SI OC
Disclaimer: I don't own anything just my OC.
Warning: Story will have dark scene on it and thinking, so watch out people, especially Violence, killing, and other illegal stuff that will be written in the story since you know this is KHR, Mafia related story so :)
As for the pairing? Well I already have someone in my mind before I even wrote this story since I made this story for the pairing in my mind lol
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At the age of 17 years old, she died... or precisely speaking she was killed in a dispute of power over the enemy of her family.
Of course there is unwillingness, sadness, regret and other complex emotion when she died but she soon learned to accept about what happened to her.
Life is unfair and unpredictable that anything can happen, has always been her belief in her entire life. It was the cause of her being a daughter of a huge and powerful crime syndicate in Japan, who has a power deep in a politics in her home Country.
She has born into an old and traditional family that exist in the past that has survive the long passage of time.
Being born into a huge powerful family that has a hands in a deep crime syndicate which her family has branch into in the past, has made her both see the light but mostly the darkest part of a human being.
So she learned to adapt and analyzed the best way to make her life much more easier, just in order to be able to make her have a happiness in her life because crying and denying things has never change anything.
Experiencing and immersing herself in negative emotion has been a very tiring thing to do.
It was so very cold, so very lonely and sad with so much despair that it was suffocating.
She never wanted to experience that kind of feelings anymore, that is why she change, learned to accept to those surprising and unpredictable events that just happen suddenly on life.
So she accepted the fact that she died, well killed precisely, despite all the negative emotions, hey she was just a human being after all, she couldn't help feeling negative emotions when she was experiencing dying.
Even if she died because of her identity, the family background that she was born at, she doesn't hate her family.
Doesn't hate being born in that huge and powerful family with a hand of being in a crime syndicate.
Even if she has once asked God why, just before she was enlighten the fact that there was just no why, it just happen because that is life.
So she learned to let go and use the best way to live a happy life.
And she did live a happy life, even if it was not perfect but she has long known that nothing was ever perfect.
Sometimes, she believe in equivalent of exchange.
She was born in a very rich and influential family and never experience the hardship of being poor.
Despite her parent being strict with those traditional learning of her family background and trained what a daughter of the leader of their family should know but she has been cared and loved by her family.
Even if she was only been slightly smarter than average person, along with her slightly average appearance, she has been good at learning how to defend and attack in a fight which was useful as there are always danger in her life because of her identity.
So when she died by the ordered of a jealous women whom she doesn't recognize at all that was smart enough to start with her while their family was busy fighting against each other.
At least she could be proud as the women in the television was giving her horror filled eyes as she also took the life of her killer along with her death after secretly sending evidence of the cause of her death and who the culprit was, something useful to her family, during the time when her killer has his guard down while the so called jealous women was doing her villain dialogue as she gloat, sneer with a smug expression in her face on a very large television just in order to see her miserable expression.
"Stupid Women." was the last word she utter before she died.
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March 14, 1XXX was the day she was born and arrive in a different world.
The day where her supposedly new mother died.
It was during child birth, her deceased mother shouldn't have given birth because her body has been physically weak, especially when her mother also has a weak heart even if it was not that severe but it was still dangerous.
But apparently, her mother has been stubborn, she wanted to give birth to her child despite the danger that it comes along with, even if it cause her death.
Her mother has been very determined to give birth to her, even in exchange of her life.
It was a heavy thing for a normal child to carry when learning the death of their mother, luckily she wasn't normal to begin with.
And of course, despite all her mother determination, she wasn't able to give birth to a healthy baby which wasn't that surprising at all with how physically weak her mother was, especially when she was born earlier than it should have.
She was born premature, with physical weakness and other disease and illness that come along with her birth.
Her life was basically in danger of losing at the start of her new life.
With how the world was like trying to get rid of her the moment that she was born, like she has just done something totally unforgivable, was the moment that she knew that her new life would not be so easy to live if she were to survive the ordeal of her new start of life.
(Which of course she did survive of since the story will be a game over, which was also ironically true since she was born in a world similar to a story that she has long read before in her childhood.)
During her stay in a hospital, despite being just born premature she surprisingly has a very good hearing, there was only a constant presence of one person that stay by her side, aside from the doctor and nurses that check and monitor her health.
It was a male person, presumably her father in this new life, he was a very quiet person, as he just stay in silent staring toward her while sometimes being in a daze, has never said any words toward her even if she was just a mere baby.
There wasn't any sound at all, just silently standing or sitting on her side.
She couldn't fault the guy from not being enthusiastic toward her, the guy lover died because of giving birth toward her.
Although, surprisingly her new father doesn't hate her existence since she could tell when someone was hostile toward her or for having negative emotion, she was pretty sensitive over people emotion, especially when it comes toward herself.
