"Alright, that should be enough for today" I tell Camp Jupiter's newest arrivals.
A chorus sighs escape their mouths. I roll my eyes. My fellow praetor, Frank managed to convince me to train them. They aren't that bad but a decent amount of them are just plain lazy. The only good thing that comes from it is sometimes Jason helps. When he does we get to talk and I feel like we get closer. If only he felt the same way.
'Stop it' I tell myself. Jason only has eyes for Piper. A small, cruel part of me hoped Piper would get killed during the war with Gaia. See no wonder he doesn't love me. Piper would never think that of anyone. Sometimes I feel like no one needs me.
I leave the training grounds at a slow pace. It's pretty late so nearly everyone is asleep. The night sky is a dull, dark blue. The exact opposite to Jason's bright, electric eyes. I stand still for a moment staring at the sky as if it will take me away from here to somewhere better. I snap out of my daze, I feel a pricking behind my eyes. I begin to walk quickly to New Rome.
I enter my apartment and fall against the door. Tears rush down my face like every time I come. I continue to sit there and cry. Until something overcomes me, I'm not upset anymore I'm angry at myself. I'm angry for not being good enough for Jason. I storm into the kitchen and open one of the cupboards. I grab the sharpest knife I can find.
I press the blade against my arm, ready to cut when Jason walks through the. He looks cheerful but the knife wipes his smile away.
"Reyna what are you…" he begins to ask.
"What does it fucking look like" I yell interrupting him.
This is his fault he did this to me! He made me fall for him!
"Reyna please don't there are people who need you" he begs me.
"Oh! Really like who?" I ask
He is silent for a minute until he whispers "I need you"
Did he just confess to me? How long has he cared about me in that way or does he mean like family?
"Well I don't need you" I say firmly.
I pull the knife across my wrist. Pain shoots through my whole arm and blood slowly drips down my arm. Jason runs over to me and wraps my arm in a towel that was by me. I see a few tears run down his face and immediately I begin crying.
We slowly start to sit down on the tiled floor, where my blood is. I sit in between his legs with my head on his shoulder. He ties the towel around my wrist as though it's a bandage.
I look at him directly in the eye and say "Jason, I lied".
He looks confused when he asks "About what".
"When I said I don't need you" I answer. "But I do need you".
A/N: The idea of this came to me when I was listening to 'I Lied' by Nicki Minaj. This was supposed to just be Reyna getting really upset but ended up turning into a Jeyna story. I don't even ship Jeyna, my OTP is freaking Jasiper. But in all seriousness if you are depressed just know suicide is NOT an option and neither is self-harm. There are plenty of people who can help you. Be happy ;D.