Okay, so I am a new writer to the Gossip Girl scene. I will only be writing one shots because I get bored and start new stories and never get them finished. This however, will be a few chapters long. This is also quite different to my other stuff considering my other stuff is pretty gritty.

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Disclaimer: If I owned Gossip Girl I wouldn't be here writing this right now, instead I'd be writing better scripts that keep Blair and Chuck together forever. And Ed would be mine ;)

Better For You

Chapter One: Realisation.

"I love you, I always will...but that doesn't mean I'm in love with you."

Those words haunted him, those words taunted him and those words...killed him. His mind, his soul and his heart could not understand why she would even whisper those words to him. Why would she want to hurt him so much that with every breath, every heart beat and every thought he'd break inside? His love for her would never fade, there was not one day that went by that he did not think of her, think of how just a few weeks ago they were finally fulfilling their fairytale until it was taken away from them in a few short seconds. How could everything change in such a short time? He could have rescued her; he would have if Humphrey hadn't meandered his way into her life and changed all the thoughts she'd ever had. He must have manipulated her in some way to make her no longer love him. He must have. There was no other explanation. Why after five years of unconditionally loving him would she no longer feel that way?

"I love you, I always will...but that doesn't mean I'm in love with you."

The words would not relent in their constant replay in his already tortured mind. Her face as she said them was the only thing he saw when he closed his eyes and her voice, that sweet, sensual, beautiful, melodic voice just seemed so wrong and heartless as it spoke them.

What happened to his Blair to make her whole life change?

"Hey, I didn't think you were coming." Serena immediately wrapped her arms around the poor man in front of her. A diagonal smile crossed his handsome face.

"I was thinking about it." His voice, still so deep and smooth seemed even huskier than ever. Probably due to his excessive drinking over the recent weeks Serena mused.

"Charles!" he turned at the soft exclamation. "I'm so glad you came." Chuck was immediately pulled in for a hug by his adoptive mother. A sudden wave of safety washed over him as he placed his head against her shoulder and a true smile covered his face. "Have a seat next to me won't you?" Lily nodded towards the table where Rufus was placing the finishing touches to the weekly Humphrey brunch. As everyone was seated and began digging in to the delicious food that Rufus had all prepared himself, Chuck couldn't help but feel a swell of love for the three other people that sat at the table with him. Lily was the best replacement mother anyone could ever be lucky enough to have and for her to think of him as if he was her own made him feel even more love for the woman. Rufus, although they had their troubles was also a good person for anyone to turn to in their time of need; and this was definitely one of Chuck's. He knew Rufus would always choose Dan before himself and for that, he couldn't blame him but he also knew the guilt Rufus felt whenever Dan and Blair were brought up in conversation. If it wasn't for Dan, Blair would be with Chuck and everyone knew that all too well. Then of course, there was Serena; she was the perfect 'sister' anyone could want and they could relate well to each other, especially in their recent predicaments. Serena loved Dan; Dan loved Blair. Chuck loved Blair and Blair had feelings for Dan.

How could a group of people's lives get so messed up? It was reminiscent of high school really. Only, there was only three mixed up in that scenario. Nate was the only casualty in that love triangle and even then he wasn't really a casualty. Chuck hoped then, that Dan would be the new victim and in that case, perhaps Serena could be the shoulder for the wimp to cry on.

"Sorry we're late, Blair couldn't find a bag that matched or something." All four heads at the table shot up at the voice that blared down the hal. Serena and Chuck shared looks of horror before Chuck shook the look from his face to replace it with a hard, stern stare. "Oh." Chuck's nostrils flared when both Dan and Blair stopped in their tracks, mouths open in shock. "We thought it would just be the two of you..." Chuck wanted to laugh at humdrum Humphrey's awkwardness.

"Serena and Chuck surprised us." Lily spoke, her mouth a broad smile at the fact her two children had come home after weeks from keeping clear. "And because you were late we thought you weren't coming." Dan's mop of hair swayed as he shook his head.

"No, no, we're here, just like every week." Chuck noticed Serena's eyes roll at Humphrey's statement. Of course he came every week.

Blair remained stationary as Dan took a seat next to his father. The only other seat left was the one right in the middle of Dan and Chuck. Chuck was unsure he would be able to cope with her being in such a close proximity. He doubted he'd be able to keep his composure if he smelt her perfume and saw her bare neck...

"Blair?" Dan questioned pulling the chair back. Chuck wondered if Humphrey was worried about her sitting next to her ex, especially when they were so connected. Dan had been the one in fact to mention how their chemistry should be studied because there were continually drawn to each other. Chuck had to agree with such a thought.

Chuck's brown eyes watched her intently as she bounced from foot to foot slightly before finally removing her coat and sitting in the chair. Chuck took a deep breath when he smelt the strong, distinctive wave of her perfume. Out of the corner of his eye he saw her raise her right leg to cross it over her left. Chuck almost choked when the top of her stocking came into view. She must have noticed because she quickly pulled her skirt back down. She was leaning towards Dan, maybe to be close to him, or perhaps as a way to get as far from Chuck as she could. Chuck for one, suspected the latter. She leant her head against the palm of her left arm unconsciously giving him a clear view of the porcelain skin of her neck.