With what her identity was in her past life, she gradually learn how to read people around her, because those people usually hide their real emotion before her, lies and flattery with hidden agenda, so she learned, learned in a hard way how to handle the people around her.
At least she knew that the guy surprisingly doesn't hate her existence, doesn't hate the fact that his lover died because she wanted to give birth to her.
The guy was just, sad, so very sad, and lonely and alone, just at lost in what to do, lost and confuse at his life at the moment.
In her eyes, her new father is strong because despite all the loneliness and sadness she could feel toward her new father, he didn't became a scum, a scourge where people usually tried to use other people to vent the wrong doing that happen in their life.
She wasn't being blame, wasn't being hated and disgusted or even not being indifferent or ignoring her existence as he still keep visiting and staying by her side even if he was being all quiet and silent.
He doesn't become emotional in a bad way, doesn't show the ugliness part of a human being that she usually see.
Her father doesn't shy away and self denial for the tragedy that happened on his life.
He was surprisingly strong in that emotional aspect.
So even if he was being silent by her side, even if she couldn't really see with her blurred vision along with not being able to open her eyes for a longer time, she couldn't help but still stare toward the familiar blurred figure that has stayed by her side at all time.
Your not alone... I'm still here... I see you... I feel you... I am also watching over you...
Someone might ask her why she was doing this?
Well that person has just given her silent support and stayed by her side despite what her existence has just cause, on how she has taken away the most important person on his life.
A person who was so sad, so very lonely and alone that never showed any negative emotion toward her existence.
That the man still cared despite all that happen.
She was accepted, her existence was being accepted by that man.
How could someone turned indifferent on someone like him? Especially when most of the people she has ever met always has hidden agenda toward her.
He was a new fresh air in her life, something new and an interesting being that she wanted to just take a hold of and never ever let go, as she find him to be a very rare existence.
She has never saw someone so pure, so adorable and lovable in her eyes, he was... oh so very bright.
Like a rare gem that she wanted to put hidden in a box just for herself, and so she could watch and observe it all the time.
So that no one could take it away from her hand because it belong only to herself.
And she would treasure it because that man is precisely her father in her new life.
He was a family.
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She doesn't know on how many days she has stayed in the Hospital but all she cares about was the fact that she survive and live her new life.
And also the fact that her father is finally willing to speak before her.
No more being silent and dazing around her presence.
The day that her father took a hold of her for the first time was something she would never forget in her entire life, as she felt the trembling hands and fingers of her father as he cradle her fragile body toward his chest gently.
The feeling of nervousness, cares, and love that she could feel from his action alone has made her feel so very very warm in her heart.
It was so comfortable and oh so very warm.
The peaceful feeling she felt was incredibly comfortable.
Being treated as a precious treasure was the first time she is experiencing throughout her entire life.
It was something that she has never experience on her past family despite the care that she receive.
Past family cared about her because she has been very obedient toward what they wanted for her to learn as a daughter of a distinguish family because she knew that they will turn indifferent toward her if she doesn't show her worth.
All her capabilities that she has showed has been the cause of her hard work because she was never smart to begin with, she learned to survive in order to receive more choices and freedom in her life because if she wasn't even useful on her family, she will not have any slightest decision for her life.
Even her marriage has long been decided from her family just when she was at the age of 9 years old.
It was like an equal exchange for the thing she has in her past life, all those luxury that she has and live with.
Although she doesn't have any choice in choosing who will be her partner with but at least the guy has been a capable person and wasn't a scum person or those other grown up guys that has long been crooked from being spoiled from their rich family.
Its already satisfying with the way her identity background was, but unfortunately it was the reason of her death in her past life.
Jealous woman has been in love with her fiance to the point of madness that she has been a torn in the woman eyes, because in that woman eyes she was the evil person that cause her to lose her love one, someone who snatched the person she love, that is why she was scheme and died in the end.
She never knew about it, all she investigated was just about what kind of person her fiance has been since she was worried for what kind of life she'll live after marrying her fiance, she wanted to have freedom after all.
Quite frankly, she was slightly envious on that jealous woman despite causing her death since she also want to fall in love, to experience that kind of love to the point of madness was very interesting that she was quite curious about it to the point that she wanted it to happen to her also.
And in the distant future, her wish was granted as it really happen, which was frankly so maddening that she fully wishes that she shouldn't have ever love a person in her new life with that kind of heavy sentimental emotion.
It was so crazy and intense and maddening.
Life was really unpredictable that anything can happen.
That is why, when she was being gently held by her father along with that tenderness and love as she was treated as the most precious treasure in the whole wide world, she couldn't help but be move and obsessed with that wonderful feeling.
She was being treasured just because of who she is.
Someone who doesn't have anything, someone who was the root cause of losing his precious person but he still cared... he still loves...
