James is 20 and Katie is 18
James is sitting there staring off into space as the other three members of Big Time Rush attempt to pull him out of his recent depression. He barely moves as Carlos runs into the wall, Logan explains the etiology of depression, and Kendall threatens to break his lucky comb. Finally the other three boys give up and go in search of something fun to do. Suddenly James' bottom lip starts to quiver as he sees the object of his depression walk into the lobby. Without warning Katie comes up to him and starts trying to cheer him up. James wonders why she can't see why she of all people cannot cheer him up. He watches sadly as she departs as her newest boyfriend comes into the lobby.
He narrows his eyes as he looks at the two teens walking off out the door. What he doesn't see is Katie looking over her shoulder at him as he buries his head in his hands. His mind drifts back to the lyrics he wrote for Katie but had to have someone else sing them because the words just stuck in his throat. Take for instance the lyrics in the song Worldwide: "Yes I may meet a million pretty girls that know my name, but don't you worry, cause you have my heart." James had to convince Logan to sing that powerful part because every time he tried he saw Katie's face and couldn't get the words out. Or take these lyrics in Nothing Even Matters, "I don't care about the money, don't care about the clothes, when we're together baby anything goes." He wrote those in response to Katie laughing about his obsession with his looks and with being famous.
Nothing is ever quite what it seems in Hollywood, James thinks as he gets up and trudges to the apartment. He punches the wall as he gets into apartment putting another hole in it. Nobody is home as he flops down on the couch and turns the TV on. It is meaningless background noise as he wallows in despair and doubt. All of a sudden the door slams shut and James turns around to see Katie storm into the apartment, flinging her purse at the wall and fighting back tears. She comes over and sits beside James and starts crying into his shoulder as he puts his arms around here. He tries to keep it platonic but he cannot help falling further for the girl in his arms.
Katie is sobbing as she tells the story of going to the mall with her boyfriend (she cannot say his name without breaking down completely) and running into his other girlfriend. She is sobbing about how pretty she was and how cool her clothes were. James's mind is screaming at him to let her know how pretty he thinks she is. Before he can get a word out Katie says "Thanks for always being there for me James. I love you like a brother." Katie gives him a kiss on the cheek as she heads off to her room. James sits there as his world collapses around his ears. The phrase "like a brother" keeps bouncing around his head and he wants to tear his head out in frustration knowing that his love will never be returned.
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