Warnings: Shounen-ai in general, SasuNaru in particular. Later parts have also hints of GaaLee. Lot's of huge Flashbacks.
Disclaimer: If I'd own Naruto, you wouldn't be reading any fanfictions about it. No one would write them.
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Black hair flowed in the light wind as an about 15 years old boy sat on the railing of a bridge. His dark eyes stared at the horizon where the sun was setting. The sunset coloured the sky different shades of red and also reflected its colours on the water in the river under the bridge. The river was
lapping calmly and mingling the colours and boy's own reflection to a blurred image. The boy also had the same kind of blur inside his head. Uchiha Sasuke closed his eyes from the sunset with a heavy sigh and collected his thoughts. This is what he did every evening. Ever since the one particular day. A light smile rose on Sasuke's face. One couldn't tell if the smile was happy,
sad or sarcastic. Sasuke himself wasn't too sure of it either.
The boy opened his eyes again. Now they were different. Sharingan, characteristic feature of the Uchiha-clan, was now dominating the eyes. That's because Sasuke had wanted it to. This was also something he did every evening. It reminded him of certain things. But Sasuke wasn't too sure if it
was good or bad things. He wanted to remember these things, but at the same time he would rather not remember them. But the boy knew that he must not forget them. Never. That day he was about to make the biggest mistake of his life. It had been so close. So close, that still Sasuke was shivering when he was thinking about it. What would have happened if he had finished the thing he started? One complicated thing would now have been out of his daily order. He preferred suffering it now
rather than to have lost it then. His life would be empty by now without a certain person who he had almost killed in his craving for power.
"Naruto…" Sasuke whispered to the wind. He said it so quietly, that even if there had been someone standing right next to him, that person wouldn't have heard it. And because his collar was in front of his mouth like usual, one could not read the word from his lips either. That one particular word, the name of a person, meant much to him. It was his most important word and he said it every evening. He said it with affection in his voice. Affection like no one would ever expect to hear from Uchiha Sasuke's mouth. And no one did. At least not yet. As long as Sasuke decides to hide his feelings no one would. And if Sasuke decided to never reveal his feelings, then no one would ever hear it. Sasuke would talk like that to only one person. Naruto. But not now, not yet. Right now he'd act like if nothing was out of order.
Sasuke had started to treat Naruto better after that day. Or actually not right after it. But anyway. At first he just didn't talk to Naruto at all, and that also meant he wasn't mean to him. But later when he was ready to talk he treated him just like he always had. That is, before he started to treat him more friendly for many reasons. Not too straight of course, because that could have caused suspicions. He didn't want anyone to try to figure things out, which would have been awkward. So he just kept lessening bullying and other things little by little and everything happened kind of discreetly and no one noticed anything. At least he thought so.
These were just the things Sasuke thought about every evening. He was always running over the events that occurred in the last three years and figuring out his feelings. He closed his eyes and soon opened them again, without sharingan. The boy was watching the setting sun. The sky was now red as blood. It brought a flashback-kind of thing to Sasuke's mind. About the beginning of everything…
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"Sasuke!" Naruto's voice called. A 12-year-old boy with black hair stopped after hearing the voice of the blond boy standing behind him. Or the boy wasn't actually standing behind him; in the middle of them was foamy waterfall. Sasuke was standing on the huge statue, which resembled the first Hokage of Konoha-village. Naruto in other hand was standing on the second Hokage's head.
"Sasuke!" Naruto shouted again. For a moment Sasuke just stood still before he started to walk away. He didn't care about the shouting of the other boy. Naruto took a step forward and shouted again.
"Sasuke! Are you going to run away from me?" That made the dark haired boy halt and turn his stare. Sasuke's left eye was different from the usual. The white of his eye was completely black and the iris was yellow. The left side of his face was also different from what Naruto was used to. On his face were black marks. Orochimaru's creation.
Sasuke was laughing with a laugh as cold as winter. Naruto had never heard him laugh like that. The blond boy's face was showing emotions of fear, disbelief, surprise and many others.
"It's you this time?" Sasuke asked coldly, referring to how Sakura had begged him to stay on that night when he had decided to join Orochimaru. And to gain power. Power you could never get if you stayed in Konoha playing a good little ninja with Naruto and the others.
"What's with that face?" Sasuke continued and laughed again. Naruto's face contorted with pain, which he felt in his heart for Sasuke.
"Why?" Naruto asked, "Sasuke! Why did you become like this?" he shouted the rest right to Sasuke's face. It did hurt the dark boy. A little. But he didn't show it.
"What does it matter to you, whatever I become?" he asked with colourless voice.