Who wouldn't be move by the guy actions and feelings?
He was so very kind that it was overwhelming.
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Among the flowers on Earth, White Orchid has always been what her deceased mother love the most in her entire life.
It was surprisingly nice to learn that her mother family has a long standing tradition in naming their children with their most favorite flowers.
Her mother has been named Himawari by her own mother, which translated as Sunflower in English.
That is why even without knowing her gender, her mother has long decided to name her the White Orchid in Japanese name Byakuran, it has long been fated to be her name the moment that she was born in her new life.
Yes, her present name is Byakuran,a very familiar sounding name which she soon ignored when something flash in her mind since it might have been something that she heard it in her past life before, nothing more.
And she dearly love the name Byakuran, especially when her father who was called Ciel explain the meaning of her name.
Byakuran has two meaning in her new name.
One is the flower meaning of White Orchid which represent reverence and humility, innocence and purity, and elegance and beauty. A very long lasting flowers, even after finishes blooming, it does not die... it just enter a resting period as it can bloom again and again which was also grow easily and bloom under most conditions.
The second one was the alternate meaning which starts from all the letters of her name "Byakuran", where the Byakuran could also be mean as "Gift of God",
B is for bygone, never forgetting golden memories.
Y is for youthful, your eternal look.
A is for affectionate, to those that matter most to you
K is for kid, the child within.
U is for upstanding, the honorable way to be
R is for rational, the way you think.
A is for approachable, constantly meeting new people
N is for nurturing, to all that need help
So who wouldn't love her new name after her father who was called Ciel explained about the meaning of her name after learning that she could and was able to understand words that should be complicated for her young age.
And yes, not a 1 year old yet when she was already able to walk along with speaking a few words and sometimes speaking in a sentence, although it was mostly broken words because of trying to speak over her young body, her father just spoke with a kind smile that she was a smart child with a joyful voice.
She didn't know it back then that it wasn't normal for a child her age to be talking and walking, so fast and mostly accurate even if she tried to let herself appear normal since she doesn't know when, how and what time a child will start speaking and walking around.
Byakuran doesn't really want to be seen as a freak, she was still a child after all, she was afraid of being abandon because of not being normal, especially when she imagine the disgusting expression of his father. Despite knowing how kind and gentle Ciel was, there is still that deep impression of people ugliness from her past life because she believes that every human being has something dark within them, no matter how kind her father was, she knew that nothing is perfect. She just doesn't know how and what her father bottom line is.
She doesn't want to cross Ciel bottom line because everyone always has a bottom line in their life.
That is why, she doesn't want to lost it, the warm feeling she received from Ciel was something she was obsessed and addicted with.
But the thing was, Ciel accept her abnormality so easy or maybe he doesn't know what common sense is? Because Byakuran could not understand no matter how grateful she was on how easily her father accept the non normal thing.
Byakuran couldn't understand how her father could accept it all, those abnormality of his daughter, like it was something normal for her father to accept.
She could basically see that those freaky abnormality in life was something that Ciel has long accepted, like he was use to it already in his life which was quite confusing.
Although she wanted to know more about who her father is, because Ciel was also not a normal person from what Byakuran has observed so far, there was something he was definitely hiding but all she could do is wait.
Byakuran knew that everyone has secret in their life, something they wish to hide whether because the secret they kept is harmful to themselves or to others.
She could wait, she believe that she would sooner or later know all about it, there was no use in getting impatient over it.
Being patient is sometimes more worthwhile, waiting for the right time in order to get to know what she wanted to know or get the thing she want in her life was something she was quite use to after all.
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In the near future as she sat with trembling hands covered with blood all over.
It was the first time she felt how heavy a secret could be, how tiring life could be.
She wonder why, why is her new life was much more miserable and harder than her past life sometimes.
Ha... but all she could do is live, because her life is just not her own anymore as it carries more than one life.
Ah... for the years of her new life, Two lifes was sacrifice in order for her to be able to just live.
Byakuran has never knows that people loving you uncontrollably could be so tiring and make people feel so miserable despite how warm it was.
SO overwhelming warm and suffocating.
As she raise her head and stared at the bright blue sky, Byakuran could only show a very desolate smile as she quint her lilac eyes at the wide bright blue sky with the warmth ray of the sun shining over her.
She never wanted in her entire life to hide and stay away from the bright and warm feelings that she has always been obsessed and addicted with because she learned in a hard way that it could also hurt her very much.
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Being pulled into unfamiliar but familiar whole new wide world... she knew that her new life will never be normal ever again.
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At the age of 3 years old, Byakuran life has been very peaceful and pleasantly normal so far, entirely different from her past life.
She has never been so carefree and freely in her life.
No strict parent to tell her on what to do.
