Chpt 1: What is This Emotion? (Roxas POV)

"A-Ax-Axel…" I stuttered as I approached him. I wanted to say something to him, but I was afraid. I had no idea as to why, but I was. I just get weak in the knees and breathing gets way to hard to even consider. I sweat at least ten gallons when he touches my skin and the sound of his voice… It's completely mesmerizing now. I know that this feeling is recent. This never happened before. Not until he told me that we are inseparable. Since then, I get weird around him and I kind of want to collapse.
"You okay Roxas?" Axel asked me.
"Fine," I sputtered out quickly. "I'm fine. I… I wanted to say something… But I kind of forgot what… So… ahah… Uh… Never mind."
I looked up into his beautiful green eyes and waited for his reaction.

"Calm down Roxas. You'll give yourself a hear attack if you keep up." Axel responded as he placed his hand on my forehead.
"I'm fine. I promise." I hoped that he would leave it at that, but Axel usually doesn't leave anything alone.

"Get some rest. You look like you need some."
"Thanks Axel."
I turned around, heading for the door, but Axel stopped me.
"Yes?" I asked.

"When you remember what it is that you wanted to tell me, you know where to find me," He said, looking me square in the eye before grinning. "Got it memorized?" He asked, smirking, before he became completely serious again, "If there's anything you need, tell me."
I could tell that he knew I was hiding something and the knowledge was killing him. I wanted to tell him, but I had no idea how to explain the feelings I shouldn't even have… And honestly I was afraid to

"I will, don't worry."
Axel released me and I quickly went to my room, thankfully, breathing correctly, but I was upset that I couldn't be around him anymore.
I sat quietly; trying to figure out how to describe this feeling-if it was even real. Axel's always telling me that Nobodies can't feel… But then… Why can I?
A knock startled me back into reality.

"Y-Yes?" I said, trying to catch my breath.

"Yo! Can I come in? Axel said you were all in a tizzy-okay so those weren't his exact words-but he wants me to talk to you." Demyx's voice came from the other said.

"Yeah, come in." I was half hoping that it would be Axel on the other side, finding it to be Demyx was more than a little disappointing.

"Oh… Hey Demyx… I told Axel I was fine. You don't have to worry about it." I said as he walked into my room. He was wearing some fairly nice clothing for just being around the castle. He looked rather nervous; the same way I felt when I'm near Axel.

"Where are you going?" I asked him, knowing I'd probably regret it sooner or later.
"I told Xiggy-Xigbar that I'd go to the bar with him… Can I do this without making a fool of myself in front of him? I mean… I don't want to embarrass him and make him never want to talk to me. I like his voice too much to never hear it again." He rambled while he bunched up his shirt in his fists.

I smiled, knowing I wasn't alone in this.

"Look, I feel for Axel, the way you feel for Xigbar. I can't talk to him the same anymore… I-I just don't know why. I have no idea as to what this emotion is or if it's real. He makes my stomach churn… In a good way, you know? Xigbar said it was called 'butterflies in your stomach.' I want to tell him and I can tell he knows I'm hiding things and I know it's killing him, but I just can't risk getting hurt… If I even can get hurt. I mean… If he doesn't feel the same… You understand what I'm saying, don't you Demyx?" I looked up to him He actually looked serious for once.

"Roxas… You never know with love-which is the emotion you just described. Things happen. Sometimes you know why and others you just don't… Love and life are a game of Chance… You could be lucky or you could pull a dud. But you've made it through life without much of a hitch… You've made mistakes and you've let them change you… You have to treat love the same way." Demyx went silent and a pregnant silence took over. I jumped a bit when he came up and hugged me, "Tell him… He needs to know."

I was surprised at Demyx's words and I was beginning to think they probably weren't actually his.

"You face your fear, and I'll toughen up and lock my fear up so I can go on this date with Xiggy," Demyx said then grinned widely, "I expect you'll be in Axel's bed when I get back."

I rolled my eyes with a scoff, "Not likely, but I will talk to him."