The scraping sound of his chair made everyone's heads rise in alarm. He stood uncomfortably in front of them and cleared his throat nervously. Since when did Chuck Bass get nervous? "I'm afraid I must be going, I have a business meeting." His usually calm and suave voice was barely recognisable to himself. Why did she have to do this to him? Without another word from anyone he walked from the apartment, not once looking back.

Why did he have to love Blair Waldorf so damned much?

"I love you, I always will...but that doesn't mean I'm in love with you."

She knew he was there the moment they stepped into the lobby of the apartment building. The air was thick with the musky scent of his aftershave and as strange to some people as it may be, she simply sensed that Chuck Bass was in the vicinity. Maybe it was their strong, uncontrollable pull that made her senses fill with everything that was Chuck or maybe he imprinted everywhere he went, just like he'd imprinted on her heart.

"Is this about saving my life again, because I thought we were past that? You wanted to wait until your marriage was over, and now it's over...because I love you."

She wondered if Dan had realised her sudden silence and nervousness as they rode the elevator to the Van Der Woodsen- Humphrey apartment. Of course, his chatter was plenty enough for the both of them. Her heart was beating wildly in her chest and she could have sworn she heard his deep voice through the thick metal doors. Why did she care? Wasn't she the one that had finally ended all ties with him to be with Dan?

But at that precise moment, the only question that hung in her head was why in the world did she do that?

Chuck Bass loved her incandescently; more than his own life, more than anyone had ever and probably would ever love her. Sure, Dan would love her and care for her and would easily never hurt her but where was that passion that she and Chuck shared? Where was that burning chemistry that left her quivering for something as simple as a touch? She hated herself for questioning her relationship with Dan; she should be happy, she had broken Chuck's heart for this so surely it should be worth it? It should be enough?

Then why did the look on Chuck's face when she'd told him she no longer loved him haunt her every thought. He looked like someone had told him she'd died. Maybe to him she had.

"Is this about saving my life again, because I thought we were past that? You wanted to wait until your marriage was over, and now it's over...because I love you."

"Sorry we're late, Blair couldn't find a bag that matched or something." She hadn't even noticed that she'd walked into the sitting area of the apartment until Dan spoke. She refused to even look in Chuck's direction. There was no knowing what would happen considering how fast her heart was now beating and by the quick glance she threw in his direction he also refused to look at her.

She fought back the sudden urge to run to him, to wrap her arms around him and cry into his shoulder, beg him to take her back; that she'd made a mistake and that she loved him. Of course, she knew she couldn't do such a thing. He may resent such a show of affection and for all she knew, he could now hate her.

"We thought it would just be the two of you..." Blair's eyes glanced to Dan. Really? Did he not sense Chuck's presence too? Maybe it was simply their electricity that made only her sense him she pondered.

"Serena and Chuck surprised us. And because you were late we thought you weren't coming." Blair's eyes flashed to her best friend that almost seemed like a stranger to her now. Even Serena refused to look at her and all for what? Dan Humphrey. Was that really worth it? No. Blair shook her head slightly at the thought. She had to work through it with Dan. She had to. It wouldn't be fair to him; it wouldn't be fair to Serena or Chuck. It wouldn't be fair to her.

"No, no, we're here, just like every week." Blair fought to not roll her eyes at Dan's statement. Just like every week. She had to pretend to enjoy these little family gatherings every. Single. Week.

Dan made his way over to the table and Blair continued to stand where she was. Why did Dan just leave the seat next to Chuck free? Did he want to test her? Was it a trick? Of course not Blair, the man's going to sit next to his father. But what if it was? Could she handle sitting next to Chuck? She doubted it. The smell of him was already sending her into a daze. Maybe she should just run away now? No, just go sit down.

"Blair?" Her eyes widened slightly when she realised just how long she'd been standing there. She quickly removed her jacket and took the seat left for her. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed Chuck's hand form a fist against his thigh and his eyes were looking down at her leg. Noticing her stocking was in full view made her quickly pull her skirt down but not before feeling a giddy feeling that she could still make Chuck Bass tick.

She purposefully began leaning towards Dan but not in the way she probably should have, but instead because Chuck was unconsciously pulling her to him. Everyone was right; they did have a strange cosmic pull towards each other and she wanted nothing more than to give heed to it. She missed him. She well and truly missed everything about him. And it was all her fault.

"I'm afraid I must be going, I have a business meeting." Her head shifted to her right as soon as she felt his presence shift next to her. Don't go. She hated the fact that it was her that was causing him to leave so soon. She had no idea how much she'd missed him until he was with her at that moment. How long could she pretend she no longer loved him? How long could she continue pretending it was Dan that made her happy? She watched him as he left the room, walking in his Chuck Bass walk. Don't go.

"Is this about saving my life again, because I thought we were past that? You wanted to wait until your marriage was over, and now it's over...because I love you."

Okay so a short introductory kind of chapter. This will be 4 chapters max.

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