Saya rested her head on Kai's shoulder. "Kai?" he quirked her and started at his solemn face. "Do you ever wish I didn't get my memory back? Or that none of this had ever happened…like with Riku?"

"Yes……and no." Kai sighed, his chest rising and falling slowly. "Listen Saya, I want you to remember. Memories are a great and beautiful thing. And I know what you have been through. I know some of the decisions you have made haven't been easy. So, yeah, I am glad that you can remember, but it seems as if everyday I find myself regretting things." Kai leaned his head back against the tree. "I want things back to normal, but in some weird way I do like this….this craziness because it's a different normal. Ya know?"

Saya looked at him slightly confused, but then she realized she knew exactly what he was talking about. The normal they once knew no longer existed. This was their normal now. She leaned forward and pulled her knees to her chest. "Kai, things won't be normal again; at least not what the rest of the world defines as normal. Things were never normal. Things can't go back the way they were because everything was a lie. At least now we are living the truth." A black car pulled up and Says knew it was for her. "Well, Hajji's here. I guess I will be going. Good-bye Kai." I might not see you again. As Saya got up to leave, Kai grabbed her hand and pulled her into a warm embrace; the last of many.

"Sienara (1) Saya. Dai suki desu. (2)"

"Dai suki desu." Saya wrapped her arms around Kai and held him close all the while choking back a tear and stifling a sob. She let go after what seemed like an eternity and Kai let his arms fall to his sides. She turned away without looking him in the eye, because if she did she would cry and it would make this harder on her and Kai. She ran to the black car and climbed in just as a tear fell from her eye.

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Hajji started at Saya a brief moment before deciding to leave. His foot pressed the metal accelerator to the floor and off they went. he placed his hand on Saya's leg and she closed her fingers around it. She held them tight. They rode together for ten minutes before Says spoke up.

"Hajji, after father's death I was pretty immune to emotions. But, now I feel so……so empty." Hajji glared at her for a moment before returning his attention to the road. He drove on. "Say something Hajji. Anything! Like 'It'll be okay.' or 'It's okay. We all feel that way.'" Tears fell from Saya's eyes as she gasped for breath and whispered, "cause I need to be okay. Even though it isn't." She released Hajji's hand and curled hers into a ball as the tears kept falling.

Hajji drove on keeping silent. He didn't know how to respond. He wanted to comfort her, but he didn't know how. Hajji took a right and then pulled over on the side of the road. Everywhere Saya looked they were surrounded by trees. "Get out." Hajji ordered Saya. She silently obeyed and opened her door only to slam it shut.

"Hajji, what are we doing?" Hajji walked into the woods ignoring Saya's question and signaled her to follow. "Hmph…." Saya walked forward unwillingly following Haji carefully. She had no idea where he was taking her and why. She just followed onward in silence, arguing with herself wether she wanted to turn back now or continue to follow Haji.

She sighed, her curiosity won over. She followed Hajji. He took her deeper into the woods and she didn't think they could find their way back. Sure, Hajji was great and always knew where and when to go, but this time she had a feeling someone, probably herself. She shook her head and the wind around her blew.

It was getting cooler outside and they still had not reached their destination. She knew that when they climbed out of the car the sun was setting and with the trees over head she couldn't tell where the sun was. She wasn't scared. She had fought off caraleans; what was there to be scared of?

Finally Hajji stopped and turned giving her her sword. She smiled as Hajji spoke, "No worries. There is nothing to fight here." Then Hajji turned and sped away lightning fast. Saya blinked. She was stranded in the middle of the woods, with a sword, and no Hajji. She was pissed.

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1. Sienara – as many and all should know, this is a way of saying good bye (usually for a long period of time, and it may be used if you are never going to see someone again).

2. Dai suki desu - "I love you" This is the PROPER way to say it because if you say Ai shi te ru you're literally saying "I passion for you." (this refers to the passionate way…I want to have sex with you or…well there's really no other way to explain it)