I couldn't get this out of my head so I wrote it all down. Let me know what ya think. :)
She wakes up and all she feels in numb. Damon and Stefan fill her in on what has happened. After the part where they tell her that Meridith gave her vampire blood she zones out. She knows what that means. She's in transition.
Next thing she knows the brothers have their phones to their ears. Stefan calling Bonnie and Caroline. Damon calling Jeremy. Apparently this is a 'def con' situation as Damon puts it, and everyone needs to get to the Boarding House. She watches the brothers closely. She hears the sadness in their voices, the fear of 'will she go through with this?' is radiating off of them, and it hurts her dead heart.
She gets into the back of Damon's car. She looks up to the brothers again and laughs sardonically internally. Turns out the Salvatore's wouldn't be the death of her like so many had said. All they knew how to do was love her and save her.
Then again, she knew that all along. Still she can't scream, or cry, she doesn't feel much of anything right now, and it's scaring her.
As soon as she walks in she is ambushed with cries, and hugs, and so many pleas to please go through with transitioning. No one wants to lose her and she gets that, but it's Jeremy that does her in. He has lost everyone, and just as she would do and ask whatever she had to for him to live she knows she has to do the same for him.
Everyone is looking at her, waiting for her to break.
Everyone except him.
He who has not said a word since they left the morgue. It's okay though, really. She knows everything he's thinking. He doesn't want her to die, but he's sure as hell glad she's alive. He's hurt that he couldn't save her, that she didn't choose him. She knows that even though he's happy she's going to live he would never make the choice for her. He would threaten it, but never force her. Even he who is great at being a vampire didn't want it. She suspects he wanted everything she did. Marriage, a family and to grow old.
He knows she is strong, that even when she feels weak she is still strong. He helped make her into the strong girl she had become afterall. He stayed with her, he fought with her, trained, and spent countless hours talking with her.
He knows the real her, just as she knows the real him.
A few more hours have passed and it's late. She knows that soon she's going to have to drink blood. She's scared and yet she can't voice it. She can't do much of anything. All she knows is that she is so damn glad Damon is here. He was vampire extrodinaire. He could teach her, he would help her. He loved her, and right now that's all she could think about. Damon's love.
"I should go." Go? Wo where? Now?
"What?" She mumbles out. She has only spoken a few words. ('Okay Jer, I'll do it.')
"I have to go Elena." His voice cracks, and his eyes are overwhelmingly sad.
"Why?"
"You want to tell her Stef, or should I?" He looks over to his brother quickly before looking back to her.
"Tell me what?" She demands, the life coming back into her. The anger.
"Don't do this now Damon." Stefan pleads.
"No time like the present. Stefan and I said which ever of us you didn't choose would leave town." His voice isn't as strong as it normally is, and he can't keep eye contact. She already broke him with her words earlier, but she can't help herself from slapping him.
"You promised me you would never leave me again." She chokes out her words, and to her the other people in the room don't exist. It's just the two of them. The tears fall so easily at the though of no more Damon.
"I can't do this without you. I need you." She knows how selfish it sounds, and she thinks so much for letting him go. She hasn't even transitioned, the heightened emotions aren't in full swing and knowing he is leaving makes her feel like she's being torn apart.
"Please Damon, I know it's selfish, and I'm sorry. I don't want you to go. Even if this didn't happen to me I would never want you to leave. I would always need you. Human or Vampire." She sees everything in his eyes, but for the first time ever she sees tears.
"I won't leave you Elena." The tears are streaming down her face and she can't help but launch herself into his arms. She needs to feel the safety of his arms wrap around her. She finally gets that sense of peace, that she can go on and actually do this.
(And this is all before the compulsion wears off of her.)
The reality of her need for Damon isn't lost on anyone in that room. Especially Stefan.
She pulls back and her eyes meet Damon's she knows she made the wrong choice. She thought Stefan would be the safe choice, the right choice, but only with Damon she feels truly safe, with Damon everything could be wrong and things would still be right with them. He wipes the tears away cradling her face in the palms of his hands. He gives her a knowing smile and places a kiss on her forehead.
He's always known her so well. Now more than ever she hopes that he can see that she knows she made the wrong choice.
Should I continue?