"I have chosen my path. No matter who it is, nobody has the right to tell me what to do." At this moment Naruto's expression changed to something similar to hate. Sasuke continued without any mercy.
"I make this clear for you. My childish games with you and Konoha are over now." Silence.
"Go home."
Sasuke still was able to catch a glimpse of Naruto's expression. It was full of different kind of feelings; from sadness to disappointment and from that to hate. Sasuke turned his back to him and started to walk away. Actually turning around and taking back everything crossed his mind, but that thought drowned soon enough. And that was all he had time to think before something cast a shadow over him.
"Just what do you think your comrades in Konoha are?" Naruto shrieked and tipped Sasuke over roughly with his bodyweight and bouncing power. The next thing Sasuke realized was that Naruto punched him right into face.
The events after that were blurred in Sasuke's memory; he could hardly recall what happened. He had started to fight with Naruto. Once in a while Naruto shout at him things about companionship, being friends and even something about being like brothers.
Sasuke himself had shouted about power that could not be obtained without Orochimaru. And about revenge to his brother, Itachi. Also, because of his revenge, he had to kill Naruto. Itachi had told him so and he had read it from the forbidden scroll of the Uchiha family by himself. The scroll had
read that the owner of sharingan, who killed his best friend, would obtain Mangekyo sharingan, the more powerful sharingan. With that one would be able to do lot of things that a normal Uchiha couldn't. Itachi was able to do lot of things that Sasuke couldn't. Unless… he killed his closest friend, Naruto.
The fight had finally leaded to that point where Sasuke had to use the second stage of the power he obtained from Orochimaru; turning into a full beast. And Naruto had started to use that red and hostile chakra of his, which he seemed to use in emergencies. Sasuke still didn't know what that
chakra was. Naruto never told him. It did make Naruto transform to look more like a beast, with his eyes turned streaks. The battle became even more serious than it already was. Well, if you could turn the battle of life and death more serious.
They were very equal until they decided to make the fight end at once. Sasuke used his Chidori and Naruto used his Rasengan. They crashed. Sasuke was actually winning. But then his eyes just opened. He saw what he was doing and he realized that it wasn't worth it. He gave up. They both flew by the power of the energy wave and collided with ground. Naruto would have probably died if Sasuke had not interrupted his own attack, or in fact stopped giving power to it. But Sasuke had stopped just in time. He had spared his friends life at the last minute.
Sasuke was about to pass out, but he stayed awake for Naruto. He wanted to hear that he was alright before he'd allow himself to pass out. At that moment it started to rain. It made things more complicated. Raindrops on dark boy's cheeks brought a relaxed feeling along and it was too hard to
resist. He lost his consciousness, but just before that was able to see how a dark figure limped towards him.
"I'm sorry... Naruto..." he whispered before everything went dark.
The next time he woke up he was in Konoha's hospital. Naruto had brought him back. His every muscle ached and the most painful was his head. Or no, his shoulder was the one that hurt most, particularly the spot where was Orochimaru's mark. Sasuke lifted his hand on the mark and his face contorted with pain. Both physical and emotional. But there was one thing he had decided: he wouldn't go to Orochimaru. He would stay in Konoha, with Naruto. A small smile reached his lips before he lost his consciousness again.
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Sasuke returned to reality, back to the bridge he was sitting on watching the sunset. Naruto had saved him from the darkness that day, three years ago. That day Sasuke's new life had begun. A smile crossed his lips. Naruto… But the sun disappeared from the horizon, which meant that Sasuke
should go to his home and catch some sleep. He would continue his pondering tomorrow. He should go the whole thing through again. Well, before he would be able to ponder his current situation again.
The boy hopped off the bridge railing to his feet and walked through Konoha's roads towards his home. He purposely took the longer route so he could walk past Naruto's house. He took a look at the window of the house. There was no light so Naruto was asleep. After a quick glance around, Sasuke jumped soundlessly behind Naruto's bedroom window. He peeked in, which was rather easy, because Naruto never remembered to close the curtains. Inside the blond boy was laying in his bed with that silly nightcap on his head. Naruto was adorable when he was asleep. Sasuke smiled to him, even though he couldn't be able to see it.
"Good night, Naruto", he whispered and jumped back to the darkness of the night.
A/N: This is the beginning of Complicated, my very own and first SasuNaru-fic. Well, in the beginning it is mostly about what has happened before, which means quite a lot of annoying flashbacks. But after we get over Sasuke's ponderings we'll start to see some action. And yes, some of this ( actually most of this) is copied straight from anime, but I'm sure you understand why it was necessary. And yes, this isn't too good right now, but this sounded like a good idea about half an year ago. But it'll get better on the next chapter and chapters after that.