the richest fighter's daughter had to have its perks sometimes. We all sat there and chatted like they had never left and made their own lives for themselves. It made me so happy to know that our boys were happy. Even though by human standards we were getting old, hell Vegeta and I were nearing our fifties but we had many years ahead of us together. In Saiyan years being fifty wasn't even that old, still a teenager basically. I've thought about this many times about what would happen if Vegeta and I were to have another child. None of them turned out really well. I mean first, we would have to find someone to help us since we're two men and can't have children… second, I don't think that either of us want to go through that again.

"Dad… Hello Earth to Dad!" I hear Goten say to me. I wonder for a second how many times he had to say that before I actually heard him.

I look up at him and smile a little. "Sorry what were you saying? I was lost in my thoughts." I say to him. I look around and see that Vegeta is gone once again. I sigh and shake my head, I needed to keep better track of him when he was like this. Who knows where he could be.

"I was asking you what's wrong with Vegeta… He barely ate anything and now he says he's going to think… what's wrong?" Goten asks.

I sigh and look at him. I wasn't sure how to answer him. "It's this time of year Goten… I'm not sure what's going on… But I'll do my best to find out what it is." I tell him.

I was going to get to the bottom of this… Even If it was the last thing that I did.

I know this chapter was kind of… different, but I needed to give you an insight into what each person was thinking before I keep going on with the story… Anyways, see you next chapter!