She doesn't need to learn things that she doesn't have interest with.
Ciel let her do what she love the most as long as it isn't something bad and harmful on herself.
As long as it makes her happy, Ciel was also happy.
She was being spoiled, which was a interesting experience.
The only downside was over the fact that she doesn't have a very healthy body.
Thankfully, from what she has seen and read so far, the world she was living with might look the same as the modern time in her past life was, but the technology and medicine was much more higher level than her past world.
It was a familiar but unfamiliar world.
Although despite how much the technology and medicine was much more higher level, it didn't change the fact that it wasn't enough to save her mother life.
It is a sad fact that life is very unpredictable, no one knows what will happen next and what surprising thing will come to life in just a moment.
At least the new world can get hold of her interest, learning the new and different histories of the world.
Reading books about the different high technology of the world.
Especially learning medicine as it was something that was useful in herself because she rather want to be the one who could treat herself rather than others.
Its not like Byakuran doesn't entirely trust on other peoples expertise but she wanted to be the one who could hold the fate of her life on her own hand.
At least if something bad were to happen, she knew about it and if she were to die, at least she know the cause of her death.
She wanted her death to be different from her past life, not dead by other people hand.
That is why learning medicine is a must.
And she could very well do all the thing she wanted to do, she was free to learned anything that got her interest with, especially when her mind work so different from her past life.
Much more intelligent in a frightening way that she couldn't help but to test herself in one of the number one website for the ranking list of IQ for people around the world.
And what a surprise it was when the result came out, she was one among the very best, as she rank in the top 10 for the smartest people around the whole wide world.
It didn't show what her rank number was, as they don't show the people what their number in the rank was, only which of the top list they belong to which she doesn't know why and doesn't care about since she didn't reveal her real identity.
Of course, before she took the test, she remove all the trace that could tract her down when she uses the net, because she knew that she would list high enough to get those people who either want to trained those smart people, who want them to work with or those with hidden agenda.
Byakuran knew her IQ would be high enough not because on arrogance but because she knew how capable her mind was.
She knew life is very interesting, there is so many new thing to learn but it doesn't mean that she would like to invite trouble along with it.
Byakuran knew to be discrete after all, she doesn't want any trouble coming into her peaceful and content life.
"Little White" a gentle voice filled with love sounds in the once silent room causing her to raise her head away from the book that she has been quietly reading, smart lilac eyes stare at a dark blue eyes filled with love and kindness as the person stared back at her.
It was Ciel, her father.
A slim figure of a person, a slightly longer and messy dark blue hair cause by the wind with a handsome face reflect in her lilac eyes.
Byakuran lip raised slightly as soon as she saw the figure of her father "Yes, father?"
Ciel eyes light up when he saw his daughter smile at while she called him father, before walking and picking up Byakuran into his arm, smiling down as he asked with soft voice toward his daughter "Come, what music would you want me to play for today?"
Byakuran eyes light up as soon as she heard the words "Play" and "Music" which was something she really love since it was the time where the most peaceful and content time for the rest of her day in her life.
Every single day Ciel would play the piano while she listen Ciel play.
If was a very fulfilling time in her life, one of the best memories of her life.
"Canvas" as soon as she was place to sit close next on his father, she told the title of the music that she wanted to hear, and watched as Ciel smile toward her before gazing on a picture she was holding in her lap.
It was the picture of her deceased mother, delicate face with lilac eyes much darker than hers with thick dark long hair, the same hair color that she have but hers was much thinner and get messy like Ciel hair.
She got most of her appearance on her mother side.
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Motivation, hope and determination was something that she could always feel when her father played the "Canvas" song, sometimes some familiar thing flash in her mind and disappeared before she could get a hold of it.
Canvas, was a song Ciel has written for her mother.
And sometimes the other songs that her father has written toward her mother feel so very familiar and she knew that it is connected on her past life memories, but somehow she couldn't quite get what it was.
Byakuran tried to dig deeper in her past life memories and all she could glimpse was that it was a song in something she has watch once but doesn't quite remember it clearly as the memory seems to be during when she was young between at the age of 8-10 years old.
So all she knew is that its about a song she heard once or twice before she stop digging deeper into it anymore since it was just a song after all, nothing harmful.
And what a mistake it was to ignore it.
So ignorant Byakuran just continue to watch and listen as his father play the piano beautifully.
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Ciel
Child Byakuran (though she was currently much younger than the picture)
Well that's all for now :)
And Yeah, Byakuran has black hair and this is AU btw, different from the Cannon since she was born in a different Parallel World of KHR.
Btw I first publish this story in Wattpad then I remember that I also has fanfiction so I publish it here too hehe and sorry for those who waited for me to update new chapters in my other stories hahah
Any Question and Recommendation for the story? Any Scene you want me to make?